'i wonder what this is. Kiss Biscuit. Looks like a diabetic's nightmare. Pink sugar coating with hundreds and thousands sprinkles on it.'

'really apprehensive about this. here goes nothing!'

*gasps*

'it's still got jam in there!!' *faints*

(the end)

self-amusement during study break. pardon the lameness of this post! =) studying drives people insane. hehe!

Smart women often make bad love choices
Studies have shown that the higher a woman's IQ (intelligence quota), the lower her EQ (emotional quota). This means that the brighter a woman is, the less likely she is to make good relationship choices.

Professional women, it has been shown, are more likely to divorce and have affairs and are less likely to have children.

The American Journal Of Marriage & Family cites several studies that show how the divorce rate rises for women who out-earn their male partners.

In fact, women who earn more than their husbands divorce twice as often as those who earn less.

It demonstrates that financially successful women are less tolerant and more controlling of less successful men, and that these men have difficulty living with women who are more successful than them.

Dr Robert Holden, author of Success Intelligence, says that intelligent women spend too much time analysing the meanings and motives in their relationships, instead of just letting themselves be open and emotionally vulnerable to their men.

My 600th post on this blog! We've come a long way indeed.

Had the OSCEs yesterday. Wasn't as bad as I thought it would have been. Probably didn't do as well in the physiology station as I would have loved to, simply because I wasn't sure how to prepare for it. But I should have done relatively well for the other 4 stations, which is awesome.

Station 1: Hx taking - DDx = Bowel cancer, Haemorrhoids

Station 2: GI examination - Talk through till abdo, Examine from abdomen onwards

Station 3: Physiology - GFR, ARBs, ACEI, MDRD

Station 4: Written Examination - Adult Polycystic Kidney Disease

Station 5: Research Ethics and Genetics Privacy/Discrimination

Friday was spent at Elvin3's with Christin@, Darr3n, and Joel3n3. Basically spent the whole day eating instead of studying but it was fun!

Snack: Boiled Sweet Potatoes

Lunch: Leftover Chicken Stew with Rice, Salmon Sashimi, Freshly Baked Bread, Watermelon, Scones

Snack: Timtams

Dinner: Meatloaf, Potatoes with Truffle Oil, Green Salad, Salmon Sashimi, Chocolate Fudge

We finished lunch at about 3pm. Had dinner at about 6+pm. Imagine how full we were! But the food was yummilicious! Thanks Auntie!

Swot-vac has officially started means that the exams are REALLY coming right up!

27 Oct: Theme 1 Written Exam

2 Nov: Perspectives on Aging Exam

4 Nov: Applied Exam

And then I'm done with the exams! With second year of medical school! With preclinical years!

Would be returning to sunny Singapore on 11th Nov! Can't wait! This semester seems to have gone by in a flash. What's new really. Every semester seems like it's flying by and before we know it, we would all be doctors.

Dr Nah, Dr Wong, Dr Neo, Dr Liew, Dr Lau.

Can't imagine that day. I think I would cry. It would have been a long bumpy ride.

Had valedictory dinner on Thursday and we were just listening to the short introduction to the people who were leaving and then Christin@ and I realised that we didn't really want to leave Jane with '___ has been with us for 3/4/5 years and is from Singapore. She studied Medicine.' and thats it! We decided that we would TRY to do something at Jane, be it sports/art show/play/whatever.

dinner that night was niceeee.

Starters: Half an avocado with green salad, beansprouts and kecap manis

Dinner: Macadamia Nut with Lime Leaf Crusted Salmon Steak with Stewed Artichokes and Leek

Dessert: Vanilla Panacotta with Cherry Sauce

The panacotta was TO DIE FOR. I'm so glad I stayed for dessert. *slurps* Sorry but I haven't got pictures this time around. Stomach's growling just thinking of it! XD

just me and my new laptop wallpaper! should just print this and plaster my room with it wherever i turn.

in case you are wondering, they are all my classmates except the one on the right in the bottom left picture. and most of them are smart. which is what is hopefully going to motivate me to study!

such gimmicks. but it's been working thus far (~1h)

haven't been updating because like i said before, life's not too interesting at the moment. how unfortunate. think i've been eating too much and not moving enough. feeling slightly fat bloated now. plus the stench in the pantry isn't helping at all. seriously, this is the stinkiest it has ever been! i wonder who it is that threw whatever it was away! pfft! it's making me nauseous!

rearranged my table - all ready for swotvac! sort of read through pharm and part of renal physiology over the weekend in preparation for the OSCE on saturday. made flashcards for GI/renal Hx and examination. need to start talking to myself again. i'm sort of glad that GI/renal doesn't really require a male guinea pig patient unlike CVS/resp last semester.

its just 4 more weeks till home! will be back on the 11 nov! hanging around for a week after my exams end to pack up my room and maybe do a tour of tassie with some friends. we'll see how that goes. can't believe yr 2 is almost over! now i JUST have to clear this hurdle! *fingers crossed*

and that reminds me. there's still theme 4 to study for for the OSCE! like wth?! urgh. not liking the OSCE at all now. got to go do all the various presentations for the different pathologies for the written station too. nooo.. saturday please don't come so soon!

and stupid body of mine! please stop giving me dizzy spells as and when you like! I NEED TO BE ABLE TO STUDY! been feeling slightly zonked out the past few days - as if my eyes and brain aren't connected and nothing's being processed. which is horrible! i think i might just head off to bed soon, maybe after one round of practice osce with my bolster. =( how sad.

last week of uni!!!!!! OMG!!! *jumps for joy*

and shit exams are coming!

i'm getting a bit tired now that it's near the end of semester to blog properly. life's been too mundane. alright we did surprise elvin3 on thurs night cos his birthday was on friday. that was quite fun! he was about to go to sleep when we turned up at his doorstep. hehe!

but i think the funniest part was when we were trying to get into his building. there was this caucasian lady who was entering too so we were just following her. mind you, there were about 10+ of us. and i think she sort of freaked out cos someone shouted 'follow her!!' which made it sound as if we were gonna do something to her (which of course we weren't) so unfortunately, we were stuck at the glass door and had to call elvine to open the door in the end because she freaked out and went back to her car and actually sat there waiting for us to leave. it took a while for us to get through so she actually drove out again! WTF! hahaha! how scary can a group of 10+ asians look? plus we were holding the freaking cake box! unless it looked like a bomb to paranoid her. LOL!

we went up to his apartment and the guys raided elvin3's alcohol stash! all of us ended up finishing 1/3 of the gold label whiskey, finished up a new bottle of blue douglas and the remaining bailey's that was in the fridge and one new bottle of champagne! seriously the guys ah. but it was damn funny seeing elvin3 dance and stuff. it feels really nice to have people rmb ur birthday and actually celebrate and organise some sort of surprise.

so thats the most exciting part of my week. oh and getting ripped off at some chinese 'restaurant'!

they were having a lunch special for $8.50 which included soup, main course and dessert. so we went in and ordered 'mushroom soup' between a choice of that and chicken/corn. sounded like creamy mushroom soup - the campbell sort but guess what we got? clear msg-laden broth with sliced champignons! -.-"

then we ordered boiled dumplings for mains. we thought it came with rice! because the menu said that all mains came with rice/fried rice! they didn't say except the dumplings. grr. stupid! so we weren't full at all! so we ordered another small plate of fried rice to share. STILL NOT FULL. pekchek already.

dessert was supposed to be ice cream but for $1 more u get a banana fritter too so that was alright i guess. didn't feel ripped off about the dessert.

ended up paying $11.30 person instead of $8.50! should have gone next door and gotten myself a plate of rice for $8 with 2 dishes and that would have made me bloated instead of just barely full!

nv go to 'dragon pa1ace'! pfft. angry angry!

sleep, uni, eat, watch House MD.

maybe some exercise in between all that.

that's my life atm.

although i had one more birthday party last sat which was quite fun to be honest. 1st time i actually danced with no regard to what people thought of me! LOL! always too self-conscious i guess. hehe!

really random thought but i wanna go mambo night and watch everyone dance in sync! especially to the classics like 'heaven is a place on earth' and 'summer rain'!

alright! dinner time!

Never work with kids or animals

isn't he the most adorable thing ever? aww!

and now for the group photo.

take 1. lookie here! pink pen!

take 2!

take 3!

take 4! ok give up already! =)

the two kids look the same size right? although maddy's 4 and lochie's only 1!

Banya's 21st Party

r1tha and sabr1na! wonder what sab's trying to do! =)

*note to self. i hate flash. makes my one eye big one eye small 'defect' even more obvious!

sab, b3c, ann1ka!

i must find a way to keep my left eye open!

love marcu5' fedora! gives my outfit a new edge.

m@rk and an1ta! i love this photo! i look pretty and slim(mer) here! hehe!

alright i should hit the sack soon. 2nd day of mental health first aid tmr! i'll update again soon! toodles!

got back my midsem results! 83%! woohoo! although to be honest it could have been much better if not for my changing two of my answers! and using a bit more brain on 2 of them. and not forgetting what i studied the night before on one of them. which means i could have gotten full marks! DAMMIT!

oh well its only 5% overall so that's alright. not too bothered by it. i think some people would kill me right now for saying how i actually felt a little upset at a high distinction! LOL! but it wasn't a tough paper. rather easy to be honest but had some tricks here and there. highest was 91% while lowest was 31%.

anyway i'm going for a mental health first aid course this weekend! heavily subsidised by the rural health club! it's going to be awesome i think! one more certificate to add to my collection. -.-" no but seriously i think mental health is a very important area that is under explored.

this friday is insane with 5 lectures. tmr's just pharm tute and pharm lecture so i end at 12 if i do not have kfp after it. which is good cos that means i can try to finish up my diabetes insipidus lecture and reflective piece maybe? although reflective piece can be ignored till next yr. we'll see how things work out.

gonna shower and go for tutorial soon! =)

i love this productive, motivated, mugger me!

tmr 9 am = 7am singapore!

might be MIA for the next few days because of the test on monday. SWOT-VAC mode in action right now.

watched 4 korean movies over the holidays! =) that made my day! i forgot how good it feels to be able to relax and just watch movies. alright maybe not relaxed but still! it feels good to be able to watch movies and slack in between studying.

the naked kitchen was confusing and not nice. although the guy's the goong crown prince so that was the saving grace. you even get to see his naked back view! LOL! so yes. that was it.

antique kitchen was the first movie i watched and it was nice! although the gay-ness of it was a shock at first because i didn't realise it was a gay show. ;) so for those who aren't homophomes, it is a good movie to watch!

hello schoolgirl and 100 days with mr arrogant are your typical korean movies so it was made me feel all lovey dovey again. love meter's all full and ready to go! HAHA! nice nice! they're the feel-good movies that make the world seem like a better place!

alright. i should go hit the books again. test in 6 days! *freaks out*

i feel liberated. like the pressure in me's all released. i feel free - free from the ghosts of the past. i can smile again. =) now to pick up my things and move on to better and more important things.

today has been rather (un)productive, depending on what you're talking about. let's just say that today has been a HOLIDAY! gotta really start on my reflective piece and revision tmr. cannot be distracted already!

went for yoga today and we walked past chick3nfeed and they had this comestic section of it! OMG I SWEAR WE WENT GAGA INSIDE! if not for me not having enough money, i might have bought the entire place!

guess how much this stash cost me?

let's see. watsons would prob sell the perfectfirm pro for $40? dermagenesis concentrated serum for $30? loreal bare natural mineral makeup for $25? loreal colour appeal trio pro eyeshadows for $15?

so that would be $110?

well. i got them all for $20! it was 2 for $10!!!! and it's all made in germany, italy and USA! not indonesia or whatever other places you get them from! how awesome is that! very very happy!

decided to go down to wooli3s to get some food so that we can cook. ended up buying food for steamboat! hahaha!

this is half of what we bought except the chicken. that was all of it. the sausage looking things are actually chicken necks. we were sooo full by the end of it! and the groceries cost us $30+ (2x amount shown) so we split it by 2 people (christ1na and myself) and we only ate half the amount! so we only spent like $7-9 for dinner! yummy!

and yes that is shabu shabu beef! ;)

made tea leaf eggs too! we'll see how they taste tmr!

konnyaku the day before!

just realised how picture intensive my blog posts are! but would you guys prefer posts with more pictures or more words? *poll please!*

it's damn fucking (pardon the language) hard to find a place to move out into that's in town, that's not too expensive and doesn't require me to pay 3mth worth of rent for nothing. and with enough rooms too.

there's this really nice place but it's only two rooms and now we have three (?). meh.

not liking how electricity is going to be more expensive and how they're gonna start metering out water too! =(

michelle hates trouble yet she seems to be looking for trouble at the moment.

in fact, she even felt a little sad that she might be leaving jan3! oh no! what's happening to her! too attached to this lovely place!

despite the torrential rain today, we still made it to cascades after much deliberation etc! =) first time i used my phone this much! hahahaha! anyway, it was an interesting trip nonetheless and although i wished the rain stopped so that we would be able to explore the extensive gardens.. =( thats my only regret (of sorts). oh well. there's always another time! hehehe!

for starters, presenting, the grains!

middle one's lightly roasted while the right one's roasted (duh chaota already!)

wooden thing's the old old kettle that survived the fire back in 1967. they (used to) mix/boil the water and grains together in there. today it's just used to store the mixture i think.

us outside the brewery. looks hogwartish? =) its one of the oldest breweries in australia and one of the few that do things the traditional (method wise) way!

fermenter's to our right! can peer through the peephole to have a look into the bubbling amber pureness. yummyyyy..

bottles! probably rejects? not sure why they were just outside in a huge dustbin thing.

bottling process behind me!

beer taps! draft, pale ale, cascade green, premium lager, first harvest! stout was available too but it was in the bottle. and it was actually quite nice!

*btw stout has the MOST hobs in it! and lager is made at a lower temp than ale!

and of course, presenting us with our free drinks!

mine's ginger beer (which was REALLY REALLY nice!), elvin3's holding the pale ale and christ1na's blocking her raspberry drink.

had lunch there. the beer battered fish was yummy and so was our steak. the garlic bread wasnt garlicky enough so boo. the desserts were yum! although the stout ice cream tasted very much like cappucinno ice cream for some reason. the cheesecakes were awesome too esp the honey comb and chocolate one. the passionfruit one was alright. scones were hot and the jam was oooo with cream that formed soft peaks.

*heavenly*

now you know why i've put on weight over these few days. argh i need to go back to yoga. but the weather is BAD BAD BAD!!!

PS. went for my eye test today and all's fine!

R: 6/5

L: 6/6

everything in my eyes' alright too. blood vessels, nerves etc. =) i'm still glad that my vision's awesome. although that means i have to wear goggles on various occasions but i guess that's still less troublesome than having to grapple with specs considering how sunglasses rarely stay on my nose properly.

i'm now sitting in the clinical school lecture theatre waiting for the GIT overview lecture to start. kirkcaldi3's drawing a mouth - anus picture which is rather interesting atm. hope i can take a picture of it later or sth. we'll see if i rmb. hahaha! =)

here's half of it! him drawing half of it. hehehe..

ok he's starting le! ciao people~!

PS. gonna go to the optometrist and pathology lab later to do my eye test and FBC, Fe studies and TSH tests. gonna lose blood again. boo.

oh man i've been having too much good food these two days! hahaha but of course i'm not really complaining since this is not a frequent phenomenon! =)

went out to drunk3n admiral (again) and had the same seafood sticks on hot rock thing. yummyy..

one stick of scallops. ones stick of sotong. one stick of fish and prawns. with garlic butter and some sauce that tastes oddly like the macs chicken nugget curry. hahaha! although i think it is bbq sauce or sth bah.

arrived at the hotel earlier than expected to pick up kok w33 so we hung around and started camwhoring. the rest are on fb and it's obvious that we were absolutely bored and the freezing wind didnt help with our brains thinking straight too. =) hehehe! although i must say some of the pictures are really pretty!

my pathetic attempt at emoing with the pole.

heeellppp! jeremy was above while we were below and it was fun! had a pic of my posing the the stairs but that wasnt taken properly la.

was quite embarrassing considering how there were people walking past despite us already being at the back of the building. hilarious though. i love taking random photos that arent the usual stand-smile-take type of photos! because there is only so many you can take.

i love randomness and thats why i love us! =)

Absolutely Hilarious Bathroom Mirror Prank - Watch more Pranks

According to http://www.friendshipstats.com I have 936 friends, 816 more than average. 35% are male, 65% are female. 235 are single, 231 are dating or married. If I contracted a deadly variant of flu, I would likely infect 17 people, 2 of whom would die. When I share something on Facebook, it is typically viewed by 47 people. If I died today, an estimated 768 people would try to attend my funeral. Based on my Facebook profile, I have a 97% probability of getting married. I am likely to earn US$2.7 million and have 2.9 children over my lifetime.

i hope my 'salary' is at least my annual salary! would be great if that is my monthly though! =)

i'm feeling quite good these few days. things seem to be going my way most of the time. =)

and i'm glad it's only saturday! feels like sunday already because i feel like i've done a lot of work already. so knowing that it's actually only saturday actually feels awesome. it's been ages since i've felt this great. maybe it's the yoga. haha! i have no idea. but studying in school after classes end have been really productive and i'm loving it.

this week's the last week of uni before the mid-semester break so i've gotta finish up all the various lectures so that i can actually start mugging for the exam that's coming up one week after the holidays. plus there's still reflective piece to do. and not to forget the various PoA discussion posts. pfft. heaps of work to get done so i hope i wouldn't be too distracted during the holidays!

although having said that, i'm thinking of going down to cascade breweries for the tour with the jane people! =) cos 1. its near to jane 2. its a short tour 3. the gardens there are supposedly really pretty! so this will be my little getaway from work and taking a tour of hobart. it's sad how i've been here for almost 2 years and i havent been anywhere at all! unlike friends who have been here on holidays. they've probably travelled more than me! grr. what sorta shit is this?! i want a car! hahahah!

these few days i've been hearing people talking about moving out of jan3/uni apt etc. and i sit there thinking if i want to move out. yes staying at jan3 might be a THAT little more pricey than moving out but is the hassle/human relationship problems worth it? i don't think so. i know myself. i think if i end up living in an apartment with people, i would end up pissing a few people off (or rather the other way around) so it would not be nice. it's great hanging out as friends but housemates can be a different issue altogether.

so i think i'm sticking to jane. i've got everything i need except a car for convenience sake. what's not to like? besides, there's a shuttle to uni/town and if i get a car, that would solve the awkward hours of some rotations already. =D

UTAS - a day in the life of a student

Tour of my University for those who have been curious!

the new School of Medicine and Menzi3s Research Institute.

To be completed by the end of this yr.

WHEE~!!

"The Winner Takes It All"

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...

almost instant curry chicken noodles. =) still have some leftovers so that shall be my meals for 2 more meals.. or maybe just some post-dinner dessert.. haha since there really isnt that much left..

beancurd skin with barley dessert! =)

Singapore Night 2009

yesterday was singapore night and it was a great success (phew!)! but yes i am SO glad it is finally over. we were all going nuts soon. but that's not appropriate for public viewing so i shall keep it in. ask me personally if you really want to know but really, i'm just going to let it all go.

made a video (my first!) and i'm quite proud of it actually. i don't care if people disagree. no one wanted to do it so everyone shall just shut up and keep the comments to yourself unless it is about how good it is.

theme was getai so i bought a yellow feather boa from reject shop and wore a dress i already had. =) didn't turn out too bad really. although the feather boa kept sliding off and pissed me off a little so i removed it after a while. only put it back on later for photos etc. lol!

didn't take photos of the food but it was great. especially the dessert. didn't take that many photos with my camera so right now i'm just waiting for people to tag me on facebook. plus chris' camera was the official camera so we'll have to wait for him to upload (which might take a while from experience! grr..)

anw the reason why i'm so glad this is over is because the workload was sort of unevenly shared. i came up with the theme, made the video, found the national anthem vid, had to do all the games by myself and that included ripping songs etc, sourced for some decoration and all the little little things that no one wants to do. and i was supposed to usher, rahrah the crowd before the event, hold the token of appreciation, help the performers with their food, get performers ready, help darren (games emcee) with the games, present the lucky draw prizes, ensure that everything's going alright etc. i dunno la. somehow i felt like i was doing a lot a lot a lot. but of course the other people (some not all) had to go settle stuff with wr3st point which is probably worse than mine la huh. oh well. its over its over its over. stop thinking and harping on it!

but yes. it was a really busy night. even my friends were like 'michelle! go get something to eat! stop running here and there!'

in between my busy-ness, i still managed to get some photos! =) phewww how sad would it be to go and end up without photos at all!

2nd yr meddies! L-R: Cho, Elvin3, Me, Darr3n, K1m

sham!

L-R: joelen3 with jad3's pink feather boa, Me and Marcu5!

the rest are on facebook.

alright. back to work. just a short update for all you wonderful people out there. *muacks*

we just received the national day goodie bag from singapore! =) minus all the food products and i think the fan and batteries.

it's a 2-way bag! quite cute actually. can be a tote or a sling! will take pictures of it when i'm more free. i think i want the hot pink or lime green one. bright wonderful colours! the blue and purple are not too bad too. i think the darker green's not as nice though. but nonetheless, it's good to get the goodie bag!

i think the mr bean drumstick thing is sooo cute. =) although it's not advisable to knock the drum thing with the leaf because it dents the thing! hahaha!

there really isn't any permanence in life. even more so when you're studying overseas. everything changes and you don't feel like you belong despite how well you've assimilated into the lifestyle. but that's a story for another day.

i just found out that some of the supp people failed their supp papers. unfortunately one of them's my close friend. now i feel quite sad because he would so full of shit that sometimes i didn't know what to say to him. i'm already missing him.

i really hate losing friends and classmates this way. i really do. just as you're getting to know them better, they're gone. =(

i'll miss you heaps in class kamal. your nonsense and how you attempt to speak singlish. your horrible sense of timing that caused us to reach Snug at an insane time during rural week and those late night chats during rural week that lead to us spouting nonsense as we were too tired to think properly. you were always the one that broke the silence.

i'll always rmb the first time i saw you with your big hair and cap. (damn i don't have a picture of that!) i'll rmb how you cooked your pasta and wedges, how you attempted to light the fireplace (LOL!). those were good times.

hope to see you around soon bro. i really do miss seeing you around in class.

bought strawberries the other day and they are actually sweet! unlike the ones you get in singapore which are sour. eww. seriously, i never thought they could actually be sweet! lol! but i guess the best ones would still be the ones fresh off the stalk/runner! =)

went out for dinner with r7an today. it was actually not as awkward as i thought it would be!

i don't know about you but i find guys opening the doors for you, pulling the chair out for you etc really nice and refreshing for a change! lol! i know this sounds really retarded but it really makes you feel special even if you're not. haha! it's the little things that count! =)

we had garlic bread for starters and then along came our smoked salmon pizza with capers on a tomato base!

i had seafood marinara spaghetti which was yummyyy. seriously one of the nicer pastas if eaten (not that i have eaten that many pastas apart from the ones mum makes!)

it had prawns, REAL crab meat and squid pieces! usually i would go with the creamy ones but this was one that i actually enjoyed. not too sour with the right balance of flavours. i think there was white wine in it too.

he had the fungi/chicken cream based one.

mine looks nicer right? lol!

it was a nice night out. headed over to woolies to grab some laundry detergent, softener, cherry tomatoes and strawberries. =)

now back to studying. *groans*

going down to the red cross tmr to interview some elderly person for our assignment. hopefully they will agree! *fingers crossed* this assignment is due mid august so we better start on it soon! argh stupid extra unit that we sort of have to do. >.<

today has been a very good day if i can say so myself. considering how unstable i've been the past few days. to be honest, i'm really grateful that so far, there's always someone there who will bring me out of my misery. seriously, i didn't expect r7an to be this nice to me. he called to make sure i was alright and even offered to come pick me up to bring me over to christ coll3ge just so that i had company. all these despite him having his own set of problems.

why is it that whenever i find someone to rely upon, that person disappears? sort of. used to be dav1na at one point, then s1nhui/j3ss, 5uman etc. no wonder i've been feeling lonely. and plus now that jerem7's in singapore doing his placement, that's one less person too. =(

been reading jessi3's blog and i understand what she means by not wanting to impose on other people your problems but sometimes i just need someone to be blunt and tell me things straight in the face the things that i've been in denial about.

us in happier times.

PS. i'm so glad i'm talking to davina again. =) miss you girl.

the only reason why i love medical insurance companies is because of the freebies we get from them! although it is free publicity for them! for this Avant event, we had free lunch and all these free gifts! oh i forgot to put my green stress ball there too! but basically, i received a water bottle (that doesn't leak and taste plasticky), two measuring tapes, two card retractable holder things, 3 pens (these free pens are always very nice to write with! one's in my pencil case), one note pad and a recyclable bag! how awesome is this?

today has been a good day. =) went for bikram yoga in the morning and i thought i was going to die halfway through when i felt like i couldn't breathe because the air was so hot (it was hot yoga!). my head started to spin and i felt nauseous. ouch. squatted down for a while and then it went away. it's supposedly because of all the toxins. *shrugs* it's hard to reconcile what you've learnt in class with all these alternative medicine stuff really.

we might just sign up for the monthly $55 thing because it is originally $156/mth but because we're below 23, it's $55 only! wow. plus if we can sort out with sabin and gang transport issues, it might be even better! =) imagine exercising with your classmates! need to mix around more and not hang out with the asians too much. gets a little political sometimes (as all social groups become after a while).

headed over to chemist warehouse and got myself some more vit c tabs. it was to valley girl (clothes/accessories shop) but the prices were not to my liking. =( decided to head over to salamanca (saturday market) (YAY FINALLY!). we were looking for the tea thing that chr1stina was talking about but we couldn't find it. boo. the bratwurst stalls along the way were sooo tempting because we were so hungry! i had to be pulled away from the tempura mushroom stall! nooo.. hahaha!

walked back for steamboat lunch at 2! as we were crossing the road, i saw an asian third yr med guy (who's your boy-next-door type!) crossing in the opposite direction. i think he might have recognised me or something cos we both turned and looked at each other after we crossed. it was quite funny. cos chr1stina was like 'hmm i think he finds you familiar too!' lol! yeah saw him once at the mac lab in medsci while waiting for dissection or something. james was sitting between us so we sort of had a three-way conversation. never quite figured out his name though. i THINK its dominic. not sureeee..

anyway, steamboat lunch was alright. brought my tomyum paste down so it was more shiok. hehehe! ate quite a bit. finally asian-y food! almost true-blue! cuttlefish balls, seafood tofu, tau kee, golden mushroom, chicken, crab stick, prawn, cabbage, button mushroom etc!

now im so full. lol. i think im going to sleep first. wake up in a bit to study! hahahaha!

michelle is finally a relatively happy girl.

it's when you're sick when you really miss having someone around who can care for you. =(

i just want someone to hug. boo. oh well. i've got my new fluffy pillow.

i really don't like it when people are like 'go do this.' and 'go do that.' sometimes i feel rather unappreciated because i do things silently. some of the things are so minor, i really wonder why can't they just do it themselves? some things are so disorganised that i can't stand it. at least after i typed out the plan, things looked slightly better and i could get my head around it.

i'm tired. i want to disappear. and reappear once all these are over.

i don't know how i should react to the news of my friends actually having swine flu right now. and these friends happen to be doing med as well so they're my coursemates! damn convention! why did they have to get it there (brisban3!) so now i'm not sure if what i have is piggy flu or not!

been taking my meds and i should have gotten a bigger bottle of the cough mixture now that i see the level inside decreasing at an alarming rate. i forgot how much 15ml really is since we always just guestimate using the table spoon. might grab more on tues when i'm down for clinical skills.

there's so much to be done yet i'm not in the mood health to do them. at least i've finished my integrated pract sheet for tmr so i'm feeling less stressed now but i know i still have all the lectures untouched. besides, i think i should read the textbook since the notes are giving me a headache right now. *faints*

caught HP yest and when it ended, i felt a little incomplete/cheated, like 'that's it?!' no spoilers here but it was a waste of my money. they should get michael bay to direct it or something. at least i think i can expect better action from him (look at transformers!).

singapore night's coming up and our theme is getai! lol! sounds quite cute right? at first we were going with pirates but i was a little unhappy with it. nonetheless we went ahead because we were all stoned and after that jerem7 realised how difficult it would be to do that so we brainstormed again online and viola! getai! more local and sounds exciting actually! have to go find obiang things to decorate with and dress up! think feather boas and bright lights and loads of sequins! ;)

okok here's just a list for me to tick off what i need to do. although with the meds i just took which happen to be ALL drowsy formulas, i dont think i will survive it all. we'll see how it goes.

1. read talley for GIT exam
2. oral cavity histology
3. oesophagus and stomach histology
4. anatomy of oral cavity, pharynx and oesophagus
5. anatomy of stomach
6. H. pylori
7. mouth, salivary gland pathology
8. Upper GI pathologies and malabsorption syndromes
9. macro/micro nutrients
10. GI control and co-ordination
11. age, sex and cultural diversity of aging

boo.. shall start now. =( the post-lunch sleepiness has hit too. dang. *trudges through unwillingly*

michelle is sick! =( i don't like this at all. nooo! feeling quite shit at the moment. if it gets worse i might not even go to school tmr. after all the lecture notes are all already up and i'll get by with the textbooks anyway.

acquired the book '7 habits of highly effective people' just before i returned. dad had been wanting me to read the book umpteen times before but i just couldn't be bothered. it's one of those things that you need to want to do yourself. really pointless in forcing because it won't work and i wouldn't be bothered to read since i'm not interested in it.

anyway thats besides the point. ever since i started uni, i haven't had time to read much else besides my notes and textbooks. but this book is really one book that i think everyone should read it. it's easy to read and it makes heaps of sense. makes you realise what's wrong in your character/life/decisions etc.

i'm only on chapter two (i think!) but i'm slowly seeing things in different ways. it might sound incredulous to some that a book can have such an impact on someone's life but hey, no harm applying what you've learnt if it doesn't harm anyone! for all you know, it might change your life too!

my restocked food pile! it has a lot hidden away behind piles of other food. like my giant hello panda is hidden away on the right. hahahahaa!

i'm back in slowbart!! now to sleep. zzz...

things you do while you're waiting for your hair colour to develop!

got this pair of shoes from queensway the other day! its the adidas grafeeteez! it's customisable with those rub-on stickers! how cool is that! i was like 'yes! this is awesome!' and set my mind to it. cost me $39.90 because it was half-priced.

anyway, i didnt realise that it was a pair of kids shoes until i googled it this morning! lol! who cares. as long as it fits my feet! =)

there are other designs such as basketball court, castle etc but i thought this was more pastel and prettier!

flying back tmr already. so soon! nooo.. =( i miss slacking around.

saw the names of the people in my new cbl and i guess they are alright. life can't be always smooth sailing. hahaha!

managed to scrap a DN this time again. guess i'm sorta relieved yet disappointed because i thought i would do better. oh well. at least i passed! =)

between then and now, i've watched ice age, gone out with ys and pam, bought my books, going out with 409 today, going out with the cruise people tmr, attended christina's party, finished watching boys before flowers, bought 3 pairs of footwear and gone to msia!

these 3 weeks have passed by so quickly! results would be out tmr. *shudders* but i guess i just want to know whether i've passed or not. if so, what's the score! hahaha. but of course passing is the top priority!

i still remember when i came back one yr ago, everything felt so surreal. it was as if my life in tasmania did not exist at all. almost like i dreamt it all. but now i don't feel that way anymore. Having been there for 1.5yrs, it has become more real and I've missed home so much more this time around.

3.5 years to go. before i know it, its over! time passes especially quickly when you're kept busy.

i've really miss being around people that i can be myself with. just being crazy and feeling loved and cared for regardless of what happens. you know who you girls are! =) *hugs* we'll survive the distance/stress/uni together!

on a really random note. i think j co donuts are really nice. maybe even better than donut factory.

and i really dun like the rain. boo! can't do nothing!

occupational hazard of working with p1 kids.

bites.

oww.

=(