Looking Back... 2008

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
cut up a human being. flying solo (as a passenger of course). driving solo (as a driver la!). driving in australia. and other frivolous stuff.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
EH did i even make them? *checks archives*
oh ya i did. HAHA.

ENJOY 1st yr of med school - yes!
be more patient/understanding - yes! except 2nd sem where i kinda lost my cool
MAINTAIN existing friendships - kinda!


for next yr..

ENJOY 2nd yr of med school
be able to handle ss5 activities and school work
get HD for applied exam and maintain my HDs for the other papers.
be more active in SGIA activities! ><.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no. only one i know would probably be josh's wife.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no. oh wait. my lecturer although he wasnt that close but we've spoken to him and taken a pic with him too.

5. What countries did you visit?
australia, msia.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
same as ruth i guess. time? memory space. bigger room!

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
14 feb. 10 sept. off to tassie + other stuff.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
HDs and Ds? topped T1 in 1st sem and 2nd highest for T2-5 in 2nd sem.

9. What was your biggest failure?
err. i dunno?

10.Did you suffer illness or injury?
was sick in 2nd sem for quite a while..

11.What was the best thing you bought?
printer? wouldnt have survived without it. HAHA. no seriously.. im not sure. books?

12.Whose behavior merited celebration?
pam ruth for being themselves! its amazing how we're still who we are after all these years! you girls are definitely my bestest friends!

elvin3 for being mr nice guy

just1n for being that big bro to me! =D

love you guys!

13.Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Queen D. i guess i was more disappointed. there are no secrets once you tell people. secrets are best kept to yourself and those involved. you can't expect people to not take sides once things get ugly no matter how hard they try. we're all human. we may try our best to understand you but we arent perfect. besides, maybe you should try looking at yourself.

14.Where did most of your money go?
food? all the numerous birthdays celebrations. thankfully some were free. books would be a close second i think. or maybe even first. im not too sure.

15.What did you get really, really, really excited about?
dissection!!! cutting up people is exciting! like seriously. its better than presents on christmas day!

SNOW! falling snow.. fallen snow was fun too! snowball fights would have been more fun if i had better aims. ><.

16.What song will always remind you of 2008?
bleeding love. firstly because its on ryan's cd in the car and secondly because its a nice song..

*oh can i choose one more? i'm yours by jason mraz! too overplayed! def reminds me of 2008!

17.Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
happier i guess. now that i'm going to be second year plus my life seems so much better at the moment.

18.What do you wish you’d done more of?
chanting. remained in contact with friends in singapore. exercised more. studied more.

19.What do you wish you’d done less of?
eating? HAHAHA. whoops! occasional procrastination here and there.

20.How did you spend Christmas?
lunch at jeremy's and then viwawa at home. plus instant noodles. watched xiao niang re only when lydia reminded me on msn! thanks dear!

21.Did you fall in love in 2008?
hmm.

22.How many one-night stands?
none of course.

23.What was your favorite TV program?
RPA - House - two and a half men - dancing with the stars!

24.Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
not really.

25.What was the best book you read?
papa robbins. i still want to read time traveller's wife!!

26.What was your greatest musical discovery?
richard clayderman's piano sheets!

27.What did you want and get?
passing 1st yr.

28.What did you want and not get?
hm nothing i guess.

29.What was your favorite film this year?
err. wall e? both the company and movie was good. =D

30.What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
eat sakura. 20.

31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more money perhaps?

32.How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
jeans. tees. jane jacket. converse shoes.

33.What kept you sane?
tv, psp and my bed! oh yes and multiple gossip sessions. =p

34.Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
eh who what?

35.What political issue stirred you the most?
ERR huh? sorry tasmania's papers do not really cover much.

36.Who did you miss?
pam ruth! diana vernice! ami monic!

37.Who was the best new person you met?
tasmania peeps i guess. =D

38.Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
follow your heart and do not be swayed by what others may say. put in your best and you will have no regrets.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

yay i got myself a job almost every mon and friday! =D $8/hr! working at the cruise centre at harbourfront.. got uniform summore! hahahah this sounds like something i've always wanted to do during the hols.. service industry, meet people, exciting etc.. so i start work next monday! hehe.. at least i wouldnt be stoning all the way till hols end..

i'll be working on 5, 9, 12, 16, 17, 19, 23, 27, 31 jan! actually 27th see how la. since its 2nd day of CNY but they need people on that day since a lot of people cannot make it. ><

cant wait to start work!!

i need to master the mind-over-body thing. sometimes its like i want to do something but my body is like "forget it la. dont bother. wont die even if you dont do it" and then i will just stop and give myself excuses for not doing it.

nothing in this world is free. there's always a price to pay. unfortunately. but yeah slowly slowly.. i need to have the determination to accomplish what i've set out to do! =D jiayou jiayou!

have you realised when you see half body photos of couples who are around the same height, we tend to assume that they're tall?

until you meet one half or both of them and then you realise that they're actually rather short.

*just a random observation. feel free to disagree.

which is rather >< because im 20cm shorter. cannot hide the height difference.

so christmas is over. and so will boxing day in about an hour. which just means that the year is going to be over very very soon. out goes 2008 and let's welcome 2009. but thats for next week.

sun:
had suki sushi with tyg and as usual, he was late but not as late as he used to be. haha only 5min late but considering i was like 15min early.. but anyway, headed over to cine and ate till like 2+.. headed over to kino after that and was deliberating whether i should buy a book.. but in the end i realised forget it la. shall just borrow or something like that. went to gramaphone to see if they had enya's new cd but somehow we just couldnt find it. :( didnt really do much because he had to meet his guitar mates at tanah merah so we mrted back. =D

tues:
shopping with s13 girls! omg i miss them soo much! although i met them only a few weeks back. hahahaha. and sissy foo! please eat more! omg you're too light liao la! hahaha! although its not your fault that you lost 5kg because of diarrhoea. ><

met the tuition buddies later for dinner. man i havent seen these people since j2 (except nash that i see every sat)! it was great to see how everyone's doing well.. most of them are going to ntu with jeremy n el0nn going to NIE to become PE teachers! hahahaha! plus i think apart from nash (not sure about el0nn and 5alima), the rest of us are attached! ken, kenn, yongta0, mar1lyn, jerem7.. and jerem7's been with this girl for almost 2 yrs!! wow.. peifu peifu..

wed:
spent entire afternoon till 2.30am at uncle's place. played mahjong, watched tv, ate etc. nothing special but i guess it was good to spend it with people rather than alone.

thurs:
had lunch at jerem7's with pam and ruth. played his xbox and i think we were making a hell lotta noise sia! hahah we were a little high from the teeny weeny bit of alcohol. especially when all the bulky-sized japanese characters appeared! :P stayed till 3+ before i took lrt-mrt-bus 27- bus 10- walked home to an empty house. sadddd.. what a way to spend xmas eh? oh well, not that it was terrible but just realised that its prob the first time im spending xmas alone. was emoing away until justin came online and chatted with me. =D felt much better then made instant noodles for dinner while he left for his friend's party. was playing viwawa most of the night away. ><

friday:
ice skating! and DW on ps2 with bro/uncle/cousin! hahahha i can say that i enjoyed today more than yesterday but actually everyday is the same. the hype is overrated. saw my friend's fb status which was sth about why this christmas didnt feel like christmas at all.

tmr:
help prepare food for gathering on sun! =D

sun:
4D discussion meeting at tbsc! still need to think of my new yr resolutions. ><

went out with pam and ruth yest! had our annual movie outing.. =D went back to rg first to visit and return vernic3 her umbrella too.. didnt see many people although i met sall7 wong and asked her if she went to tassie for hols.. haha! unfortunately didnt get to speak to her much.. maybe next time.. basically everyone thought we were back to work! if only.. hahaha! but there's no work to be done.. :( and besides if i were to RT again, its only gonna be like 1+ mth so might as well let the j3s do it because they can stay longer..

anw we headed off for lunch at billy bombers and watched yesman at cathay! hahahaha the first part of it was cringe-yly funny but it got better after a while. =D so pam, dont feel too bad! we did enjoy ourselves.. hahahahah! luckily the crowd was rather humorous too!

went to our fave supermarket to walk walk and look for ruth's barley milk tea which we couldnt find in the end. neither could we find sweety (sp?), some cross between a grapefruit and pomelo.. >< sounds damn sour to me. *cringe* i like sour things but there's only so much i can tahan. hehe..

after that headed over to vivo to meet the soka med group people. ruix1ang said he'll be late so i called b3ron and met them there. rx brought 3 of his dentistry friends along (including one of my vj snrs!) so it was nice to meet more people. met v1cky at tbsc!! omg so nice to see someone familiar.. hahaha and one that can actually still rmb me from last yr! wrote my wishes for 2009 on the countdown ball that will be floating down marina.. but i wrote it on the bottom half so i guess it'll be the fishies that will read my wishes.. :(

mrt-ed back with marcu5, rx, yansh3ng, jianx1ong (rx's friend).. all of us were heading east so it was like aljunied, bedok, tanah merah, simei, tampines.. was a nice ride back home.. talked lotsa crap.. hehe as usual.. :) even though it was a very very long day but it felt good at the end of it. minus the fact that i soon found out that i was bleeding from my heels cos of an old wound last sunday. ><

met up with the s5s committee today! had ah yat dimsum for lunch.. 50% off! so we ordered like free and ate $117 worth of dimsum! considering thats half priced already.... means that we are about $234 worth! hahahaha! reached there at 11.10 after meeting chri5 at toa payoh to take the shuttle down.. so we headed to giant to walk walk look see.. called christ1na and met her at the restaurant. the others were late so we had our first round while waiting and they arrived shortly! we had sooo many baskets that we almost thought we couldnt finish!! we had like 9 poluobaos because chri5 wrote Qty 3 for a 3ea item! hahah! almost died when we saw the plate of baos! HAHAHA! but it was actually quite nice. took 1 or 2. cant rmb. although i think the shuijingbao cant beat the tiong bahru one at alexandra! didnt even taste close to it la! >< the hargao, cheecheongfun etc were quite good too. =D

after kinda being chased out because they were closing at 2.15pm, we headed over to the teaparty at 6th ave. sat there and continued our s5s discussion mtg till about 6+pm. seriously, by then i was sooo seh that i didnt really register much. it seemed to go in circles.... like nothing was finalised and it was all tentative blah blah. >< planned the events next yr and it seems to be almost the same as this year. realised that its not really logistically (and financially) possible to have more events considering all the committee members atm at either doing law or med. :S

went to orchard after that. wanted to watch twilight but because by the time we got there it was 7+ and the next show at lido was 8.30pm means it will end at 10.30pm! so by the time i get home it will be 11+pm which is late! so we decided to go over to cine to see. WORSE! 9 or was it 9.30pm. so ok lor forget it. chri5 wanted to return his library book so we walked all the way down to bugis. took about 1h. hahaha!! after that, we almost walked to lavender but then my feet were alr hurting like mad so we went to bugis junction to sit sit a while before chri5 realised he had some pages of the book in his bag! so we went back again and then we just headed back. chri5 sent me all the way home, including walking up the ulu hill and somehow making his way back home again later. hope you didnt lose your way!!

as my feet were hurting like hell because i wasnt used to wearing heels, i walked barefoot all the way home from simei along the painted lines on the road because it was less pokey. he tried to make me walk on the grass which would be cooler and softer but i was afraid of dog poop! hahaha! summore in the dark, who knows what i'm stepping on! EWW! he just sent me home before leaving because it was getting late and he had to catch a bus back too so he didnt come in. :(

ok im sooo tired atm im going to sleep soon. hope the rest will also heal my poor metatarsals and make them brandnew again tmr! =D

just got back from a shopping trip msia! =D bought myself another two pairs of diesel jeans, 3 diesel long-sleeved tops and a pair of vincci shoes!

so i was already tired but happy until i received two more little gifts at home! haha today has just been such a wonderful day!

first! christmas card from my primary school mate! haha should have guessed when she started to ask us for our addresses on facebook. :P but omg it has been a long time since i've actually received mail from friends in singapore! it makes sense to send cards through slow mail but not to communicate because by the time you receive the mail, it would have become old news and besides, you probably have already told that person about the news through msn or the likes.


second would be something that i didnt actually think would come! hahaha received money in the mail from doing online surveys! you know how these websites work.. they never seem to actually be credible enough for you to think that you would actually receive the money so when i converted my points into cash after i hit the 1000pt mark, i was wondering if i would actually receive the money in '6-8weeks' after the processing and stuff. but surprisingly i did! and i can tell you that this company is rather reliable as companies like M1 use them too! how do i know? because i did an M1 survey recently. :P hahahaha had to tell them wad i liked about student plans.. wahahahah!



so now i'm a very very happy girl! =D

alrightey! its monday again! exciting because i'm all revved up for a brand new week! hopefully peppered with regular exercise. been eating too much these few days. not good at all! >< wad with the bbq and junk i've been putting into myself. hahaa although i loveeed the green bean soup! =D wouldnt mind that at all!

the weather's really bad right now. you can't do anything outdoors without fearing it will rain! thank goodness it was clear on saturday or else what a bbq it would have been! anw it was fun listening to all the goss and seeing everyone again. same old topics but its fun when everyone is into their 'VLGR' mode and just watching them shoot each other! hahahah!!

and i probably ate one of the most expensive durians i have ever encountered too. seriously. those durians were not worth the price he paid but oh well. :P $240 for 6 durians?! $15/kg. siao ah! and i think only 1-2 were actually good. the others were not that great to be honest. plus 12 bottles of wine of which we opened 5 i think. only tried the white wine which im more familiar with considering all i drink in tassie is white. wasnt too bad. much better than jane's (duh!) but still i didnt like it that much. i'd prefer champagne just because its bubbly. hahaha! *burp* the fizz makes it more exciting! i really dont know how to appreciate alcohol. i'll just stick to passion pop if i need to. hahahaha! cheap drunk. :P A$5.90 for a bottle of fruit flavoured alcoholic drink. choice drink for poor kids who dont like the alcohol taste.

anw. thing's i've acquired over the past two days.

1. 6 mosquito bites
2. 1 blister
3. 1 peeling heel.
   

last two are from trying to season my new pair of shoes! :(

and i finally understand why girls would wanna go on oral contraceptive pills just to regulate the hormones and clear their skin. hormone cycles are such things that make little zits pop up here and there! except that it is probably more expensive than just putting pimple cream and hoping it will go away. but it is definitely effective!! =D hahaha so lucky s1nhui got more than she asked for (in a way) although i think she'd prefer to just have lower levels of testosterone than having to pop a pill everyday.

bbq at uncle's house later! its gonna be fun! haven't seen some of the relatives in eons.. ok maybe not eons but at least since the last time i came back. hahaha! thats still like 5 mths ago.. :P

soka exam tmr! hopefully i wouldnt fail. it would be terrible to have to retake the exam. >< plus it isnt supposed to be that difficult. hahaha! considering its only the entrance exam. a5hley said the elementary one is harder. but she took it like 3-4 years ago.. so it might be slightly different this time around. and given my personality, i hate losing. but then again i havent really been studying for it so im not sure whats going to happen tmr. hahaha!

anw so far the plans for next wk:

wed: sss committee
thurs: ruth and pam

following wk:
mon: yj and bel

went shopping the other day and got myself a pair of shoes (finally!) and a matching bag. ok it wasnt planned that way but it turned out to be about the same colour. =D will post a photo of it once my camera has been returned to me. my brother borrowed it for his outing with his friends.

in the meantime, i'm still as bored as ever when im doing nothing. i need to get a life. or rather, i just need to plug in my HDD and enjoy the X GB worth of entertainment in there. :D

its friday again! although this week has been going by soooo slowly. time really slows to a halt when there's nth to do. dammit. thank god i'm going out next wekk. =D yay!

ok just got a random call about a job interview. whats weird is i didnt even apply for a job. i'll write more about it once i get the details.. sounds phony.. hahaha!

update:

1. the woman ol1ve refuses to tell me anything over the phone. only said i'll be assisting the manager. and she added that they have many NS guys doing it too. seriously, how many managers do you have?!
2. hours are flexible so it doesnt matter whether im having hols or wad.
3. she doesnt want to tell me the pay
4. dubious company name that sounded like vee-ee-gee. somewhere along changi road
5. job orientation can be anyday, 1pm, 3pm, 5pm, 7pm. weird rite.

in conclusion. too good to be true. besides i dont think i really wanna work. i'd rather read my textbooks. they seem interesting. :P i must be insane. seriously. talking about books, i think i still need to get 'ecg made easy' and 'infectious diseases'. right now i have 10+ books to bring back already. michael.. please please please give me a bigger room!!! or else i really have no idea where to dump all these books!!! >< including the ones i already have in 2-3 boxes in the box room.

ok the previous entry is NOT to spite you. its actually more like a way for me to explain since you dont want to listen to me. and besides im not sure how to tell you all these in front of you, after all you just seem to not listen anyway. i'm terrible with words, i clam up in fear and i end up sobbing uncontrollably after you leave. so i never get my msg across.

i wouldnt say that i know him very very well, after all, you're right in saying that we've only known each other since feb and we only got closer in may. but we had been contemplating and discussing things since aug before getting together in sept. its gonna be 3mths soon. officially. although it seems like forever since it started way back during swot vac sem 1.

sometimes even i am not sure how long this will last. when we discussed the possibility the other night, because he didnt want to sour my family's relations, he was like "there's only one family but you can have many bfs." which is true, but it hurt so bad just thinking of it. although i know that if that happens, he wouldnt shed a tear. he's not someone who would cry. apart from his granny's death, he couldnt rmb the last time he cried. he's so emotionally stable (or rather stoic) that its scary sometimes. he's never angry, never jealous, never sad and he'll just have the stoned face until you say something that he actually responds to. then you'll get a whole range of reaction which is quite funny. =D

i've learnt that the aim of being in a relationship is not to find someone who will fill the gap for you but rather to find someone who would bring out the best in you, someone who would inspire you so that the both of you can advance together. its not because you feel like you NEED someone to make you whole but its finding two whole people to make it perfect.

love is a double-edged sword. it can make you feel 幸福 or 痛苦. but unless you give it your all, you'll never know if he's the right one. most girls would want to find a guy who would love them more than she loves him. but how many girls are that lucky? love isnt like trade, where things have to be fair/acceptable before the transaction occurs. you never know when you'll be hit by it. and by then, its probably too late. i never knew i liked him till rugby finals. before that, i didnt really bother myself with him because he never spoke much. it was only after rugby that i realised i had feelings for him. and he felt the same way although none of us knew it. it was awkward because his birthday was just a week after rugby but i didnt do anything considering people were still teasing him with M. M gave him a thumbdrive while C made him a cake. i, on the other hand, just ate the cake and enjoyed myself. that was why everyone was saying how despite other girls' attempt, he ended up with the right one. *shrugs* even i'm not sure if i'm the right one but i didnt do anything.

he was the one who came over to play psp to keep me company when i was studying. he was the one who studied with me in the reading room during winter. he kept me sane when i was almost on the brink of tears when studying because i was sooo stressed because i wanted so badly to do well.

once i jokingly mentioned that doctors are more prone to suicide and depression as compared to other professionals.. up to 4x more likely.. and he was like "dont worry, you've got me to keep you sane.." aww.. hahaha!

seriously, no matter what happens in future, we have our fair share of memories thus far. and i'm really grateful for it. =D i should just enjoy what i have now and be thankful for this chance.

i should stop thinking of things that probably aren't going to happen (not yet at least). it is not good once my mind starts wondering. it makes me worried, scared, insecure, dumb, foolish and emotional. i dislike this side of myself.

when i look at my friends, all happy, contented and with that blissful look on their faces, hand in hand with their bf/gf, sometimes i really wonder why can't i have that too? with no problems or obstacles in the way. its easy for you to object but it hurts me so bad. so very very very badly that sometimes i feel like my heart is being torn apart. this heart-wrenching sour feeling. i really dont like it at all.

your concerns are justified i guess, but i know what i'm doing too. i'm no longer the kid back in secondary school. i know what's more impt and what's the icing on the cake. i always wonder why they never last long. now i know. because i fear you. i fear telling you and knowing what your reaction would be. i know you'll scream and yell and vehemently refuse to accept. yet when i plucked up my courage to tell you just so that you will approve of it, you dont. again. they were always never good enough. i would never be mature enough.

you refuse to listen to me, thinking that i dont know what im doing. maybe one day i might regret what i'm doing, i'm not sure. but at least im not regretting it now. its weird how everyone thinks he's great. just except you. i know your concerns arent unfounded. you would know better. but no one knows what the next 4 years will hold. thats when we graduate. maybe i'll meet someone better, or maybe he'll meet someone more suitable for him. its not like we're getting engaged/married straightaway. we even jokingly discussed the possibility of looking out for next yrs batch for a better catch even before we got together. it definitely was not a hasty decision. one decided just by that instance. we discussed it for weeks before deciding to get together. we both knew what we were in for. he knew my studies were no. 1 and that was why he didnt want to disrupt my studies, or else he would have approached me earlier about the issue. but i knew what my priorities were and i definitely would not do things to jeopardise my own graduation. and thats how we agreed.

yes, i might have been in his room to study. why? because i knew that my room was too warm to study and if i fell asleep, there wouldnt be anyone to wake me up to continue. you know me, i love sleeping so much that even the alarm wouldnt be enough. but having someone there made me want to study more plus he would wake me up after my occasional 30min naps. if not for him, i'll prob end up sleeping like 2-3h till dinner. its not like i didnt study in his room. i tried studying in my room but i always ended up on facebook or on the bed and not studying. its only because i studied better in a bigger room thats cooler with a human alarm clock that did actually wake me up that i went over to his room. but when i needed my textbooks etc, i would stay in my room and do the relevant revision/research. i know what to do. and i didnt disappoint you this semester.

i studied really hard because i didnt want you to have an excuse to not accept him. i knew what your concerns were and i tried my very best to address them. things that i could control. i cant help that he's the eldest in a big family. i can't help that he's doing arts/law. but i can show you that i am able to handle this right now. i know when to end when things get out of hand. i'm not stupid. i may like this guy a lot but if he's going to be downright *&($%, i'm not going to hang around for sure. trust me.

by the time you finish reading this, you're probably either fuming mad at the accusations you think i'm making or just so full of emotions you're not sure what you're going to do. you'll prob end up screaming at me again and i'll probably end up crying for another 1h45min but if this is going to make you give him a chance, its going to be worth it. 4 years is a long time to go and we know its difficult to even hit the 2yr mark. but at least give us a chance. maybe maybe there's a 1% chance. if we end up together even after we graduate, i actually think that by then, those problems/concerns that you have can be ironed out one by one. after all, 4 years is definitely long enough to get to know the family etc. isnt it better this way? instead of only getting to know the family well after marriage. perhaps by then your concern would be that after we're tgt for so long, it will be awkward to break up even if either of us meet someone better. well, no one knows for sure so why worry now? =D

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t1: 81.0%
t2-5: 84.7%
applied: 70.6%

hahahha look at the great discrepancy... >< though i scored damn high for microb in pract.. was like 82.5%.. was pulled down by physio (must be neuro!), patho (stupid qns) and histo (HMM not sure)..

i passed!! yay!! 76!!

elvin3 got 72.. matth3w and j3remy have credits.. ann@ had a pass i think.. r3becca had a dist too but lower than mine.. ra7 70.. r7an 67.. sh0ba credit too.. alic3 dist..

but anw so far i only know from sh0b that al3x tucker got 78 which is the only one she knows thats higher than me.. =D

just realised how heck care dont care i am about my looks.. >< which isnt very good considering how i'll need to meet people out there and stuff when i work etc.. so i decided that i should start just playing around with wadeva make up i have and try to style my hair.. PROPERLY! 30s scrunches arent counted.. hahaha now that i've all the time in the world.. :P

talking about hair and stuff.. msX can spend 30min before an exam dolling herself up and that includes making her hair, putting on make up etc.. seriously?! i cant be bothered man.. wear the sloppiest things i can find so that im comfortable and use the extra time to revise or sth.. but i guess her logic of feel good = do well does make < sense but its not practical to me! rather use the time to revise or sth.. hehehe..

i need to go shopping for clothes man.. dammit! need to go down to thi5 fa5hion asap cos its still nov and if i sign up as member again, i'll have 20% off!! =D

my clothes here are like pathetic man! hahaha.. but i can only shop when im in the mood.. when the salesperson stays far far away from me.. and when i can try all i want and not get the black face from the staff.. im sure most people feel the same too!

its monday afternoon and im kinda bored. maybe i should go iron clothes or wash clothes or sth liddat. or go clean my room. basically something along those lines..

dont you think this is a beauty? =D

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Patent strap sandal

Price: $475

my new green/white/ash hair!

so its been a week since i was back and what have i done??

1. bought a top
2. went back to rgs
3. visited uncle
   
4. went for threading
5. watched one korean drama
6. started on next korean drama
7. went to simlim to look at ds/wii
   

nth much eh? hahaha well at least im doing sth.. :P

thanks for all the birthday wishes!

from :

elvine, philip, charis, jacelyn, jessie, jason, jess, jiekai, chris, vanya, lydia, zhijian, vanessa too, philip, sherlyn, sheralyn, lynette, wendy, sabrina, peter, christina, jingyuan, david, nash, marjorie, liane, may, ruth, pam, asik, jeremy bay, heidi, vanessa lum, shamini, zafreen, zhong yi, darren, pearly, karen, emma, kamal, joelene, huiru, ritha, rebecca, suman, peitong, jolene, priya, dawn ho, samantha, parames, lyndsey, lixiang, yihfeng, jamie, kelly, bryan, gary, anita, marcus, matthew, elizabeth, jenny, JP, anne, randy, jeremy seow, yinjia, germaine, ron, brian nguyen, lao vincent.

love you guys loads! *muacks*

happy birthday to me! =D

yr 3 onwards i think my birthday might be spent in tassie. :(

oh well i'll just enjoy wadeva i have for now!! hehehe..

ok i think im gonna be shot for this.

I'M BORED!

like very very very bored! i want to go to school! hahaha! i want to learn something, do something.. just not stay at home and ferment/grow mouldy!!!!

3 months leh.. die liao la!!

i'm home!!!

whee~!

now the weather is still not that bad but i think i might melt this afternoon. hahah!

before

after

now you know why i HATE packing just because i really really really have a lot of things. i've probably thrown like 4-5 dustbin loads of stuff already.

almost there almost there! i see the light at the end of the tunnel!!!

UPDATE! i've got 4 boxes in the box room with one chinaman bag. and as you can see, i STILL have stuff lying around. including my pillow, blanket etc. RIGHT. so i guess i might actually need 2-3 more bags. considering i still have laundry etc that have to be washed and kept. :S not good if i can say so myself. my arms are feeling all wobbly from carrying the bag/boxes upstairs man.

at least now i feel like i've kind of packed. my room actually feels big now. after not being able to fully open my door because the DHL box etc was blocking my door. so i had to open the door, walk into the corner next to the shelf, close the door before i could actually get into my room. repeat process to get out of room by starting in the corner. :P

more packing later after lunch so that i can go out for dinner with friends later to celebrate my birthday! then get everything done by tmr so that i can go to town and get last min shopping down and pack my luggage. crazyyyy man!

ok my room is in a relative mess. im not sure how to put it into words. the box on the floor is full of things to bring home because

1. i dont use them
2. they are space wasters here
3. dont see a need for them
4. food that i couldnt finish and prob is expired by a mth or two

need to pack my printer today. probably move my tv and stuff to james room today too. gotta keep my blanket, pillow, bed sheets etc too! there's still my laundry powder, softener etc to keep. see its all these need to use cannot keep things that are taking up all the space in my room right now! and its pissing me off because i cannot pack properly!!!

i think i'll pack my toiletries in because i've got the travel packs which i guess i can use in the meantime. after all its only two more days before im home! whee~! next yr i'll buy less stuff. its not funny having to pack this much shit into the box room man..

ok shall head back to packing. printer time! gonna have to cushion it with my clothes. and there're still shoes to pack! *faints* this is not fun at all! who wants to help me pack!!!

argh! gobble gobble!

oooooo! SHIOOOKK!

elvin3 + sabrin@

look at the scallops! garlic butter scallops. freshly grilled.. with fresh tasmanian oysters + lemon and tabasco sauce.. ;) its the life..

at coles bay. love the rock formations!

now that's coles bay. on the way to wineglass bay..

some cave. bam bam!

wineglass bay.. lovely lovely blue waters..

bush walking! tiring but i think its still better than BTNR because of the weather.

picnic by the beach.. dont you wish you were me right now? ;)

chr1stina + me. can't stop gushing about the water!

err. no comments.

erm erm erm.

eh. compulsory jumping shots ahead.

look at me jump!

half dead on the way back up from the beach. i swear i've never felt my quadricep muscles feel this tired since easter camp! i think my rectus femoris is rather developed right now.

at the lighthouse lookout. overlooks carp bay (in other photos). we're probably at cape tourville. ;)

at the lighthouse itself. look at our cui looks. hahaha! picture worth a thousand words.

sunset on the way back. the photo does not really do justice to it but i guess its already rather spectacular.

at the lighthouse lookout.

without me.

pristine white sands with freezing cold clear blue waters. breath-taking.

us on the beach. the sand isnt that fantastic near where we were but it was soo soft near the water!

ok me again. ><

lunch! insane amounts of food. soba, bread, ham, cheese, egg, silverside, naan, biscuits, caesar salads, roast chicken shreds, hummus, salsa dip etc. :) yummy!

our lovely yummy caesar salad! :)

wineglass bay. awesome isnt it?

darr3n and i!

us 4 girls minus sabrin@. not sure why too. but yeah my head just happens to block the bay! dammit! hahahhaha.. oh well.. :P

and im soo tired man.. i'll tell you all about it maybe tmr. :) for now.. its time to hit the bed!!! zzz... so tired.. so unfit man! haha! been out for over 12h.. *snores*

tmr is my last paper! omg its gonna be awesome! can't wait for tmr to come and be over! its the day i've been looking forward to since swot vac started. hopefully i will do well so that i wouldnt be upset after it.

its been a long long week. cant wait to go home. actually its been a long year. well not really because it seemed like it went by in a flash. but still. especially second semester. i have absolutely no idea where the time went. first semester seemed more.. happening i guess. second semester was just birthdays after birthdays after birthdays. and that was about it.

1. jes5
2. chr1stina
3. ban7a
4. elvin3
5. jenn7
6. m@rk
7. maybell3
8. jad3

though i didnt go for the last two. yup.

ok better head back to the books. shall update soon after the exam!!! =D 30min to dinner. better get some more work done!

these two cost me $5 each from jayjay.

these two cost me $7.50 each from crossroads.

how shiok man! but its only because they're on sale. :( if not its much more expensive. and i'm quite happy that i went shopping today. i realised i need the retail therapy. and i need to lose weight. >< seriously. though this semester probably wasnt as bad as last semester but still, the food (despite trying hard to eat less!) is super oily, disgusting at times and sure-fire way of putting on weight. the desserts are probably the saving grace most of the time. sticky date pudding, ice cream, custard, poppyseed cake, cookies, carrot cake, fruit salad etc. not all at once of course. but still! yummy..

im so tired now. shopped for 5 hours straight. no joke. my legs are breaking..
sushi, chickenfeed, supre, body shop, myer, sportsgirl, jean west, a few others, crossroads, jayjay, cotton on, priceline, kfc!

*snores*

tmr's november! time really flies. probably heading to town tmr. not sure.. we'll see how it goes. :)

two down. one to go. t1 paper was like 30pg long! first 50 qns were mcq/emq.. emq wasnt that bad this time around. it was do-able. they gave us 10 cases and we had to match the diagnosis to it. yup! it was rather exciting to be able to 'diagnose' our two-liner cases. osteomyelitis, osteoarthritis, gout, rheumatoid arthritis, osteochondroma, osteoid osteoma, septic arthritis etc.

i'll definitely pass the exam for sure. apparently ban7a is looking at sup paper dates according to j3ss. j3ss said she told her yest at dinner after the paper. whoops!

one more practical to go! and im in the second half which means that i'll have more time to study but it also means that chri5tina and 3lvine will end first!!!! bleahhhh at least this time we arent flying off the next day so we dont need to go shopping immediately after the paper unlike 1st semester.

speaking of which, i kinda need to arrange for transport to the airport. unless i can get mark to send me there. shall check my ticket and ask. but there's still the coming back. hmm. airporter? then drag across to jane.. scared the wheels break nia. southern airport? hahahah! or should i ask mark again? we'll see what happens.... :)

my fuse. dont make me angry or the fuse will burn and i'll explode!

and there's only supposed to be one. not three! HAHAHA!




PS. just realised this is my 401st post. i've definitely come a long way with this blog ever since i moved from the old one. it's really amazing. :)

just finished 07 paper and formative. finished 06 paper yest.

i think im ready... i think.. i'll definitely pass for sure.. so i shouldnt be worrying at all! :) to say the least. but no one wants to just pass. ok maybe some people ARE aiming just to pass. but thats besides the point. credit/distinction/high distinction would be better than just a pass. thats definite! haha..

ok i kinda need to do laundry. running out of stuff liao. shall do it tmr after my paper.. heheh.. time's just flying by.. before i know it, i'll be home! whee~!

its farking hot today!

29 deg!!! omg im dying la.....

at least if im in singapore there'll be aircon!!!!!! here.. dont even have fan.. kns.. need to seek cooler places to study or else im just gonna melt before my next exam.. disappear.. evaporate.. hahaha! i need to condense!

ok that was soo rubbish!

one down. two to go! today's paper wasn't as bad as i thought it would be though there were a few qns that made me think "did you really have to ask that? was there nothing else to ask? if so, dont ask anything!" i mean which person could think of a 10m answer for "w3lcome to country" and how you would implement it?? seriously. those two slides were prob the ones i skipped over and read ONLY because it sounded interesting but not examinable. but i guess i managed to crap something out la. hehe..

the heat is awful... really really really awful.. :(

studying makes you go mad.

and bad.

or rather try to be.

:)

listening to music right now. the mood is just wrong. morning with the sunlight coming in. warmth. notes in front of me. somehow something is missing. maybe its just that it's been a long time. its been too long.

the weather's getting too hot for my liking. i hate it. i just want to curl up in my sheets and sleep. but now its so warm i cant even sleep at night.

exams start tmr. t2-5. it'll be alright i guess. shouldn't be too horrible. and its only 15% anw. so its not so bad. even if i do screw up, the percentage wouldnt be that disgusting. i just need to pass this paper. cannot fail! it will be such a horrible thing to fail this paper. not that i will right! :)

its 9.40am. i need to focus. my notes beckon and yet im not heeding its calls. its just a maelstrom of colours. maybe i will only function at 10am. >< what a waste of 20min though. dammit.

oh well. i'll just try to finish up the last two pages of this book before going on to the next book. skipping all the anatomy for now. i'll do it later. its so dryyyy.. just like my bak kwa cadaver.

i want the exams to come so that i dont have to study anymore. but i dont want exams to come because i want to study somemore.

ironic isnt it?

i hate this lack of motivation. its as if there's not much worth studying for. no matter how much you study, somehow something is going to be forgotten. nothing much is retained in the brain. when i read my notes, things make sense but when i dont look at my notes, i forget things. looks like i need to read it once more and then test myself by trying to type out 'summary tables' to test myself. for now i'm trying to do it for pathology. makes things much clearer actually which i really like. allows me to compare the various diseases across the board. might do another one for microbiology, histology etc. can't really do much for anatomy at the moment i think. same for physiology. its just facts. like sequences. serial processing. i need everything i learnt to be consolidated right now. i need something solid and concise. although my mindmaps are blardy concise already. whole semester's work into 1+ book. not bad already i must say.

its friday already. swotvac has zoomed by this time around. thank god that t2-5 is first so that means that i have about 1 more week before my ACTUAL paper. why actual? because i know how important t2-5 is. 15%. pfft. read through the notes twice. might just read stats again on sunday or something. sleep early and be ready to bullcrap on monday! YAY! thats the plan. yup! then come back and intensive mugging for thursday and tuesday. same sutff, different way of testing. :) so at least i still have the info fresh in my head, unlike last semester. almost 1 week apart!

ok i shall head back to my books. i really really really need to glue myself to my chair, prop my head up, get rid of everything else and STUDY HARD!

hmm. i've got this chai por taste in my mouth. weird weird weird. though i did have sweet and sour chicken for dinner but that still doesnt explain the taste. not that i'm complaining. i LOVE chai por! especially with eggs.. mmhmm.. :)

3 more weeks!!!

well today will be spent reading ALL the t2-5 stuff. then i will read the remaining 3 chaps. and then i dunno if i want to go for the mtg tonight. although i alr said im going cos i think i'd rather study leh. a5hley isnt going too so its like HMM.

anw lunch today will be bbq lunch! cos its a public holiday (wow how great during swot vac. wad a difference) and after im done with the above stuff, i'll look through past qns, learning objectives etc and prob revise wadeva seems to be more impt at the moment. things im still not that familiar with. :)

i do hope this will all turn out alright. i mean i've studied quite a lot so yes! it better pay off man! though all i need to do is pass.. but passing alone is so depressing. at least a credit alright? :)

anw lunch time! whee~!

well as you can see.. i'm quite ahead of schedule.. lets keep it this way and see how many rounds i can get through this sem! :) last sem was 4 rounds.. haha! i'll be happy if i can get 3 cos there's so much more to study this semester..

and i should also start looking at the past yr papers and do them probably after my 2nd round? depends i guess.. might have to look at the t2-5 lot first.. :(

and if im gonna go for every available meal.. i'll be eating every 3hr! how >< is that?!

9am, 12pm, 3pm, 6pm, 9pm.

HAHA! shiok? afternoon tea + supper.. hehehe.. grow fat period = swotvac! no exercise, just sit and study + eat so much. die liao. HAHA. control control.. :P somehow the food during swotvac seems to be much better than normal. had grilled chicken + lamb today. yummy.. hehe..

okok shall go sleep le.. today has been a xiong day.. haha! yay tmr will be a brand new start! SMILE~!

Monday:
Diabetes
Cartilage
Bone
Bone growth
Bone healing
Gluteal 1
Gluteal 2
Joint classification
Joint histology
Skeletal histology
Diet and diabetes 1
Diet and diabetes 2

Preventative healthcare
Drug & alcohol setting
Stigma and discrimination


Tuesday:
Bone nutrition
Metabolic bone disease
Blood constituents
Hypersensitivities
Blood loss and groups
Smooth and cardiac mucles
Autoimmunity
Blood vessel histology
Hip joint, popliteal, leg 1
Hip joint, popliteal leg 2
Gram negative
Osteoarthritis

Aboriginal readings
Law and legal systems
Behavioural change


Wednesday:
Muscle contraction
Ankle knee 1
Ankle knee 2
Genetics
Anaerobic bacteria
Anaerobic clostridium
Antibiotics
Immune regulation
Foot anatomy 1
Foot anatomy 2
Muscular dystrophies
Seronegative arthropathies

Media and medicine
Emergency medicine
T2


Thursday:
Brain / spinal cord
Rheumatoid arthritis
Gout
Back /vertebral column 1
Back/vertebral column 2
Nervous embryology
Action potential
Synaptic transmission
Bone neoplasia
Multiple myeloma
Chlamydia/mycoplasm

Self care/gender
Summaries


Friday:
Spinal cord and nerves
Peripheral neuropathies
Nerve histology
Legionella
NMJ
Shoulder joint
Reflex arc
Osteomyelitis
Pregnancy nutrition
Arm, cubital,axilla 1
Arm, cubital, axilla 2

Statistics


Saturday:
Steroid hormones
Viral infections 1
Viral infections 2
Cancer biochem
Herpes
Wound infections
Staph/strep
Forearm/hand 1
Forearm/hand 2
Antivirals
Parasites/fungi 1
Parasites/fungi 2


Sunday
Hand anatomy 1
Hand anatomy 2
Sympathetic
Parasympathetic
Nerve injuries 1
Nerve injuries 2
Thyroid hormones

mon:
gram -ve
anaerobic
clostridium
antibiotics
chlamydia+mycoplasm
legionella
wound infections

tues:
hypersensitivity
autoimmunity/tolerance
immune regulation
genetics
bone nutrition
blood constituents
blood lost

wed:
revise OSCE
diabetes
diet and diabetes
pregnancy nutrition
cartilage

thurs:
cancer biochem
steroid
thyroid
bone
nerve histology
embryology of nervous system
NMJ
synaptic transmission
AP
reflex arc
ANS - sym/parasym

fri:
bone growth
joint histo
joint classification
skeletal
smooth
cardiac
blood vessels
virus
antivirals

sat:
parasites/fungi
herpes
bone healing
metabolic bone disease
osteoarthritis
rheumatoid arthritis
seronegative arthropathies
osteomyelitis
bone neoplasia
multiple myeloma
gout
muscular dystrophies
peripheral neuropathies

sun:
gluteal+ thigh
hip, popliteal leg
knee, ankle
foot
back
brain
spinal cord
shoulder
arm + cubital
forearm
hand
nerve injuries

thats probably all that i've done this sem.. hopefully i havent left anything out.. >< HAHAH!

so its already midweek of week 12. just finished my KFP report minus the genogram. i've got the general idea of the genogram already.. just need the names and ages.. :) i hate how all these assignments seem to repeat themselves. everything that i've got to write in it seems to have been touched on when i post my discussion topics in the forum.

doing antivirals right now.. i need to work faster.. well at least i dont have assignments left but i've still got the portfolio to put together.. not even sure what we are supposed to put into it.. they have been really unclear this semester man.. ><

dont you love how you can do so much when there's no school?? school just seems to take up so much time. like if you could just stay in your room and study on your own using the notes + tb.. hahah though being in lect just means that you arent distracted by the computer etc.. :P though i guess there are other things to do in lect as well.. zz.. hahah! shall try to finish more work before dinner so that i can feel really productive and that will make my day! yupyup! i love the feeling of cancelling things off my to-do list.. its just so shiok.. though sometimes when the entire whiteboard is filled up with things.. i dunno where to start! :( but slowly slowly.. i'll get there.. YUP!

I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,

Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

daylight savings starts today.. so im 3h ahead now..

i hate how one hr just disappeared like that. it just screwed up my bio clock la! wads normally 6.30 is now 7.30.. dinner has just become 5pm (old time).. i guess i'll get used to it soon.. it was much easier when we turned our clocks back though.. extra hour to sleep in.. shiok sia.. now i got robbed of it.. pfft..

jenny's party was fun while it lasted.. came back earlier though..

anw life goes on.. :) 3 weeks to exams.. sucks really.. dammit.. i hate exams.. hate this constant need to do well.. win everyone else.. >< not sure if im being excessive though.. *fingers crossed*

26/29!! :)) so so so so so happy! second highest in class.. highest 27.. missed 90% by 0.3% but considering it was mcq.. i couldnt have done much too.. hahah!

lost the 3 marks in pathology.. must have been that stupid extended matching qns.. like what in the world was cutting cone? never saw that in my life/notes/tb la! had to google to find that term and it was in the test! so i'll give myself one more mark for that.. maybe the other two marks were also from the emq.. not sure.. oh well i'll never know too.. :(

jenny's party today! its gonna be fun! last party before the exams.. whee~!!

for now.. better get some work done first.. if not i'll probably regret it soon.. ><

test was alright i guess.. i think the qn i got wrong was kinda unfair because of the term used.. cutting cone.. never saw that term before.. oh well.. one wrong.. doesnt matter i guess.. still 29/30 for now.. *fingers crossed*

dissection today was qutie fun.. got to see the cubital fossa etc.. apparently one cadaver doesnt have palmaris longus on one arm.. im starting to like the forearm.. lets hope it stays this way.. if i can master the upper limb.. the lower limb should be a breeze.. seriously upper limb is insanely complex.. brachial plexus.. multitude of muscles in the thumb.. the nerves are a pain too.. but i'll get there.. i will.. i definitely will! JIAYOU!

another thing i need to get around would be ANS sia.. i really really dont like the lecturer.. because he is using another lecturers notes.. he goes off track sometimes.. and its not in the notes and we dont know if its gonna be tested.. and apparently it will be.. cos it came out in the test.. >< but i got that right so thats fine.. for now..

watching RPA right now.. basically its a show based on real life cases happening in RPA hospital.. its so exciting man.. makes me wanna do med even more.. just that im not sure i wanna be a surgeon.. i've got such a soft spot for babies..

ok RPA just ended.. now its amazing medical stories.. HAHA! how cool is that.. :P giants (>7ft) and face blindness.. :)

week 11! thats damn fast sia.. still rmb myself moaning about rural week during week 6..

elvin3's lunch today! had salmon with lemon herb butter for mains.. mm.. super yummy la.. soft pink meat + warm fragrant butter.. *drools* starters were awesome.. smoked salmon, mushroom, olives, blue cheese, beef slices + cheese, hummus + bread, mussels, quail legs, chicken.. shiok man! hahaha.. AUD35 per person.. >< plus we opened like 3 bottles of wine on top of the 3 glasses they ordered.. hahaha.. total bill was $900-8.. you do the math.. only people who are extravagantly rich will be able to afford that.. haha! actually i think it prob was the taxes, wine etc that made it so expensive.. if not it should only be like $700.. cos 35x20 = 700

went over to mures for ice cream.. haha! honeycomb, rum and raisin, macademia nut.. yummy! the ice cream here is so good man.. 3 scoops for $5.. thats like one big tauhuay container full of ice cream! must share sia..

the pics are all in elvine's and christin@'s camera so i'll have to kope from them first.. only took pics of the food.. :P forgot about the starters.. it was

exam schedule!

16 oct: OSCE
27 oct: t2-5 saq
30 oct: t1 mcq/emq/saq
4 nov: applied exam

yay! now time to start freaking out cos its really one month to exams!!!!

next few weeks are gonna be insane.. so filled with activities.. ><>jane dinner
27 sept: jane photo
28 sept: elvin3's birthday treat
1 oct: t1 mcq sa
3 oct: stats assignment due
4 oct: jenny's birthday party
8 oct: t1 mcq fa + t2-5 saq fa
10 oct: reflective piece + presentation + portfolio
13 oct: KFP report
16 oct: OSCE sa
18 oct: start of swotvac
25 oct: start of exams!

this is crap sia.. plus today was kama1's birthday dinner too but couldnt go because there's that test next week that i need to study for.. yupyup! didnt go for maybell3's birthday lunch thing too.. there's so much happening la.. must concentrate and study!! ><

i wish you would just tell me why you're not happy.

you're not doing anything and i don't know a thing.

how do you think that makes me feel?

i feel torn apart.

its week 10 of 13 school weeks.. wow time really flies man!

4 weeks to swot vac.. 5 weeks to exams.. 7 weeks till i get home..

being home makes me feel surreal. its makes me feel all dreamy and stuff. after being away from home for so long, you finally go back and feel like nothing has changed. that was how i felt when i went back in june. i questioned whether the past 4 months really happened. i felt that the 4 mths could have just been erased and it wouldnt have made much of a difference at all. maybe its because you dont really hang out or contact the people you have lived with for the past 4 mths.. its as if they never existed.

but these are the people who means a lot to me too. weird isnt it?

next yr's gonna be different. people are moving out, graduating etc. what sense of belonging? dian3's right. there is not sense of belonging. your bestest friend may move out/graduate before you. you make new friends and the cycle repeats itself. people who just come into your life and leave even before you know it. they're just the supporting actors in the play. easily forgotten and barely remembered.

its amazing what living together with other people can do. you see all sorts of weird things. stupid arguments. you see people in a different light after a while. *shrugs* you cant stop people from thinking what they think. but you can control what you do and how you perceive the issues at hand. i think thats the way to go. the people who care dont bother and the people who bother dont care. so the most important thing is to be happy. :) smile and the whole world would smile with you.

omg just realised its 6 weeks to exams!! *freaks out*

this semester has gone by really quickly. even i am amazed at the speed its gone by with. in a flash, singapore night, rural week, jane ball etc are all over! jane weekend's coming up soon with jane play this fri and sat.. there's so much to do yet there's so little time. i really need to concentrate and get down to studying hard. :) cannot fail man.. haha! though a lot of people would be like "HUH U FAIL?! YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!"

sometimes that stresses me. but i guess as long as i dont fail, having more of a life would prob make me much happier and not just spending every single day with my books and nothing else. its hard when people around you have 12-13h weeks (which can be shortened by ponning) while you have like 20+h weeks with barely any break with the same number of assignments as them. sometimes you really wonder if its all worth it, but i guess it will be in 4.5years time. not that i will have much of a life by then.. ><

life's so full of surprises and i'm glad certain things happen. i'm glad to have someone who keeps me sane most of the time. i'm grateful for the support and friends i have around me. when the going gets tough and you wonder if you'll make it out alive, these are the people who reassure me and tell me that its gonna be worth it at the end of the day. all the shit that we have to tahan etc just clouds the bigger picture.

the moons really bright today. kinda fell asleep just staring at the moon just now. luckily managed to wake up and drag myself to bathe and now im back at the com/notes. :) badminton tmr again! yay! at least there will be more people this time around.. more fun! hopefully dear mr tee will be able to wake up and come along too! though he's got soccer training at 1.30 later.. :(