i want the exams to come so that i dont have to study anymore. but i dont want exams to come because i want to study somemore.

ironic isnt it?

i hate this lack of motivation. its as if there's not much worth studying for. no matter how much you study, somehow something is going to be forgotten. nothing much is retained in the brain. when i read my notes, things make sense but when i dont look at my notes, i forget things. looks like i need to read it once more and then test myself by trying to type out 'summary tables' to test myself. for now i'm trying to do it for pathology. makes things much clearer actually which i really like. allows me to compare the various diseases across the board. might do another one for microbiology, histology etc. can't really do much for anatomy at the moment i think. same for physiology. its just facts. like sequences. serial processing. i need everything i learnt to be consolidated right now. i need something solid and concise. although my mindmaps are blardy concise already. whole semester's work into 1+ book. not bad already i must say.

its friday already. swotvac has zoomed by this time around. thank god that t2-5 is first so that means that i have about 1 more week before my ACTUAL paper. why actual? because i know how important t2-5 is. 15%. pfft. read through the notes twice. might just read stats again on sunday or something. sleep early and be ready to bullcrap on monday! YAY! thats the plan. yup! then come back and intensive mugging for thursday and tuesday. same sutff, different way of testing. :) so at least i still have the info fresh in my head, unlike last semester. almost 1 week apart!

ok i shall head back to my books. i really really really need to glue myself to my chair, prop my head up, get rid of everything else and STUDY HARD!

hmm. i've got this chai por taste in my mouth. weird weird weird. though i did have sweet and sour chicken for dinner but that still doesnt explain the taste. not that i'm complaining. i LOVE chai por! especially with eggs.. mmhmm.. :)

3 more weeks!!!