my fuse. dont make me angry or the fuse will burn and i'll explode!

and there's only supposed to be one. not three! HAHAHA!




PS. just realised this is my 401st post. i've definitely come a long way with this blog ever since i moved from the old one. it's really amazing. :)

just finished 07 paper and formative. finished 06 paper yest.

i think im ready... i think.. i'll definitely pass for sure.. so i shouldnt be worrying at all! :) to say the least. but no one wants to just pass. ok maybe some people ARE aiming just to pass. but thats besides the point. credit/distinction/high distinction would be better than just a pass. thats definite! haha..

ok i kinda need to do laundry. running out of stuff liao. shall do it tmr after my paper.. heheh.. time's just flying by.. before i know it, i'll be home! whee~!

its farking hot today!

29 deg!!! omg im dying la.....

at least if im in singapore there'll be aircon!!!!!! here.. dont even have fan.. kns.. need to seek cooler places to study or else im just gonna melt before my next exam.. disappear.. evaporate.. hahaha! i need to condense!

ok that was soo rubbish!

one down. two to go! today's paper wasn't as bad as i thought it would be though there were a few qns that made me think "did you really have to ask that? was there nothing else to ask? if so, dont ask anything!" i mean which person could think of a 10m answer for "w3lcome to country" and how you would implement it?? seriously. those two slides were prob the ones i skipped over and read ONLY because it sounded interesting but not examinable. but i guess i managed to crap something out la. hehe..

the heat is awful... really really really awful.. :(

studying makes you go mad.

and bad.

or rather try to be.

:)

listening to music right now. the mood is just wrong. morning with the sunlight coming in. warmth. notes in front of me. somehow something is missing. maybe its just that it's been a long time. its been too long.

the weather's getting too hot for my liking. i hate it. i just want to curl up in my sheets and sleep. but now its so warm i cant even sleep at night.

exams start tmr. t2-5. it'll be alright i guess. shouldn't be too horrible. and its only 15% anw. so its not so bad. even if i do screw up, the percentage wouldnt be that disgusting. i just need to pass this paper. cannot fail! it will be such a horrible thing to fail this paper. not that i will right! :)

its 9.40am. i need to focus. my notes beckon and yet im not heeding its calls. its just a maelstrom of colours. maybe i will only function at 10am. >< what a waste of 20min though. dammit.

oh well. i'll just try to finish up the last two pages of this book before going on to the next book. skipping all the anatomy for now. i'll do it later. its so dryyyy.. just like my bak kwa cadaver.

i want the exams to come so that i dont have to study anymore. but i dont want exams to come because i want to study somemore.

ironic isnt it?

i hate this lack of motivation. its as if there's not much worth studying for. no matter how much you study, somehow something is going to be forgotten. nothing much is retained in the brain. when i read my notes, things make sense but when i dont look at my notes, i forget things. looks like i need to read it once more and then test myself by trying to type out 'summary tables' to test myself. for now i'm trying to do it for pathology. makes things much clearer actually which i really like. allows me to compare the various diseases across the board. might do another one for microbiology, histology etc. can't really do much for anatomy at the moment i think. same for physiology. its just facts. like sequences. serial processing. i need everything i learnt to be consolidated right now. i need something solid and concise. although my mindmaps are blardy concise already. whole semester's work into 1+ book. not bad already i must say.

its friday already. swotvac has zoomed by this time around. thank god that t2-5 is first so that means that i have about 1 more week before my ACTUAL paper. why actual? because i know how important t2-5 is. 15%. pfft. read through the notes twice. might just read stats again on sunday or something. sleep early and be ready to bullcrap on monday! YAY! thats the plan. yup! then come back and intensive mugging for thursday and tuesday. same sutff, different way of testing. :) so at least i still have the info fresh in my head, unlike last semester. almost 1 week apart!

ok i shall head back to my books. i really really really need to glue myself to my chair, prop my head up, get rid of everything else and STUDY HARD!

hmm. i've got this chai por taste in my mouth. weird weird weird. though i did have sweet and sour chicken for dinner but that still doesnt explain the taste. not that i'm complaining. i LOVE chai por! especially with eggs.. mmhmm.. :)

3 more weeks!!!

well today will be spent reading ALL the t2-5 stuff. then i will read the remaining 3 chaps. and then i dunno if i want to go for the mtg tonight. although i alr said im going cos i think i'd rather study leh. a5hley isnt going too so its like HMM.

anw lunch today will be bbq lunch! cos its a public holiday (wow how great during swot vac. wad a difference) and after im done with the above stuff, i'll look through past qns, learning objectives etc and prob revise wadeva seems to be more impt at the moment. things im still not that familiar with. :)

i do hope this will all turn out alright. i mean i've studied quite a lot so yes! it better pay off man! though all i need to do is pass.. but passing alone is so depressing. at least a credit alright? :)

anw lunch time! whee~!

well as you can see.. i'm quite ahead of schedule.. lets keep it this way and see how many rounds i can get through this sem! :) last sem was 4 rounds.. haha! i'll be happy if i can get 3 cos there's so much more to study this semester..

and i should also start looking at the past yr papers and do them probably after my 2nd round? depends i guess.. might have to look at the t2-5 lot first.. :(

and if im gonna go for every available meal.. i'll be eating every 3hr! how >< is that?!

9am, 12pm, 3pm, 6pm, 9pm.

HAHA! shiok? afternoon tea + supper.. hehehe.. grow fat period = swotvac! no exercise, just sit and study + eat so much. die liao. HAHA. control control.. :P somehow the food during swotvac seems to be much better than normal. had grilled chicken + lamb today. yummy.. hehe..

okok shall go sleep le.. today has been a xiong day.. haha! yay tmr will be a brand new start! SMILE~!

Monday:
Diabetes
Cartilage
Bone
Bone growth
Bone healing
Gluteal 1
Gluteal 2
Joint classification
Joint histology
Skeletal histology
Diet and diabetes 1
Diet and diabetes 2

Preventative healthcare
Drug & alcohol setting
Stigma and discrimination


Tuesday:
Bone nutrition
Metabolic bone disease
Blood constituents
Hypersensitivities
Blood loss and groups
Smooth and cardiac mucles
Autoimmunity
Blood vessel histology
Hip joint, popliteal, leg 1
Hip joint, popliteal leg 2
Gram negative
Osteoarthritis

Aboriginal readings
Law and legal systems
Behavioural change


Wednesday:
Muscle contraction
Ankle knee 1
Ankle knee 2
Genetics
Anaerobic bacteria
Anaerobic clostridium
Antibiotics
Immune regulation
Foot anatomy 1
Foot anatomy 2
Muscular dystrophies
Seronegative arthropathies

Media and medicine
Emergency medicine
T2


Thursday:
Brain / spinal cord
Rheumatoid arthritis
Gout
Back /vertebral column 1
Back/vertebral column 2
Nervous embryology
Action potential
Synaptic transmission
Bone neoplasia
Multiple myeloma
Chlamydia/mycoplasm

Self care/gender
Summaries


Friday:
Spinal cord and nerves
Peripheral neuropathies
Nerve histology
Legionella
NMJ
Shoulder joint
Reflex arc
Osteomyelitis
Pregnancy nutrition
Arm, cubital,axilla 1
Arm, cubital, axilla 2

Statistics


Saturday:
Steroid hormones
Viral infections 1
Viral infections 2
Cancer biochem
Herpes
Wound infections
Staph/strep
Forearm/hand 1
Forearm/hand 2
Antivirals
Parasites/fungi 1
Parasites/fungi 2


Sunday
Hand anatomy 1
Hand anatomy 2
Sympathetic
Parasympathetic
Nerve injuries 1
Nerve injuries 2
Thyroid hormones

mon:
gram -ve
anaerobic
clostridium
antibiotics
chlamydia+mycoplasm
legionella
wound infections

tues:
hypersensitivity
autoimmunity/tolerance
immune regulation
genetics
bone nutrition
blood constituents
blood lost

wed:
revise OSCE
diabetes
diet and diabetes
pregnancy nutrition
cartilage

thurs:
cancer biochem
steroid
thyroid
bone
nerve histology
embryology of nervous system
NMJ
synaptic transmission
AP
reflex arc
ANS - sym/parasym

fri:
bone growth
joint histo
joint classification
skeletal
smooth
cardiac
blood vessels
virus
antivirals

sat:
parasites/fungi
herpes
bone healing
metabolic bone disease
osteoarthritis
rheumatoid arthritis
seronegative arthropathies
osteomyelitis
bone neoplasia
multiple myeloma
gout
muscular dystrophies
peripheral neuropathies

sun:
gluteal+ thigh
hip, popliteal leg
knee, ankle
foot
back
brain
spinal cord
shoulder
arm + cubital
forearm
hand
nerve injuries

thats probably all that i've done this sem.. hopefully i havent left anything out.. >< HAHAH!

so its already midweek of week 12. just finished my KFP report minus the genogram. i've got the general idea of the genogram already.. just need the names and ages.. :) i hate how all these assignments seem to repeat themselves. everything that i've got to write in it seems to have been touched on when i post my discussion topics in the forum.

doing antivirals right now.. i need to work faster.. well at least i dont have assignments left but i've still got the portfolio to put together.. not even sure what we are supposed to put into it.. they have been really unclear this semester man.. ><

dont you love how you can do so much when there's no school?? school just seems to take up so much time. like if you could just stay in your room and study on your own using the notes + tb.. hahah though being in lect just means that you arent distracted by the computer etc.. :P though i guess there are other things to do in lect as well.. zz.. hahah! shall try to finish more work before dinner so that i can feel really productive and that will make my day! yupyup! i love the feeling of cancelling things off my to-do list.. its just so shiok.. though sometimes when the entire whiteboard is filled up with things.. i dunno where to start! :( but slowly slowly.. i'll get there.. YUP!

I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,

Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

daylight savings starts today.. so im 3h ahead now..

i hate how one hr just disappeared like that. it just screwed up my bio clock la! wads normally 6.30 is now 7.30.. dinner has just become 5pm (old time).. i guess i'll get used to it soon.. it was much easier when we turned our clocks back though.. extra hour to sleep in.. shiok sia.. now i got robbed of it.. pfft..

jenny's party was fun while it lasted.. came back earlier though..

anw life goes on.. :) 3 weeks to exams.. sucks really.. dammit.. i hate exams.. hate this constant need to do well.. win everyone else.. >< not sure if im being excessive though.. *fingers crossed*

26/29!! :)) so so so so so happy! second highest in class.. highest 27.. missed 90% by 0.3% but considering it was mcq.. i couldnt have done much too.. hahah!

lost the 3 marks in pathology.. must have been that stupid extended matching qns.. like what in the world was cutting cone? never saw that in my life/notes/tb la! had to google to find that term and it was in the test! so i'll give myself one more mark for that.. maybe the other two marks were also from the emq.. not sure.. oh well i'll never know too.. :(

jenny's party today! its gonna be fun! last party before the exams.. whee~!!

for now.. better get some work done first.. if not i'll probably regret it soon.. ><

test was alright i guess.. i think the qn i got wrong was kinda unfair because of the term used.. cutting cone.. never saw that term before.. oh well.. one wrong.. doesnt matter i guess.. still 29/30 for now.. *fingers crossed*

dissection today was qutie fun.. got to see the cubital fossa etc.. apparently one cadaver doesnt have palmaris longus on one arm.. im starting to like the forearm.. lets hope it stays this way.. if i can master the upper limb.. the lower limb should be a breeze.. seriously upper limb is insanely complex.. brachial plexus.. multitude of muscles in the thumb.. the nerves are a pain too.. but i'll get there.. i will.. i definitely will! JIAYOU!

another thing i need to get around would be ANS sia.. i really really dont like the lecturer.. because he is using another lecturers notes.. he goes off track sometimes.. and its not in the notes and we dont know if its gonna be tested.. and apparently it will be.. cos it came out in the test.. >< but i got that right so thats fine.. for now..

watching RPA right now.. basically its a show based on real life cases happening in RPA hospital.. its so exciting man.. makes me wanna do med even more.. just that im not sure i wanna be a surgeon.. i've got such a soft spot for babies..

ok RPA just ended.. now its amazing medical stories.. HAHA! how cool is that.. :P giants (>7ft) and face blindness.. :)