i just realised how detached i am from the outside world.

just a floating soul without any attachment anywhere.

hah. guess it makes it easy for me to uproot and move elsewhere since i dont think i'll miss much here anyway.

today mum asked me "u're not close to your frenz one hor?"

glad you realised.

im alrite with everyone but i dont think im exceptionally close to anyone. like even if the entire world around me got wiped off i probably can still survive rather well.

so much for the cliche no man's an island.

thats true. just that the only other things on my island are probably just some passing seagulls that happen to land once in a while. migratory birds too. people who pop in and out of my life ever so periodically.

maybe its just cos i dont really have much in common with the others. i mean i dont fancy shopping a lot unless i suddenly have that impulse to. and then i will unleash hell upon the world. neither do i like talking on the phone. so that leaves me with sms and msn. the last person i spoke to on the phone apart from family is pialeong. then as far as i can rmb it would be enos. and that was quite a long time ago. oh wait i think ruth was in between but that was for marks.

so yeah that goes to show how colourful a social life i have.

no wonder i love the tv.

my only thing im really close too would be my bed and soft toys. really. i think they are my lovers. :)

lets see. do i talk to shps ppl? not really. rgs? rarely. vjc? sometimes. others? sometimes.

guess the only constant person who pops in regularly would be brian nguyen. HAH.

its only been 3 mths. what would it be like in 3 yrs? 30 yrs?

only gods knows.

feeling isolated now. really badly. just need someone but there's no one out there. except my bright yellow bolster. just gonna hug him to sleep i guess.

maybe someday i will change. somehow i will talk to people more.

what a loser.