im feeling pissed. helpless. angry. anything that fits that kinda feeling.

this is going to be a mopey post.

dunno. sometimes i feel like im being stretched to fullest and anymore requests from them i think i will break. the expectations, the feedback, the everything about it. everytime i walk in i feel stressed facing everyone. most are nice. some are alrite. some give me the i-dont-care look. and it makes me feel like giving them the i-dont-care-either look. if they arent helping themselves, there's not much i can do for you too.

mfdisngwinglkrngks!

its different being on different sides of the table. i miss being on the other side now. no worries. just listen and absorb. i feel squeezed now. best part is when i ask if anyone does not understand, no one raises their hands. wow if you all want personal attn, at least raise your freaking heavy hand? im not telepathic u know? the people arnd u might be able to help you if they understand and get the correct answer but if those around you are like cmi oso, please dont ask them! u'll confuse them and it makes life worse.

dont care if my students will ever read this post. if they can find my blog in the first place. well if they do please tell ur wonderful classmates what im feeling. its not easy ok. u've gotta understand that im already trying my best so i expect the minimum from you all too. if you arent going to put in the effort, i dont see why i should help you too. rite? it has to work from both sides.

and i really appreciate those who are trying their best to help themselves! :) love you guys! at least this way i wont feel so tired cos i know that im not helping people who arent even helping themselves.

but then again its some of these people who rant on and on and dont do anything.

im so not gg for SPM. seriously. bet their oh-so-concerned mothers would be waiting to kill me. HAH. neh neh. complain only if u've raised the issue with me and i've not done anything bout it ok. dont just blabber on and on cos i've asked you for your opinions and no one said anything either.

alrite. tmr i think i'll just take up 5 min to get things clear. feeling ARGH now. i need to sleep and calm down.