i just realised its less than 100 days till i fly off. about 96 days left according to my facebook countdown. time's really ticking by and i haven seem to have accomplished anything this year. this year has just gone by in a flash. its already near my birthday. 1 yr ago, we were having our A levels right now, mugging hard at our books, forgetting wads day and wads night. it was chem mcq. 3 years ago, we were mugging hard for O levels. it was geog and physics. 7 years ago, my birthday was the last day of school. i still rmb when i was so happy my age finally had 2 digits. and now that decade has almost gone by. isnt it just so surreal when you look back and you realise that everyone around you has aged, grown older, matured, settled down etc?

life's ever-changing. sometimes i hope i can rmb my earlier memories but i cant. cant really rmb anything before p4. which is a real pity i think. all my memories from then have been inputted by friends of mine. its only after they tell me that i vaguely recall such an incident though some really slip by mind totally. i do not rmb my kindergarten friends at all except nat and pei han (i think). i can rmb some of my p1-2 classmates but not the events that happened. generally i get the idea but not specific events that happened btwn others and i.

its amazing how when you finally manage to link up with long lost friends that you realise how far we've come today. since the days in kindergarten, who would have thought that we would become doctors, engineers, business people, lawyers etc. no one would have guessed this much. life's just insane. hopefully when i look back when im old and stuff, i can still rmb the things that happened to me. i dont want to lose my memory. at least let them be somewhere at the back of my mind and not totally erased. let there be something i can relate to my grandchildren in future.

life's just a big fat joke, ain't it?