just realised i havent really blogged properly ever since i got here. life just seems too monotonous to be interesting enough to blog about.

hmm actually to be honest. there's too much going around. its like we're starting to hear things about people and stuff like that which isn't always very nice. i don't really want to bother about those things cos they aren't directly affecting me since i don't really have much contact with them so thats cool. people have their own opinions on things and we just have to listen but we dont have to agree with it.

school's slowing down. thank god for it. i need all the spare time possible to actually grasp skin tumours, neoplasia, skin infections, molecular basis of cancer, chronic/acute inflammation, healing etc. all the horrible things that they dont really go through properly. my wall is starting to be filled up with notes. i might make mindmaps after i'm done with these. even shorter summary. HAHA. reading immunology textbook now. i'm up to chapter nine and i need to read till chap 10! :) so i'm quite proud of myself. its more to clarify the doubts i have about CD4/CD8 activation and B cell receptors etc. yeah people have been telling me different things but so i dont know who to believe anymore. shall just read it for myself and see how things go. :)

decided that i actually like studying a lot. its all about your individual effort and how well you want to do for the exams but sometimes i feel that i have expectations that are too high for my own good. its like whenever i get dictinction, i feel sad? unless i really didnt even expect to get a distinction (aka t2-4 formative saq). its like people will kill to be me sometimes with all my high distinctions and stuff like that but i feel like i let myself down? i guess its good that i didn't get a high d this time round but only like 77% (1 mark away from high d!) so that i will be spurred on to study harder to make up for it! i know it sounds really mad but thats how things are right now. i wanna be the best amongs the 3-5 of us and i know that it is possible! i've done it before and i want to do it again. at least for first semester since it's the easiest.

i just hope i dont go mental because of this shit. i know i'll prob graduate with a medical degree without much difficulty but its the not getting a good grade that is stressing me out. although all i need to do to get this degree would be to pass everything. even if its just barely passing, i passed. so why am i stressing myself out like that? maybe im obsessed with grades and should just stop comparing marks with other people. the aussies are taking life really easily and they are enjoying themselves at rugby games etc. if there's netball next sem, i dont mind playing i guess.. maybe i need to balance out my time. get some exercise and do something for college AND still do well in my degree. do you think thats possible? i'll just have to wait and see. dont want to fail second semester. BADBADBAD. but there'll be anatomy and stuff which is a hell lotta shit so there might not be time as well.

international night was a blast. photos are on facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26151&l=1da12&id=559512143
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26117&l=04dbd&id=559512143
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26120&id=559512143

and argh im so putting on weight here! this is despite going to the gym. HAHAH. we were saying that 80% of the international students here have like unigym membership! :S cos we're all growing fat with the food we're eating! i think even if i eat char kway teow etc when i get back i think i might still lose weight just because i'm eating less. maybe cos its colder that you get a better appetite? HAHA. but seriously, its almost impossible to lose weight/maintain unless you are really looking at what you're eating. the staples are like chips/wedges/potatoes and the vege you get are like brocolli, carrots, cauliflower, french beans. meats are beef, chicken, lamb. and most of the stuff are either fried or stewed in yummy sauce (normally with a layer of pastry over it) so ya! howhowhow!

tonight's dinner was like beef steak, nut crusted chicken breast, potato croquette, beef stew, noodle salad. thats wad i ate.

lunch was sandwich with potato salad plus one banana and pear

breakfast was two egg whites, oats, one orange.

had like muesli bar as snack. ><

wow thats A LOT OF FOOD. and you wonder why i grow fat. breakfast is standard. either oast or cornflakes with the whites and orange. add a slice of bread on weekends and its half-boiled eggs instead. :) yummy!

haiya!!!!! shall stop moping about my horrible weight and go back to my lovely t cells. yay! ><