haiz. i wonder if i did the right thing in telling them if they passed or failed.

some were relieved. some were disappointed. but i felt quite horrible after that.

especially when those who held hopes of passing were told they failed.

but like what kenneth was saying. he wished them to get what they deserved.

thinking back, i guess this test really gave them the marks they deserved for the effort they put in. really.

its like those students who put in the extra effort to understand and clarify did well while those who slacked around, played a fool, slept and din do much to help themselves failed. of cos there are a few who shud have passed but failed but it might have been due to carelessness. need to look through the papers to verify this.

maybe this test can act as a wake up call. its quite true i guess. when u realise that the effort you're putting in really isnt enough to even guarantee you a pass, its time u wake up from that little dream of yours. rgs doesnt guarantee you a safe spot in rjc. the teachers can recommend against you going.

but seriously im quite proud of some students. :) u people really make my day. makes me feel like the effort i put in is worth it. i know some people are like hoping that i'll leave asap [har! me too! no more stress!] because they think that the new teacher would be better. maybe. he's better qualified but hopefully u can connect with him. i cant. sry. at least not at this moment/today when i saw him again.

so yeah tmr we'll see tears. both of joy and happiness. guess i'll just sit there and take it all in and feel sorry for those who tried but didnt make it. tried but tried too late. but just rmb that if you try, you will make it someday. some people take the express train while others walk but sooner or later u'll all reach the same destination. some people take detours and take even longer but yeah u'll make it. as long as u dont fall asleep along the way. if not u'll never make it there.

rmb back in rgs. i was never that bright kid. kinda slacked my life away doing nth apart from sleeping in class. guess i paid my price for it. but i rmb trying really hard to do well for physics b4 Os. mugged my ass off for it and got a decent grade i think. nv had luck with physics. went to jc and took physics AGAIN. -groans- struggled like mad after first three months. last in class. climbed my way up painfully. there were days when i felt like giving up but mr chow's understanding and care [though not ur usual type] made me perservere on. there were teachers that i didnt really like but their indifference to me made me want to prove to them more.

i think studying requires motivation. not motivation from rewards cos it wears off after a while. it comes from within. the want to prove your worth. the need to reassure yourself. the exhilaration when you achieve your goals. the pride that consumes you. its this self-motivation that will go a long way.

when u feel weary and tired and feel as if this is going nowhere. take a break. close your eyes and imagine yourself achieving success. the sounds. the sights. the action. make it as realistic as possible and relive it everytime you feel down. this is the key to success.