i've come to terms. =D yippee! not that i was devastated or what. in fact no one around us would have guessed what happened. that was how 'normal' it was. which unfortunately was the abnormal response. weird huh. perhaps it was just because we were in denial about how we felt and to realise that it was less daunting upfront than i thought it would be probably made it easier. actually a wave of relief swept over me at that moment. curiosity was what i felt and i guess i had most questions answered later on.

so yes, i'm back to my old self now. the random, bubbly, talkative, crazy old me of the past. i shall not (un)knowingly become someone else. a relationship isnt two people seeing only each other in their eyes but two people looking in the same direction, working towards that goal. i think that was the problem. we were the former, but probably only realised that later. the person whom you're with should be the one that inspires you, one that encourages and helps you improve yourself. see what you admire about that person and try to improve yourself. i guess i've probably learnt to listen more (at times, depends on who it is too).

i've no regrets to be honest. its a lesson learnt. =) if we didnt get tgt, there would always be that 'what if' in my head. but at least now we know.