just watched 'the curious case of benjamin button'!

omg the movie was soo long but it was nice yet sad at times! it reminded me of one of the tv advertisements (was it mercedes?) that ran not too long ago. about how it would be to be born old and then grow younger so that you can live life to the fullest?

although this concept is impossible, i think that it actually makes sense.

just think about it. when we are all young and full of vitality, we are prisoners and slaves to the economy and society. we work 24/7, striving hard to save enough for our golden years. we run the rat race with millions of other people out there, oblivious to the sorry state that we are in. and we wonder why is it that the rich only get richer while the poor become poorer. but that is another story for yet another time. right now, i'm supposed to talk about how life should begin the other way around.

yet many a time, by the time we retire, our health isnt as good as before. we might suffer from dementia, causing us to forget who we are, what we were, where we are and who we've become. our dreams of before become nothing more than a lost memory. we live out our lives sitting in front of the television watching moving creatures crawl before our eyes. we hear but we do not listen. we look but we do not see. its a sad drama played out on life's stage. yet all of us have a role to play which we are unable to turn down. we morph from the baby that pisses-the-shit-out-of-everyone-but-because-is-too-cute-to-kill to the old baby that pisses-the-shit-out-of-everyone-who-cant-wait-to-kill-it.

however, in this world of benjamin button, as we grow older younger, we are able to enjoy our lives to the fullest extent, dying only as the cute baby that will forever be in everyone's mind. all our accumulated fortune over our lifetime will be spent wisely and with the body and spirit of a youthful person, we can accomplish our dreams with vigour and passion. isn't this so much better than what life is right now?

its hard to think of death being painless. the only painless way i can think of would be in our sleep. suffocating, choking, poisoned, heart attack, gun shot, slashed, accident, cancer etc. the list goes on. none of these are appealing enough and i dont want to die in these manners. but we cant choose how we're going to die. but we can choose one thing.

how we want to be remembered after we die.

do we want to be anonymous?
or do we want to be remembered for doing great things, for contributing so much to society that our names go down in history?
or do we want to be hated forever for all the sins we have committed?

i know what i want. do you?