i juz hope that i can finish up my revision etc by prelims.. at least read through everything once or hopefully twice n revise again!

body aching again.. arghh but at least it paid off! hahaha.. :)

our skool juz renovated the sci and tech labs and built this flower clock based on this pw project.. apparently NEA might use it for the garden thingie at marina.. MOE gave us money to build it too i think.. aint too sure bout tt.. quite cool.. considering all the japanese roses there.. tgt with this diamond looking tetrahedral strucutre which really looks like the ball and stick structure! not forgetting the IR lamps to cause the flowers to bloom at different times due to photoperiodism.. coolness!

our pw projects up on the boards! y didnt they put our names.. :( so sad! but the comments were like whoa.. haha.. no wonder we got an A.. haha! no but really.. didnt think it was tt good either.. but i guess mr chua did help quite a bit in helping us edit the report.. making it "coherent and easy to read" oohh.. :)

these two yrs haf passed really quickly that i feel like im gonna miss this big family a huge lot.. mr chow.. mr chua.. ms hoo.. mrs mah.. MS CHUA! mrs leow.. even mr tan though he only took us for one term of pe.. ppl like sherli.. zhongyi.. yong guan.. S13.. basically juz seeing familiar faces everywhere.. ppl who are nice n friendly.. people who u can harrass without being daoed [sorry sam!] sitting in the treehouses looking at ppl run.. gossipping in the lts.. trying to pass food in the lt without being caught [using notes to cover the packet] nodding off to dreamland in some lectures.. observing interesting characters during lectures [boy does vj haf a handful!] i dunno.. there's just too much i miss in vj n i dun wanna leave it.. seems like yest when i juz entered it in march.. all the rubbish that the guys haf sprouted that added to the memories..

will this blog be still around in the future for me to look back n reminisce at the events that have occurred when i was juz 17 and 18? will i still keep in contact with these frenz? considering that im practically not in contact with my lower sec classmates liao.. seems quite bleak.. class reunions? maybe they would mean more to us when we grow up cos class outings seem quite mundane rite now.. same lives.. same situation.. wads new?

even though i havent exactly left a really indelible mark in vj [unless u count vandalism on the tables with pen tips but i din write the 05S13 one i swear! must be outta my mind if i did] its made a huge impression on me.. was sitting at the canteen the other day waiting for my mum n looked across the foyer and carpark.. the tree-lined driveway.. the cosy feeling.. the informal assemblies and just walking across the road from the foyer to the canteen when we are hungry after mugging in the lib.. times when we all congregate at the lockers to take our tys.. occassions when minnie jason bullies mickey michelle.. haha! these are the things that would fade but when u meet up again.. it'll come flooding back all at once..

its quite sad that i dont really rmb my pri skool and lower sec life.. nothing worth noting i guess.. i dont want the memory of these 2 yrs to fade into some deep dank corner of my mind.. despite the tears, the frustrations that have come with it.. i must say that jc has been prob the best two yrs of my life.. really unless u compare with time in art club! :) teachers noe u on a first name basis.. they msg u to wish u good luck for ur CTs.. u chat with them on msn.. u can msg them anytime if u have problems with subject etc.. its really like a close knit family.. i guess this is wad being in vj is really like.. it isnt all about the cheers and spirit etc.. its this feeling of familyness that makes us so special.. about half the tchers were past victorians.. and you wonder why we are so bonded? its just in us.. teachers to students.. everyone is related in one way or another.. u really just gotta be here to experience it for yourself..

nil sine labore. now this really applies to prelims. nothing without labour. ouch.

oh man i just realised how close it is to prelims and A levels.. it seems rather far but its not!! gp is like in 4 wks time.. prelims proper in 6 weeks.. there after its about 2 months to A levels.. NOOO!! this is not good.. :S

went for the us fair today.. gosh i dont think i can go unless i get a scholarship but looking at my s papers and results i think i am headed for NUS or NTU which are quite good too! :)

1. no money
2. not many unis have biomedical sciences.. only as additional majors.. PS. they haf biomedical engineering though! but so different..
3. results?
4. my horrible transcripts
5. predicted grades of probably not 4As
6. no stellar results at competitions eg olympiads etc
7. no money again. :(

was considering wisconsin-madison cos it seems to be not too bad for bio/sciences yet can get in that kind.. plus the profs seem nice because i managed to get my PW materials from one of them!! cornell is also one of my choices.. carnegie-mellon is famous for business not sciences.. chicago is more for engineering i think.. MIT is definitely engineering.. northwestern too.. upenn's not too bad too but seems hard to get in! i really do not know what i want.. forensics? medicine? pharmacy? biomedical? tcm? languages [mum probably kill me!]?

crap maybe i should just go to germany n benefit from the almost free education there. haha. thats after i splurge 4000 bucks [omg!] on the intensive course in dresden or mannheim.. $_$ that is how i probably will look after i come back..

Girl Next Door

Girl Next Door


Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...

guess tts how i feel at times.. hmm but i like being that girl next door. :)

b3 for gp! screwed up compre though.. everyone did..

essay: 34+1 [moderation]
compre : 23+2 [ouch]

ouch my legs hurt! din noe 5 items can be so xiong la.. :S

my maths is gg at a crazy rate.. finished DE 15.3 when the lecture juz ended today.. doing normal approx tut when we've barely started the lecture on approx.. and i think we're gonna run outta things to do soon at the rate my tcher is gg.. oh well tts normal actually.. she finished one tut in one day when we take days to do one.. :(

chem only at TM.. still got biochem n NMR 2 to do.. die la..

physics still got analogue, fluids, data analysis (?), charged particles etc

bio lectures not finished yet.. only at control of human growth.. still haf sexual repro n control in plants.. haiz.. so tts like 3 more tuts to go..

then it will be revision full steam ahead!!!!!

omg i think the A levels are really scary. dont u think so? i mean like juz 2 yrs ago we were mugging away for Os.. hoping to get into RJ or sth.. and now it would be hoping to get into ivy league or sth.. scholarships etc.. :S still carn imagine next yr will be in uni le.. at most following year.. so fast la.. gosh! suddenly we're leaving the system that we have come to love and hate so much.. no more uniforms [though i will miss them cos im too lazy to decide wad to wear].. no more assembly.. haiz do u miss skool now?????

once u get to uni u wun haf close knit classes anymore.. no more fun. juz more discussions n trying to get yourself noticed.. guess when u go overseas u've gotta compete with others to be outstanding n (in)famous.. it can be so intimidating i guess.. when you've tried your best but somehow u still lag behind others.. ouch.. in a foreign country all alone etc..

oh well tts another worry for another day.. right now it would be to understand analogue n get thru prelims and the As..

btw chem paper one falls on my bdae. ouch. luckily only one paper. unlike Os where i had geog 1 and physics. whoops.

im gonna get gold for my napfa test! :) yippee! now for 2.4 next wk..

woohoo watch pirates liao! oh n please wait till the credits have rolled b4 leaving cos there's a nice surprise behind.. hahaha! though it was really short.. :( but yeah do wait for it!! even though most ppl would haf left by then n all the cleaners would be standing by waiting for u to leave.. hahah!

guess the show was quite alright though the first one made more sense than this.. because the ending was like "huh end liao ar.. wth.. now for part 3.." kind of ending yeah.. deads man chest is rather lame n drama but its funny!! depp is so good..! the effects were good too.. yeah so i guess overall its not bad la.. :) go watch! i missed the first part though.. was late n some ppl took our seats so had to wait for them to go back b4 we could sit down..

first time out since a long time ago.. prob nanny mcphee? haha! or my girl n i.. depending on which came out first.. went to mph and then hmv to look at books n cds.. i realised i dl a lot of songs la.. i was like looking at the range and i went "oh i dl liao.. i haf this too! and this! and that!" then all the movies and dramas im like "oh watched on youtube.. got pirated vcd etc" whoops.. im soo supportive of original cds siaz.. oh i do buy them hor! juz that sometimes i buy liao then kena scolded.. :( or like in one cd i only want one song so no point buying the whole cd i gues..

saw zhihui sherilyn n angeline! haha too bad i couldnt stop to talk to them.. :(

i am going to become a mugger.. even more mugger than wad im alr.. arghh though i dun think i would really keep to that.. i juz hope i can be more focused n jiayou for prelims!! dun wanna let the teachers down n even worse get like D for physics after my A.. :S tt would be horrible! so i muz muz muz keep up my physics.. work a little harder for maths.. cheong like siao for chem and study smarter for bio.. as for the s papers.. haiz.. do wad i can only lor.. :(

new day. new beginning. thanx so much to all those who sent those msgs etc.. :) love you all! <3

ABCE physics maths bio chem. 71 68 61 49.5.

ouch.

love the first one though. :)

Rants

my wonderful day has just been ruined.

guess i wasnt really upset by my E for chem since my class did the worst in the cohort when refering to failures etc.. 7 Os and 1 F.. outta a class of 23.. tts like 1/3.. only 2 As which were like 70 n 73 and 1 B.. the rest were Cs Ds Es.. yeahh so i guess i was still above average la.. missed D by like 0.5?! had 49.5.. bah.. oh well.. its ok.. was over standard for the mcq.. only had 8 outta 30.. ouch..


so wad made my day wonderful since its so horrible? well it was physics! like oh-so-hated-but-wanna-try-n-do-well subject.. spent a lot of time on it and i guess it paid off! got myself a wonderful A!!! 71%.. yeah i noe its like borderline but ehh to think i used to be last in class! i even won ami n yf..!! :) tts like impossible la... n i did it.. was soooo happy that i couldnt believe my eyes! can u imagine getting 34/40 for mcq cos u only had 3 mistakes?! when the norm would be like 16/30? even my essay.. 15/20 and 18/20.. omg.. structured wasnt as good cos of some mistakes but it still gave me an A!! from an E student to an A student in 1 yr.. woots! :)

so yeah was so happy tt i told my mum bout it.. was telling her got bad n good news.. so she heard the bad news aka chem n then after she chided me i din feel like telling her bout physics but anw i did half-heartedly.. spoilt 1/3 of my day.. so later on my bro kept teasing me bout my E though i tried to ignore it.. its not like i didnt study.. i DID! n i tried really hard to understand the stupid topics.. ive alr done more than wad i normally do.. i did papers.. made notes.. revised summaries over n over again.. even revising during lunch b4 the paper.. but no.. they gotta harp on the fact that i got an ELEPHANT. finee so wads so bad bout an E when i noe i tried my best?

so later on while on our way to take lunch my bro was like "im gonna tell daddy u got an EEE!!!" tell lor... tts wad i told him.. i tot they would understand.. but no... out came this whole long lecture bout how i spend so much time on the computer.. how i sleep so late at nite.. how i nv seem to care bout things.. they think they noe me.. but they dont.

was doing maths prelim paper yest n kinda fell asleep cos i was tired.. mum came in to paint the toilet door and the only thing she said was "sleep sleep sleep sleep.. all u noe is sleep.." wadeva.. cmon u shud be glad i fell asleep doing prelim paper n not while reading fashion magazines or sth.. at least im trying to do my part to reach my goal! its all these baby steps that are the key to attaining those 4 As.. its so unfair.. my frenz play all day.. their parents dun complain.. i study all day yet they still complain.. wad do u want me to do!!!!!!!!!

ARRGHHHHHHHH......... im exasperated.. i dunno wad to do.. its a wonderful feeling if ppl can share ur happiness but no.. they gotta put u down n of all people.. ur parents n family.. it juz makes me feel ignored.. worthless.. etc.. its like they seem to only care about my brother that i feel like im juz the phantom of the house at times.. the one tt no one bothers about.. the one who coops herself up in her room all day.. the one who gets scolded everytime she talks.. the one who rathers tok on msn than to talk to her parents.. the one who doesnt like to stay at home.. the one who gives so much trouble.. the one who throws ur face juz cos she aspires to go to med skool.. am i such a horrible person?!?!? can someone tell me???

how would u feel if when u want to tell someone something that is of a certain value to you n that person listens halfheartedly? its like ive gotta tolerate their discussion on badminton tt can last throughout dinner till they reach home n it doesnt even concern me.. so i juz stare outta the window hoping that i can juz get into my room n be my true self.. so yeah back to telling them stuff.. once in a while there would be a break in tt discussion so i would be like "oh ya.. today ar..etc" after like 30s my mum would juz say "eh di ar.. wad did hamid [the coach] ask u to do today?" i'll be like in the middle of something then i juz give up n retreat into my little world.. trying to ignore them..

finee. be that way. and i'll be on my way. dont u worry.

theres juz so much more deep down inside that i juz dunno wad to write.. its all these triggers that throw me into an emo state.. n that i juz wanna be rebellious n prove them wrong.. they say i talk back to them but tts cos they do not noe what i have done.. things that they assume etc.. they said i dont study n that if i wanna fail n get E tts my prob.. lets get the fact straight alrite? if i didnt study can someone please explain wtf in the world i got my A for physics? please use ur own brain n think about it alrite?

why haf i been up these few nites? ok finee soccer but at least i was using the time constructively.. doing my hw.. revising etc.. not dotaing like other or playing games [ok sometimes] but ive been trying to change! i wanna change my sleeping habits but the WC screwed it up for me.. now tt its over i can try n change it.. assholes..

n today grandmother goh gotta irritate me once more... eh dey.. i went up there 3-4 times to look for the fucking sheet of napfa paper ok.. n u said its in tt pile.. so fine i searched.. couldnt find.. u were toking to i told it to peter wee n then u turned around n shoot me say y i nv tell u earlier? cos my mum always said im a scatterbrain so i searched 4 times before asking u.. wad if it was there n i missed it? u would haf said "why u so coo-koo one?" fuck u la.. ur grandmother dua bai ar? so it was ur fault for putting it tgt with the j1 pile.. n u think ppl wanna not do well for napfa test? if u all din frigging change the criteria most ppl would haf passed! so stop ur nonsense bout if u exercise regularly u shud pass.. if u only cycle but not train ur arms do u think u can do pull ups eh?

ok ive vented my frustrations.. my tears [including those during lunch] etc and i think im ready to get down to work liao..

please dont sue me etc if u're offended or sth.. cos its mainly one of those emo rants.. i would juz treat everyone else as they are if u dun step on my toes.. i even tried to forget wad grandmother goh suaned me last term.. yeah cos he didnt seem so mean but today it was too much cos it was in front of everyone.. lucklily peter wee helped me a lil by saying that i told him.. thanxx so much cos it meant so much to me.. at least ppl arent that bad afterall.. yeah..

oh yeah n pardon the expletives.. :)

im so proud of myself! i finished normal dist assignment, DE 15.1 assignment, DE 15.1 tut, radioactivity tut, biochem protein tut, lipid tut.. :) did AJ maths prelims too! but one look at the stats n i thought to myself "gosh still got so much to learn!! all the approximations.. :S" ok i noe brian nguyen, jingyuan, pq etc will start calling me mugger liao.. can almost hear them calling me tt on msn etc..

btw i haf a new nickname given by my physics tcher cos of my hair.. its not funny lor.. its MI SHARAPOVA.. yeah like mi-sha sounds like michelle.. thanx ar.. my hair is not blonde! its only orange..................

some random pics from my phone..

deren in the lib attempting to STUDY electrochem.. not revise...


















photo of the sky in negative mode while waiting for my brother to end his trg at YCK sports hall..



















some hair caterpillar we saw at lower peirce b4 dinner.. :S it was wriggling tts y so blur..



















chickens in some house along the road when walking down LP.. when u exit from the other path instead of the usual one.. yeah.. taken by my bro..

so much to do.. dunno wad to do.. too sian to do.. eyes juz closing on me.. think i shall sleep early today.. been sleeping at about 2.. betta change it asap.. yeah.. now its like sleeping b4 12 is so weird.. normally its after 1.. yeah.. i wonder when i started to do it.. usually would be after 12 before 1.. now its after 1 before 2.. gosh.. kinda fell asleep during bio s.. luckily he wasnt toking about anything impt.. its all juz in the notes tt peishan is gonna help us zap.. yeah.. :) animal biodiversity.. i seriously wonder whether i would do tt qn cos u would hafta noe like the different kingdoms like protoctista etc.. chordata..

got 68 for maths.. same as b4.. juz tt it was upon 80 n not 100.. n yong guan tyco got 86!!! man stupid idiot! haha.. reverse of my marks la.. still say wad hopefully i wun win him cos he wanna haolian.. -_-" S11 ppl smart liao lor.. win liao lor.. win S13 one.. hmph.. tt is like higher than ami too!! so it muz muz muz haf been a fluke! jkjk.. it boils down to effort cos he was busy mugging for maths.. soo if i din study n got 68.. wad if i did? ;) 87? muahahahx! tt would make him hopping mad!!

if only i had juz written down something for that stupid DRV question! i wanted to write wad the eventual answer is but it seemed wrong to me back then so i din.. HAIZ! oh well.. this time our class marks are damn varied.. from 40+ to 80+.. n to think we topped the cohort for the previous CT.. tt includes the F maths students too.. whoops.. guess many of us din study as hard for maths i guess.. haha..

prob got 26 or 27 for bio mcq upon 30.. lets juz hope it wun be too bad..!! everything will be returned next wk lor.. bah.. not too enthu but juz wanna get them back i guess.. haha guess maths didnt turn out too badly afterall cos it was my most unprepared sub.. cheonged nearly everything the day b4..

ok.. shall go do my proteins tut.. sick of DE liao.. still got so many questions n i hate to integ this and that!! gotta find my carbo biochem notes.. dunno where they are.. :S normal dist assignment.. DE 15.3.. lipids.. plus loads to read up on.. :( sleep early n wake up early to study! yeah tts wad im gonna try n do tonight!! :)

JY's 18th

Jingyuan's birthday! PQ's the cameraman.. :)































pics were taken after skool so that explains the erm low turnout.. haha! howan came after we took the one above so tts how he appeared in the 1st pic.. :P

Love?

been watching kim sam soon on youtube.. all these korean dramas really get ppl thinking bout this whole love game..

kim sam soon kinda reminds me of full house.. contract dating etc.. calling the wrong name in front of the girl and the likes of it.. but its so nice!! haha..

was up till 2+ last nite thinking about all these things.. its an unearthly timing but tts when i start getting emo n stuff la.. so yeah im the most vulnerable at nite.. haha! dun provoke me in the evenings or else u'll get it thru out the nite until we part.. think my family suffers the most.. temperamental me.. tantrums etc.. though i juz keep quiet.. refuse to eat anything normal except dessert.. get frustrated at the slightest stuff.. haiz..

maybe stress is getting to me.

back to the love thing.. so was thinking about it and i suddenly came up with this analogy of what ppl look for in love.

imagine u're drowning or at least floating in the deep vast blue ocean and there's nothing around you.. let's juz say floating cos you would be desperate when u're drowning.. so wad do you look for?

1) life float
2) an island

so whats your choice? life float or the island?

If you chose 1: you like to be adventurous, but you arent seeking to settle down.. u float around with it until a better one comes along.. or maybe even a lousier one to up the stakes.. you hang on to different guys and change them relatively frequently.. you're looking for fling material more than a life long partner..

If you chose 2: you wanna settle down with the one of your dreams and set up your own family aka colonise the island.. it has to be one that gives you a sense of security and the resources are there to support you.. if things go well, the island would prosper n develop.. if it doesnt.. well at most juz swim back into the ocean again.. looking for another island or juz a temporary life float..

man i think these are rather good analogies to me la.. :) okok if you've like seen or heard this b4 somewhere else i swear i havent! so yeah its original at least in my opinion!! so if you wanna quote this.. cite sources k?? IP rights..!!

CTs and Bio S

im so tired. juz had bio s test.

IT WAS GOOD!! or at least i tot it was :S

haha since mr foo gave a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE hint.. ;) too bad for those who din hear it.. so yeah i kinda mugged the handouts he gave as well as evolution which i din do in the end cos of a really weird qn.. muahahax..

so i wrote 4 pgs worth of worthless rubbish.. dont that think is worth much do ya? lets juz see how much that will get me.. my previous reorganisation of university notes for assignment only got me 16.. so yeah lets juz hope this rearrangement of Time article + own rubbish would gimme more than 16 since i wrote 4 pages.. hahha!

Discuss the consequences of raised levels of atmospheric carbon dioxide on organisms other than humans

for those who want to know which article it is.. its the April 3 2006 one.. yupz..! read my original copy instead of the zapped one cos got colour n i like coloured stuff.. -am i colourful?- *recalls colouring my cells in an array of colours thanx to sigg!*

guess CTs werent too bad but it wasnt too good either.. i dunno la.. my feeling always wrong one.. apart from chem back in sec 3 when the paper was uber easy n confidently announced that i would get above 80 and i did!! :) other than that my acumen hasnt been very accurate.. haha maybe im hoping that by lowering my expectations i wouldn be so disappointed?? hehe!

tml's sat and following day in sun and mon is youth day! omg so cool.. :) but i really really really need to continue studying.. if not will be super unprepared.. especially for maths s.. i really wonder y am i still taking it when i nv even do anything to prepare for it!! see la peter.. u get 2Ds then my mum says "if peter can do it.. so can you!!!" -_- so its jiayou for me lor.. though she also said it prob is "ding4 ju2" le.. the state of my maths s.. maybe shud concentrate on my bio s instead.. at least got SOME hope.. merit oso can!!!

my room is in a huge mess.. with notes notes notes notes notes notes more notes everywhere! *did u notice the more there?* u prob wouldnt have if u skimmed thru that whole line of it.. i think cos i didnt when i tried it again.. hehe! anw back to the subject.. which happen to be subjects.. oh no lame again!

GP: passage was horrible because it was about the danish cartoons that made headlines.. eww eww eww i hate such stuff.. i juz hope my AQ n summary can save me though i dun see how it can cos i dunno wad i crapped about too.. my summary had only 60 words outta 120 at first.. before adding more stuff.. was bout 110+ i think.. yeahh.. AQ was bout freedom of speech. whether we shud haf RESPONSIBLE 'FOS' or juz FOS as it is.. i chose the responsible one lor..

MATHS: erm i din do a whole qn.. which is bad! cos i din really understand the qn.. dist table for the problem.. all i understood was that WIN = +$7.. LOSE = -$5 DRAW = 0. think the prob was given too.. dunno la rubbish qn.. hope at worst get b?? pweeasseee..

BIO: wasnt too bad but the last few structured like meiosis n eco was rather screwed up.. i couldnt even decide if the chromosomes were in mitosis or meiosis la.. let alone the phase! heck la.. essay was on homeo and nervous.. i hope i can get high marks! :) dunno if what i wrote was relevant though.. yeah.. asked bout propagation of nerve impulse in a neuron.. wrote like a whole page on the propagation alone la.. i mean muz explain how it is propagated in the first place rite??? please tell me yes!! it was a 12M qn so i assumed so.. 12 mark for propagation along neurone is not worth 12M...... at least i dun think so!

CHEM: what were they thinking?!??! siao.. dun fail can liao.. or at least still get d.. dun gimme an e!! cheonged 3 essays in 15 min.. haha of which i finished 2 entire essays.. din finish one cos had to elucidate the structures of PQRST etc.. so outta the 4 essays.. i did 3.25? haha.. as for mcq.. with 15 min left.. i was only halfway thru the paper so that means the last 10 qns etc were juz like ACBDCBACDBC din even haf time to throw dice! haha juz shaded whatever my pencil led me to..

PHYSICS: mcq was rather though.. harder than the papers i did.. including the rj one which dear ruth passed to me.. din even see one qn la! only last min then saw it.. so i oso anyhow write the answer in the box.. structured wasnt too bad i guess.. except for some forces qn which i have similar qns but carn rmb..

Great Wall of China

went to LP today.. was b4 dinner at the wanton mee stall.. so bo liao walked all the way with family till the hypoleuca then turn back liao cos mum said god was dimming the lights.. went there last wed to eat prata after badminton with uncle etc.. it was PITCH BLACK! omg carn see a thing.. stood outside where the rocks were.. looked in and was like "omg carn see even rite in front of you.." nv seen anything so dark b4.. even ubin at nite was bright cos of the moon.. anw they din haf chee cheong fun so had to eat wanton mee.. wasnt feeling veh hungry mahz.. ordered the sour plum drink.. not nice one.. think its the same brand as the lime juice.. saw some poster on the wall.. looked like mardi gras or something.. the costume the fellar wore.. had limes n sour plums at the bottom of the poster respectively..

saw this cat whining at the bro to give it food.. at first tot it was a pure white cat which would look so cool.. felt a lil pitiful cos i TOT it was a white cat.. then later it walked away for a while n it wasnt.. disappointing.. after tt i din feel tt awful anymore.. maybe white made me think its more vulnerable? hmm..

oh was facing the other prata shop.. looks damn sad la.. felt even more awful when i saw the lone indian guy behind the counter eating his own muruku.. :( watching tv or sth.. carn rmb.. then this car parked next to our table n two indian guys came out..

A: "this one? *pointed to pitiful one*"
B: *pointed back* "no la.. cannot make it.." or sth along tt line.. then he pointed towards casuarina prata n said "tt one la.."

n i think the lone indian guy saw.. i dunno.. i felt terrible.. really terrible.. maybe cos felt bit off today anw so im feeling for every little thing i see..? his shop is like so 'lok' compared to the other one.. saw the drinks in the fridge and was like "arghh.. " maybe shud buy drinks from him.. at least got something.. i dunno.. haha! really sad.. loooked like its gonna close anytime tt kind lor.. maybe daytime not as bad but it was heart-wrenching if u can say tt..

on the way home i was thinking.. wad if i werent who i am? wad if i were someone else?

let's see..

1. nat ngoi [dunno her name came to me quite quickly]
2. paris hilton
3. ami
4. some hawker's daughter
5. some doctor's daughter
6. some lawyer's daughter
7. some rich kid's daughter
8. rachel wee
9. david [another rich kid, would being a guy be fun?]
10. audrey lee

my fates..

1. living it up smart, pretty, rich, popular, and cambridge med anybody?
   
2. living it up up up pretty, rich, brainless
3. smart, humble, adorable
4. prob serving some food n pia-ing my hearts out to do well in skool
5. aim to go med skool
6. aim to go to law skool
7. paragon's my haunt. scgs's my school. acsi's my dig.
   
8. free hair treatments, slimming treatments even when theres no need to.. erm HUGE house.. popular amongst guys.. are they trying to get free IPL treatments at jean yip? HAHA
9. stoning around skool with diff girls.. looking all tan n stuff.. faces of the year [guy n girl].. luckily no one sabo-ed or it would become faeces of the year.. hanging out at dad's fish pond(?), chilling out at sailing centre..
   
10. presidents scholar.. outgoing.. still rmb u for booking me! hmph! when i din even realise tt i forgot my name tag n skool badge.. grr.. nonetheless she's a great girl..
11. no 11 rite? heck let's juz be me again. how would life be? not much money.. struggling with studies though still somehow can get by.. dreams of being a doctor/sinseh/dentist (?!) though i dun think i can get past the dex test with my shaky hands even during spa.. if cannot i dun mind opening my own business.. erm pilot? can travel! :) *deja vu of typing this in my dream b4.. always happens! even for exam papers.. O levels etc..too bad carn rmb when i wake up!!* not disciplined enough to mug my hearts n guts out to get to where i wanna be.. though i really really really really wanna become a full fledged mugger.. im not gonna bother bout wad others say..
    

ok strategies for me to get my ass down to studying!

1. get my com away n lock it up in some ulu place in the house
2. lock my hp away too
3. lock my door n push food thru some doggie hole or sth
4. leave me alone
   
5. dun talk to me
6. lock the xbox away too
7. tv as well
8. no bed
9. no mirrors or storybooks or glossies
10. timetable
11. more notebooks
    
12. enough drinks n munchies to keep me gg
13. more space
14. alarm clock/stopwatch
15. well-deserved breaks to motivate me

now it seems that wad i need most is isolation. -_-

suggestions anyone?

i juz happened to open this bulletin tt told me to write 21 names down so i did.. n then i realised its the one pam asked me to do a loonngg time ago.. so i guess the names are random enough since i din realise at all? :)

1. ruth
2. pam
3. jessie
4. grace
5. pei quan
6. ami
7. wene
8. brian nguyen
9. brian shawn
10. jingyuan
11. ben
12. yong feng
13. howan
14. liru
15. dawn
16. brenna
17. shuyi
18. shiqi vj
19. qiao yun
20. shiqi aj
21. yunlong

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 14?
* back in rg.. aww.. sec 1 or 2 la.. think its 1 cos of the SL thing..

2. What would you do if you never met 6?
* hmm i wun be so stressed out by this smart jap girl? :)


3. What would you do if 20 and 9 date?
* interesting.. watch?


4. Did you ever like 5?
* hmm

5.Would 3 and 12 make a good couple?
* HAHA! even the quiz creates rumours! ok too bad yf attached liao.. tts y we stopped teasing u two huh..

6. Describe 8:
* wonderful fren to have! so sry for being mean to u last yr!

7.Do you think 13 is attractive?
* pretty boy tts wad my jnrs say.. but i juz think he's ok? maybe cos he's short la.. if he's a bit taller.....

8.Tell me something about 17:
* erm hiao? whoops! to me at least.

9. Do you know any of 4's family
members?
* brother i think.

10. What's 21's favorite color?
* eh dunno?

11. What would you do if 18 just
confessed he/she
liked you?
* freaky cos i might juz turn les! jkjk.. dun really tok to her la.. carn even recognise her properly in skool.. :S


12. What language does 20 speak?
* 华语 and english

13. Who is 9 going out with?:
* oohh i wanna noe too!

14. What grade is 16 in?
* same as me

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?
* b4 skool closed?

16. What perfume does number 2 uses?
* do u even use one pam?

17. Would you ever date 7?
* if im a guy..

18. Would you ever date 1?
* ruth! :)

19. Is 15 single?
* nope. at least tt was last updated some months ago. hah!

20. What is 19's last name?
* erm erm erm damn wad izzit!

21. Would you ever want to be in a
serious relationship with 11?
* oohhh i am alr in one! :) closer than anything else man..!

22. What school does 3 go to?
* veejaycee

23. Where does 10 live?
* AMK

24. What's your favorite thing about 10?
* favourite ar............................... gimme some time to think yahz? he's ok when he's not in one of those MOODS.. terrible..

25.Have you seen number 1 naked?
* 0.o are u sick?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

so much to study but so little time..

how how how??

9 more days to go.

someone help me.. seriously..

maths is a gone case.

bio still got hope if i really cheong like siao.

chem juz pray organic comes out. a lot tt is.

physics juz pray hard. dun like magnetism/electromagnetic induction etc.. eww.

Beijing 1

i still miss beijing.. oh well especially the shopping cos there juz wasnt enough time!!! shud do a really detailed post after CTs cos really got no time now.. arghh.. bought a billabong cap for SGD 5.. miss sixty shirts for SGD 6.. nike shox for like SGD 20.. some bag for SGD 6 which has the same print as my miss sixty shirt.. bought a butterfly bracelet and some necklace but carn rmb how much they cost.. bought one hu lu si which is some recorder like instrument with a hu lu.. quite cool but i din noe it was so hard to play! :S ohoh and i bought a TCM tb for SGD 9.. haha its edited by beijing uni of tcm.. which is the uni for the 4th and 5th yr if im gonna take the NTU biomed one.. =D overall still bought silk blankets which cost like SGD 300+ for 4 blankets, pearl cream and powder.. chinese medicine from tong ren tang.. some multi purpose skin cream for dad and some medicinal packet of herbs for soaking ur feet.. dad again.. got free pearl rings as in jie zhi from the pearl shop cos it was their children's day! was happy until i realised my grandaunt koped 4! -_- pissifying.. still dare to ask me if i got.. then she showed off the 4 rings on my third finger.. like *waves it all around*.. idiot.

well great wall was damn hard to climb cos it was almost vertical.. my legs were wobbling on the way down.. was perspiring when i reached the top of that flight of steps.. n the temperature was like 26.. so yeah was cool but tiring.. bu dao chang cheng fei hao han.. guess im a hao han now.. hahha!

the food was quite sian la.. other than a few exceptions.. like fried corn kernels with salted egg [yum!] it was like stir fried pork with cucumber, stir fried chicken with cucumber, stir fried pork with onions, really juz onions and cucumbers and not forgetting out 'dessert' of watermelons every meal! except one which din even haf dessert.. not tt i was complaining..


okok shall go study now.. arghh mug people!