just wanna say congrats to all who have passed math thinking that it was impossible!! :)

its monday and its getting a little boring. been driving around, basically from home to granny's, home to RI, home to office etc. getting the hang of it though my car still tends to keep rather left. somehow i just have a phobia of having cars zoom past my right, its as if they will slam into me anytime!

btw i can collect my photocard license tmr! :) they came today but cos its registered and no one was at home so shall go down tmr. hope its nice!

went for y-ee sharing on sat. was great meeting up with everyone and as usual, our group was the most high among everyone, partly because we had the largest group. 8 turned up cos 1's in NS. it was FREEZING so i wore xi-aomi-ng's jacket. too big for me but better than nothing. :) rebe-cca from run 7 was :S and xm was there to shut her up. rather amusing and we all had a good laugh. hahaha!

hopefully the higher ups will meet with us soon. its either now or next yr considering that prelims are in 6 weeks and As in 12.. a yr and passed and i havent accomplished much. oh well.

sun was spent with cousins. bullied as usual. thats for being the eldest. :( btw van-ya and yi-ngying are keeping their hair longlonglong cos they wanna donate it to make wigs for needy children! soo meaningful! better than shaving botak like they do here.

i realised how ex it is to make a wig.. can range from 1300-3000.. would be great if we can start something like this here. just that we do not have the capital as students rite now to do sth like that. unless we partner with other companies. or even do sth like "three wishes" its just so touching that i cry when i watch.. >.< despite living in singapore, i think there are many out there [local or overseas] who still require our help so let's do our part to help them! YAY!

possible ideas.. im day-dreaming. its not logistically possible.

1. Do sth like locks of love
2. Three Wishes
3. collect unwanted pen and paper and send them to less developed countries to help the children
4. Collect unsold bread from bakeries and send them to orphanages etc at the end of the day [are they still doing it now? heard about ppl doing it b4]
5. collect unwanted uniforms and give it to the school-going children cos they outgrow them quickly.

dreamy i hear you say. i wish i can do something. :( i need a miracle.

i think upper sec is easier to teach. was talking to xianw-en and i agree that its rather difficult to teach basic stuff that we alr take for granted. things that seems so simple can be so difficult to them.

i kinda miss r-gs i guess. though it feels funny to not be sitting at my usual desk. >.< though i occasionally wonder over to look for beatr-ice and then we will purposely slack in front of lbt. hahah.

saw a couple of students.. tri-sh and desirene screamed from the 1st floor up to the 3rd while i was talking to mor-ris. and i kinda called back b4 i realised wad i had just done. mor-ris was like 0.o haha! too bad too far away cannot talk.. :( but nvm i shud be back for RHD.. YAY!

sec 2s called out to me in the canteen while we were eating our lunch.. omg jiayou te-ri! you're gonna make a very enthusiastic vice-capt! :) go waddle! still rmb the day you stunned me by blocking my way and asking me to 'bao-bao'.. hehehe! so cute!

am-anda chin ran up to me as i was going to the toilet and girl i really missed her!! jiayou too! for tarbet capt! :)

saw vianne as i was walking down the stairs to the foyer and her out of the library.. couldnt catch wad she was saying though she was ecstatic to see me! sometimes i dont feel very teacher-like but more like going back to see friends and stuff like this.. yeah..

there was this sec 4 girl who came up to me and asked me to give her tuition.. of cos she was one of the students i taught la.. not that random as it sounds.. haha.. she looks a little like angela [art club snr] too bad school's starting and im staying hostel.. thing is.. i tot i heard her ask me to tutor her BIO! like HUH! how does she know that i even took bio?! anw yes it kinda made my day to hear someone actually understanding and liking wad i taught. hehe.

so back to slacking. kakuro is fun but only when i have the hints. :(

so yes.. i finally get to drive on the road! :)

was quite fun la.. think fastest speed was like 80km/h.. hehe not bad for someone who was crawling at 40-50 only yesterday.. XD

went to giant tamp in the morning.. there werent many cars so it was alrite.. tried parking for the first time w/o the poles.. not bad.. managed to get myself into the lot.. though had to readjust a few times to get it straight.. hehehe!

after that went home [i drove again!] and followed parents to office so that i can try going up the multistorey.. scary! seriously i dont think the crank course was much use.. so different.. ok maybe for tighter ones you really have to turn like siao like the crank course.. i dunno.. :P we'll see..

and i dont like my feet! omg they seriously cant fit into any pair of closed toe shoes..! ok they fit but then i cant walk. my baby toe [poor thing!] will start to hurt like mad and i think its cos im too used to wearing crocs.. i wear them ALMOST everywhere.. so far the only pair that i can wear would be the URS shoes that i've totally worn out.. guess i just need time to squish my toes tgt and everything will be fine!

my feet are alrite in open-toed. in fact there are quite nice i think. >.< but argh closed toed are badddd!

okies shall go off soon.. probably driving to breakfast again.. hehe and then maybe amk.. :) must practice! now that i've the time and opportunity.. hehehe! jiayou!

i'll post another pic another day cos im too lazy to go down to get my wallet thats in the car where the paper which allows me to drive is rite now.. hehe! so enjoy these two first!

my tester was really nice.. we chatted along the way and that really made me relax.. secondly he cut short my test too! i didnt do vertical parking and i didnt do u-turn too! everything was like really short.. :) even shorter than dani-al's route 5.. i got 7 which wasnt too bad.. u-turn was at the one b4 the macs u-turn.. but he asked me to turn left into st 61 so yay!

just take route 5 and use ur finger to cover up that entire u-turn path and thats my route! :)

yippee!

off to marine parade for breakfast tmr! everyone siam hor! :P kidding. im not THAT bad if not how to pass? ;)

ruth! pam! quick go take ur theories and pass!

tmr is d-day. and d does not stand for death. or whatever d can stand for. hopefully it really does not mean death. haha.

wish me luck! :)

if everything goes well, i'll be let loose soon.. muahahahahahx!

nice? :) jason's famous handmade rose.

talking bout origami, he kept folding the napkins into tortoises!! so cute!

woke up at 12+.. shiok sia.. :) so tired..

oh yes. i started salsa classes. like 0.o. i know i know.. hahahah! was on impulse.. and it just happened that the class started on the day that i happened to be down at the cc.. muahahahx so i guess its was good! but now it means that i would have to come back from hostel every thursday for my lesson at730.. so ok la.. ill just have to either sleep at home and rush down the next day for lessons or rush down after it to go back to hostel.. hahaha.. nvm its just gonna be for 1 mth cos the course ends in early sept.. yupx!!

gacckkss the last time i danced was like sec 2 for aesthetics!! heheheh which was a looonnnng time ago.. 5 yrs.. hmm we will see..

i dont like the new upgraded mozilla! i cant press apostrophe! it ends up with quick find.. arghh this is maddening!!

1. Cold Dish [octopus, jellyfish, cucumber, duck, prawn]
2. Wintermelon with Chicken soup
3. Deep Fried Prawn with Mayonaise
4. Braised Sea Bass with Black Bean Sauce
5. King Mushroom with Seasonal Vegetable
6. Deep Fried Chicken
7. Pineapple rice
8. Mango Pudding with Pomelo

so yes we reached at 7+ and left at 11+.. saw loads of familiar faces but only spoke to liru, jessica, eileen.. yeah.. jason was really nice.. folded rose and bought chocs.. then kept helping me to take the food.. haha.. >.< explaining all the videos and stuff.. yupx.. only thing was that he kept introducing me as 'mickey' though he spells it as miccy.. heheh.. but its cute la just that the look on his friends faces made me have to put things back in order.. :)

overall it wasnt too bad.. rather interesting experience.. yeah.. gosh im damn tired now..

PS. i realised i look damn tired. hahahah!! zonked out.. :P

yay going to kbox later with s13! :)

its gonna be a blast.. i think.. with jy and dr gg too.. >.< sure to BLAST the sound system one.. hahaha!

so school opens tmr.. aww.. good luck everyone.. enjoy the next half a yr.. hehe! while i slack for a while more b4 the marathon of 5 yrs starts..

wanted to blog about something. then i went off to do something else. and now im too sian.

World Without Trees2 by ~banahnah on deviantART

16 July to 14 Sept - Application for EZ Link
20 July - GIRO Application Form
30 Jul to 3 Aug - Freshmen Orientation Camp
1 Aug - SBS Orientation
3 Aug - Freshmen Welcome Ceremony [2.30pm-5pm @ Nanyang Auditorium]
1 Aug to 3 Aug - Matriculate online

i hope thats all there is for now.. din miss out anything.. XD

so its father's day today.. not rather significant apart from the fact that i actually attempted to make a rather successful oreo cheesecake last nite despite the various hiccups.. XD


1) forgot to buy whipped cream
2) poured sugar into container but forgot to take the spoon out first so now the spoon is buried rite at the bottom of the container

that was even before i started baking but i went down to buy the whipped cream and SP later on so that was fine.. then i started.

3) mum said to whisk using hand so yeah i tried to do that.. but cmon i was making a sponge cake.. how airy can the mixture be with hand?!?!!? so yeah the cake was yummy but heavy. who cares.
4) supposed to whisk whipped cream till creamy.. hahahha cos its originally liquid like milk.. tried whisking by HAND. oh god. luckily mum came back in time to find the machine.
5) tot thats the end? nope.. i overwhisked. >.< became watery again though i had some 'cream' left so like heck la just use.. HAHAHAHAH!!
6) unfortunately, it wasnt the end of the whipped cream episode! while i was trying to dish out the whipped cream in my anger.. i accidentally spilled the liquid cream thingie into the cheese as well as onto the table! so worried that it wouldnt set with all that extra liquid. luckily it did.
7) beat cream cheese with a paddle till creamy. hmm mine was creamy. it was kinda lumpy. hahah but it kinda sorted itself out when i added the gelatine and egg yolk mixture.. still lumpy but who can taste it unless you really go feel the texture when you eat.. ;)

so up till now its alr bout 10pm.. then i finished up the cake and popped it into the fridge. oh yes the sponge cake was the base. heheh. had the cake for breakfast. quite nice. hehe next time try something else. and USE THE MACHINE!

so that was yest nite.. went to BTNR with ruth in the morning.. the NP ppl would make it so we walked around, played at the playground, climbed up the steep hill then headed downtown. went to eat carls jnr for the first time [for me la! i know i know..] then saw the spon-gebob roadshow at PS. OMG SPON-GEBOB WAS CHINESE!! and i tot having an an-gmo one was bad enough.. hahaha! ruth took a pic so we shall see!

went down to z-ouk G-E ra-id party.. cosp-layers were really cool and pretty.. btw ruth i think they prob work for F-HM.. hahahaha!! took some pics with us playing with the sword.. nicenice! upload k? :) after that we redeem our free coke and almost died drinking it. not from poisoning la but rather from bloatedness. went back after that. took 5 all the way home while ruth got off at scotts. i really really really slept all the way. damn tired la..

went shopping today at OG. din buy anything. wanted to buy shoes again cos the previous pair hurt a little. stupid right foot a little bigger than left foot. :S so yeah its shoe shopping again.. din have my size unfortunately but i did buy a 1gb micro sd for my phone! :) yayness to that!

ok im tired and this is rather long.. sleeping time!

so yes today has come and gone and its almost time to sleep cos of driving tmr morning at 835..

wanted to clean the house but only ended up mopping the 1st floor and washing a fan.. :( hahaha couldnt wake up early cos kinda stayed up last nite talking to pam! omg i think we were [or rather me!] quite high yest.. and morbid as well..

bananas. popped rice. goreng green beans. death. climbing mountains. dying. motivation.

that was just a random selection of what we talking about. random eh? :P

so yes tmr its gonna be driving.. then i guess i shall wash another fan.. attempt to download photos from my cam if i can rmb.. revamp dad's webbie..

urgent things to do in order of urgency:

1. get feed-back form out to min-is-try
2. send in nt-u forms
3. get my matr-ix no. online and get all those em-ail thingies done

oh yes!! one more thing! finished KH liao! :) yayayayy!

now playing ur ice age.. i dont like the angry creatures! and throwing stones are not fun.. keep pressing wrong buttons!

erm and GE takes damn long to dl! 3gb! omgomgomgomg.. this is madness.... heellpp.. someone dl and burn for me pleeasseeee....

and yes research on palms! :) HHP on sat! then down to zo-uk? yayayayay!

im always feeling high at night and have the impulse to blog but whenever i come to this page i feel sian. maybe cos its too troublesome to have to verbalise/pen down my thoughts instead of just thinking through them? or whenever i come here i suddenly feel like i've nothing much to talk about?

anyway.. its been 2 weeks since i've slacked.. and ive not accomplished much.. apart from trying to complete those driving lessons.. i've just watched more movies on dvd and finally baked muffins! haha was trying to bake something with ingredients i already have at home so i found this rather interesting recipe which i alr wondered if i would taste good.. but since i kinda had the ingredients i just gave it a shot. din turn out too bad. at least it was edible. hehhe! and moist.. just not sweet enough and i think there was just too much cheese.

ok so wad did i bake?

apple cheddar muffins. savoury and sweet. erm supposed to be. guess it turned out savoury but not sweet. hehehe!

so the next time im gonna make sth like this.. i think im gonna make apple cinnamon muffins/bread if possible.. though i think bread would be more interesting.. hehehe! cos if im gonna first stew/caramalise the apples with cinnamon i think bread would be more feasible..

supposed to try making strawberry marshmallow cake tmr but then if driving at 1245 so i wouldn be in time for it.. prob wednesday? but i think i MIGHT go back to rg on wed to finish marking those projects.. so now left with asking lbt if he's free on that day.. ok just msged him so i'll see wads his reply.

so if we're going to HK let's go after the 6th! cos my driving test is on the 6th so i can only go after that.. :) i realised how hard it is to organise a BIG group of people cos no one can confirm. guess someone shall have to take charge of this event.. hehehe! guess for now if jessie's gg, the two of us will be the free-est.. let's head to HK!

*edit: ok he's not free and so i shall just go back and mark it all by myself.. faster and more efficient! YAY! :)

brian nguyen u are so gonna keep wad i told you to yourself!!

actually wads the big deal.. :P might as well say it myself so that it wouldnt seem like an enormous issue.. heheh!

sooo here it goes.

i think im gg to ocs din-ner. so weird rite? must be wondering with whom.

ja-son yeo.

my minnie mouse! :)

so yeah mickey and minnie would be gg for dinner tgt! hahahahhahaha!

i dont understand why is it a must to bring a girl along? and sisters arent allowed but cousins are rite? not that they will check..

i bet i'll see loads of ppl i know.. all the gfs of those rj ppl.. guess its gonna be a 'reunion' dinner.. hopefully wouldnt see ppl i dont wanna see.. hahahah!

well shall just wait for him to find out more so i shall just wait and see..

well so im sick. didnt start off as normal as it would. hmm.

wad normally happens is this.

1) throat hurts
2) cough
3) runny nose

wad happened this time.

1) body ache
2) fever [at nite only mind you]
3) no appetite
4) dehydrated [a little]
5) throat hurts

if you look at points 1-4, its really like dengue just that it didnt feel like before!

hahahah and now my throat REALLY REALLY hurts. still no appetite but i guess its getting better..

so what have i been up to? sleep sleep and more sleep. haha wad a life.

went out on sat with tyg to aussie fair and library. saw g-oh LK at library and mar-yann as well as ja-son wo-ng too.. hahah! btw ja-son is gg to Duke to do econs under PU-B sship! smartypants.. hahaha! so yeahh sat morn/afternoon was spent like that.

and wads new. tyg was late as usual. this time round, almost 45 min late. cos he overslept. RITE. though i alr wanted to bet with him the day b4 when we were on the phone. HAHAHAH.

sunday was erm starting to fall sick alr so i didnt do much apart from visiting my greatgranny at cgh and then falling asleep rite after that.

monday was just movie marathon in my dad's office. watched taxi, a cinderella's story and something else. argh my memory! :S

went for driving today after almost 5 mth!! haha im so glad im still not as rusty as i tot i would be! :) so yeah i have technically covered all that i need to cover for now. left with the reviews and stuff. hehe!

ok so how do you do parallel parking? this is more for my info than for you to understand. :P

1) position car where curb is almost 1/3 - 1/2 of the bonnet
2) slowly reverse [look out for cars sharing the course!] until the pole in the outer front corner aka pole A touches the third demister line from the top. FULL LOCK LEFT.
3) continue reversing until the base of the back inner pole almost appears in the right mirror and then STRAIGHTEN WHEELS.
4) reverse summore until pole A clears the left mirror and is slowly aligned with the first dot on the wiper. :) the dots depend on the allowance required by the distance from the mirror. use the BIG hole in the wiper if pole is really close to mirror. FULL LOCK RIGHT
5) reverse until u see 1.5 black markers.
6) move forward and adjust the car, making sure its in the middle of the lot and IN the lots by looking at pole B. pole B shouldnt be seen outside the car from the left mirror.


YAY. now we're in the lot. lets get out.


1) inch forward until you see only 3 black markers.
2) put to reverse and FULL LOCK LEFT until you see 1.5 black markers.
3) signal right and then look out for traffic!
4) slowly inch forward and FULL LOCK RIGHT quickly!
5) clear front poles then return and move off.


whee~!

thats parallel parking for you.

PS. if you noticed, not all parallel parking lots are on the left. so wad do you do if they are on the right? apparently, you just do the reverese. HMM. thats the answer i got when i asked. really?

alrite for all my sec 3 students who are reading my blog. wad im gonna say next is gonna be uber impt so listen up!


your next SA in T3W2 is probably testing EVERYTHING EXCEPT STATS UP TILL EXPONENTIAL B4 COORDINATE GEOMETRY. IE INCLUDING GRAPHS AND THE PROBLEMS SUMS.

yes so now i've made the annoucement, go publicise to your classmates!! quick go!

rite its 12.28 and im going to sleep. haha. this is a random post.

do i think you irritating?

not really. sometimes. but im used to it.

i wonder what made you ask me that question.

interesting. must have been bugging you all night since you were supposed to be sleeping when you msged at bout 12.

hmm.

ONE- Spell your name without vowels: Mchll Nh
TWO - Are you single? Yepx!
THREE - Whats your favorite number? 17
FOUR - What color do you wear most? YELLOW!!
FIVE - Least favorite color?: erm brown?
SIX - What are you listening to? Journey - Angela Zhang Shao Han
SEVEN - What do you smoke? billowing smoke cos its too hot! :)
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now? alrite with it.
NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity? yeah but i dont really think so. maybe when i do think so i'll tell you who.
TEN - What is your favorite class in school? Bio!
ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/abercrombie/AE? ive got A/F but its from FOS. HAHA!
TWELVE - How do you make money? work my ass off
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend? ruth! pam!
FOURTEEN - Are you outgoing? Sometimes.
FIFTEEN - One word to describe you? funky!
SIXTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes? Jimmy Choo! when i earn enough to own them.
SEVENTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses? yupyupx!
EIGHTEEN - Where do you wish you were right now? europe
NINETEEN - What should you be doing right now? sleeping
TWENTY- Do you have a crush on anyone right now? Yeah kinda. haha.

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: Yes
Can you dance? Not really. ddr yes.
Can you do a cart wheel? nope.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: depends on the length of that stem/stalk thing.
Can you touch your toes?: Yes
Can you whistle?: used to.
Can you wiggle your ears?: no
Can you wiggle your nose?: wiggle?! twitch la! haha!
Can you roll your tongue?: Yes

THE DIDS:
Did you ever get into a fist fight at school?: Nope
Did you ever run away from home?: Nope
Did you ever want to be a doctor?: tell me bout it.
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: too hot. fire cant be put out with me there. jkjk.

THE DOS:
Do you believe in God?: Yes
Do you know how to swim?: Yeah
Do you like roller coasters?: yupx!
Do you own a bike?: eh no. not mine. bro's.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? durian yes! HAHA!

THE DOES:
Does hair loss run through your family? alternate generations.
Does your car get good gas mileage?: dad's yes.
Does your family have family picnics?: bbq. picnics no. rarely.

THE HOWS:
How did you find out about Friendster?: frenz
How many Friendster friends have you met in person?: Most of them.
How tall are you?: 1.63
How much money do you have on you right now?: $100+

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with? ami monic pq hw brian nguyen jy yf
Last thing you said out loud? cant rmb
Last thing someone said to you?: cant rmb

THE WHATS:
What are you listening to?: din u alr ask this?
What is the temperature outside? 26? dunno.
What radio station do you listen to?: class 95.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: jumbo
What was the last thing you bought?: shoes?
What was the last thing you had to drink?: water
What was the last thing on TV you watched: Keith Barry: CSS
THE WHOS:
Who is your newest friend that added you on Friendster?: Peitong
Who was the last person you MSNed: heidi!
Who talked to you on the phone last?: yong guan
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: ami!
Who was the last person to leave you a comment?: jessie
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: dessie poon.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? Yeah
Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yeah
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? nope
Ever cried over the opposite sex? Yeah
Do you cry when you get an injury? No.
Do certain songs make you cry? Yeah
Do certain movies make you cry? Yeah

HAPPY SECTION:
Are you a happy person? Most times.
What can make you happy? lame jokes/retarded moments
Do you wish you were happier? Yeah
Is being happy overrated? No
Can music make you happy? Yes.

HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?: dont think so.
Ever made a hit list? haha no la. can count using fingers dont need list.
Have you ever been on a hit list? probably! hahah!
Are you a mean bully? *angelic look*

SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low? nah.
Do you believe in yourself? Most times
Are you good looking? im alrite la.
Do you wish you could be someone else? Sometimes.

LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color? brown with blonde highlights
Current piercings? 2
Have any tattoos? no
Straight hair or curly: Straight.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Hugged someone? Yeah duh hah
Been on the phone until the sun came up? almost.
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? 0.o not that i cant rmb!! HAHA!
Laughed so hard you cried? Yes
Got in a fight with someone? Yes. rmb throwing sth at au-dris back in sec 1 during chi class. whoops

RANDOM.
Do you like surveys? When I'm extremely extremely bored.
Do you get along with your parents? depends. alrite most of the times.
Do you have mental breakdowns? No
Did you ever tell your parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school? Yes.

CURRENT:
Current mood: bored
Current music: slow.
Current hair style: spikey!
Current crush: hahaha. *zip*
Current thing I ought to be doing: SLEEPING.
Current windows open: live messenger. heidi. firefox.
Current desktop picture? river cam. its beautiful!

m.o.e. keeps bugging me!! nooooo i dont like it! everytime i see the no that starts with 6.8.9.7.... im like arghhh.. nooo.. nvm i'll call them tmr.. :(

went swimming yest and today.. yay! rite. time to embrace that sports for life thing. HAHAH. mum wants to go walk tmr morning.. but swimming is better! we'll see how la.. couldnt wake up this morn cos was crapping till quite late last nite..

so tmr's the last day of release of results. we'll just wait and see.

im rather random today. help. i need my sleep!!

PS. i think some of the contestants who went for the C.S.S. really cmi lehz.

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRESENTS, FOOD, CARDS, LETTERS, BOARDS/NOTES ETC!

I MISS YOU ALL!

:(

BUT I'LL BE BACK SOON..! WATCH OUT FOR ME COS I'M COMING BACK!

:)

i think. at least for tcher's day if i can make it. HEE!

today was really fun! love you guys! thanx for almost killing me btw. HAHAH!

so i had my last lesson with 305 and 206. too bad i couldnt play with 206 like i wanted to as i had to finish up the blasted ws. but 305's lesson. wait wad lesson? hahah! had a mini class party then we took pics but my phone lags so those photos were blur though the ones i took with 206 were clear!

tmr's the last lesson with 303. once again, wad lesson?!

lbt is coming tmr morn so i'll have to tell him wad to expect though seriously i dont think there's much cos i kinda finished up everything that needs to be done this term. :)

dessie poon is mad i tell u! aiyoh tmr she's gonna get it from me la! hahaha! though im kinda overreacting cos it was so awkward! 0.o crazy! haha but still i love her all the same! rock on girl!

stayed back today to finish up comments and to help lpl with his attendance n checking of his comments. seriously i hope there arent any mistakes in mine! *crosses fingers* oh well wad can i do anw. its too late liao. muahahahx! i have left my mark on 105 student's result slip. *evil laughter* dont worry. the comments are mostly constructive and good. unless of cos u're really baddd then i tried to use euphemism to the best of my ability so i hope you can get the hint.!

great its 1215. really its time to sleep! long day tmr! set up for open hse! whee~! earned a lot this week with all the staying back!

PS. Pirates opened today! still rmb watching the previous one with tyg after bio s. :) so nice of him to stay back and wait for me to end! rmb leaving halfway through cos really had to go or else we will miss the show! man its been less than 1 yr and the new show is out!!! haha 206 asked me to watch with them!

PSS. some of the 305 ppl asked me to go kbox with them.

PSSS. we shall go ice skating next friday! :)

these two days have been painful. so will tmr and the day after and the days up till i get it.

the agony. the disappointment. the despair. everything just came crashing.

ok maybe it isnt that serious. i dunno. its kinda hard to put it down in words but those whom i've moped to will definitely understand. just wanna say thanx for being there and trying to make me feel better.

didnt think i would cry. but i really just broke down after i received beat-rice's sms. the ecstacy and the euphoria came through the msg. suddenly i felt like i was alone in this horrible world.

luckily tyg was online yest. thanx for trying to cheer me up. u made me feel myself again. u gave me the confidence to do my best once more. even though you can be a pain sometimes but i think u're still rather special. i think i made you feel rather helpless today with my msgs. but i cant help it. thoughts just ran wild once more. i just felt like at least there was someone who was kinda in the same boat.

and ruth! thanx for trying to comfort me today! yeah though i said that i dont really care but i guess i kinda lied. i do care bout it but really. come wad may. :) so what if the worst happens? i'll just do my best elsewhere! i'll make them regret it! muahahahx!

jem! though i've treated you really bad at times, im really sorry for it. thanx for still being there for me. thanx for believing in me even when i couldnt see the best in myself. thanx for trying your bestest best to make me feel much much much better! things have been rough for us and these two yrs have been quite :S with all the things ive done but ive never regretted knowing you. really. :)

brian! yeahh the classmate i speak to the most online. thanx for everything! the nonsense, the moping, the complaining, the gossips etc. yeah. go be ur teacher and excel k! :)

guess if i leave sg, i'll miss all of you. i'll miss the friends, the good friends, the best friends, the family [though i cant connect], the relatives [some la]. but then i'll be a girl on a mission. a girl soldiering on in pursuit of my goal. rite now im still fighting my own wars. one with my emotions, the other with mum. wth. she aint helping me. though i understand her anxiety but shouldnt she understand me too?

i dont wanna stay at home tmr. i dont want to be disturbed. leave me alone. i just want to go out with someone who will just remain quiet/do their own things and just be there. while i mark my PTs. great. wonder who will be so nice. hah. wait long long.

heck la. im prepared for the worst in everything.

and its only 1 more week of work. not sure how i'll feel on friday.

haiz. i wonder if i did the right thing in telling them if they passed or failed.

some were relieved. some were disappointed. but i felt quite horrible after that.

especially when those who held hopes of passing were told they failed.

but like what kenneth was saying. he wished them to get what they deserved.

thinking back, i guess this test really gave them the marks they deserved for the effort they put in. really.

its like those students who put in the extra effort to understand and clarify did well while those who slacked around, played a fool, slept and din do much to help themselves failed. of cos there are a few who shud have passed but failed but it might have been due to carelessness. need to look through the papers to verify this.

maybe this test can act as a wake up call. its quite true i guess. when u realise that the effort you're putting in really isnt enough to even guarantee you a pass, its time u wake up from that little dream of yours. rgs doesnt guarantee you a safe spot in rjc. the teachers can recommend against you going.

but seriously im quite proud of some students. :) u people really make my day. makes me feel like the effort i put in is worth it. i know some people are like hoping that i'll leave asap [har! me too! no more stress!] because they think that the new teacher would be better. maybe. he's better qualified but hopefully u can connect with him. i cant. sry. at least not at this moment/today when i saw him again.

so yeah tmr we'll see tears. both of joy and happiness. guess i'll just sit there and take it all in and feel sorry for those who tried but didnt make it. tried but tried too late. but just rmb that if you try, you will make it someday. some people take the express train while others walk but sooner or later u'll all reach the same destination. some people take detours and take even longer but yeah u'll make it. as long as u dont fall asleep along the way. if not u'll never make it there.

rmb back in rgs. i was never that bright kid. kinda slacked my life away doing nth apart from sleeping in class. guess i paid my price for it. but i rmb trying really hard to do well for physics b4 Os. mugged my ass off for it and got a decent grade i think. nv had luck with physics. went to jc and took physics AGAIN. -groans- struggled like mad after first three months. last in class. climbed my way up painfully. there were days when i felt like giving up but mr chow's understanding and care [though not ur usual type] made me perservere on. there were teachers that i didnt really like but their indifference to me made me want to prove to them more.

i think studying requires motivation. not motivation from rewards cos it wears off after a while. it comes from within. the want to prove your worth. the need to reassure yourself. the exhilaration when you achieve your goals. the pride that consumes you. its this self-motivation that will go a long way.

when u feel weary and tired and feel as if this is going nowhere. take a break. close your eyes and imagine yourself achieving success. the sounds. the sights. the action. make it as realistic as possible and relive it everytime you feel down. this is the key to success.

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well well i have marked bout 10 classes of sec 2s alr! :) overall not bad i guess.. though some had got serious misconceptions with regards to indices.. some give me horrible stuff and thus i cannot give them the ecf mark.. aww.. seriously.. even if u make a slight mistake that doesnt compromise the integrity of the qn or do something that totally shows ur confusion.. u can still get like 3 outta 4 la! 0.o

there was one script with nonsense writing all over. damn emo. suicidal. oh well. think they're gonna show it to her parents but that kid has something gg on too.. :S

anw.. sec 3s.. i think even the geppers are gonna fail.. me-ek li-n marked two gep classes and there were scoring avg marks of 0-3 for 10 marks.. :S but if u paid attn in class u shud be able to do those!! hahaha.. seriously i think this paper is tedious.. and time's prob the problem but if given ample time i think its manageable..

oh well so they found teacher x. :( its gonna be l-im boo-on ta-t.. dunno i found him a little haolian.. saw him once and totally made a fool outta myself cos dia-na didnt give me clear instructions of wad to do back then.. haha was the first interview i handled! but its alrite he prob cant recognise me with my new look.. :P im gonna miss all of them! despite the ups and downs of it.. seriously now i know why they say that teaching is rewarding.. its the kids who remember you later on that makes ur day.. and after all that you dont rmb the shit but the times you spent tgt.. :(

so its just gonna be the last two weeks tgt. hai.

and it has to be spent on teaching log/exp graphs and coordinate geometry! and fractional indices and indical eqns for sec 2s.. bah.

brace myself for monday and next wk! cos lbt might sit in for the lessons to get a hang of the class etc.. hahah! hope he doesnt die of a heart attack when he finds out he's getting a humanities class.. :P

and my snr said that if the timings like last yr.. med postings shud be out by next wk! quick quick i wanna know NOW NOW NOW!

The Alphabet Friend - from heidi. :)

1. Name out once of each friends with names starting with A to Z.

[a]mi
[b]enjamin
[c]hristie
[d]avid
[e]e chien
[f]elicia
[g]enesis
[h]owan
[i]van
[j]essie
[k]ahei
[l]iru
[m]onic
[n]icole
[o]phelia
[p]am
[q]iaoyun
[r]uth
[s]erene
[t]trixia
[u]may
[v]ivien
[w]ei leang
[x]inyuan
[y]ong guan
[z]hong yi

rite. i actually found frenz for i and o!

2. How many siblings A has? Name them. aki aya
3. What does B SMS you about? rubbish. :P
4. What is C's nickname? chicken? cant rmb. :)
5. How did you get to know D? math olympiad trg back in p6.
6. How despo is E? 0.o i dunno. but he's friggin rich. from acsi transfered to SAS. :P
7. How much older/younger is F than you? months?
8. Name 3 of G's best friends. err he has?! muahahahx!
9. Does H knows I? nope.
10. What happens if J suddenly turns into your enemy? hmm. not sure?
11. Under what condition will K & L gets married? when they're both les and are in las vegas.
12. How many people do you know with M's name? one!
13. Do you enjoy talking on the phone with N? rarely do.
14. Do you think O knows P? probably. hah same school.
15. How geeky is Q? nah not very. but she's nice! :)
16. Is R very popular? yay ruthie! sure she is! =)
18. Is T a very random person? cant rmb
19. How are U & V related? not related.
20. Do you take W as anything else other than a friend? nope. maybe friend's brother. HAH.
21. When is the last time u met up with X? longggg ago. at tuition.
22. Are Y & Z enemies? nope.
23. Of A to Z, which one do u love the most and will give <3s? err. :)
24. Will you betray any of them? dont think so. maybe just one. HAHA.
25. Have u loved and confessed to any one in A to Z? hmm not outrightly.
26. Have you tagged A to Z informing them that they have to take this quiz too? they do?! WHO SAYS! hehe. ok maybe i shall just tag a few. but on second thought. just do it if u want :)

so i went out the whole day today. :)

went to vivo crystal jade for granny's bdae lunch! apparently the bill was 900+.. not fantastic either.. really i think it was quite a waste of money. food's so-so nth fantastic.. then we had goodwood park durian cake! yum! hehe that was really nice.. though they said the puffs are better.. nonetheless i ate two slices!

wanted to buy a pair of boots but it costs 219.. :( the one on offer didnt haf heels and it wasnt as nice.. but my aunt bought it so i can always share with her.. it was the last pair!! size 37! hehe.. it was 129 btw..

so after that mum and i went to orchard to look at those shoes again.. cos mum insists that there should be a better bargain somewhere else other than the boutique. hehe so we went to OG first. mum wanted to buy a pair but as usual she didnt. i ended up buying a pair of sunglasses. :) now i look poser? MUAHAHAHX! went over to centrepoint.. then taka to look at the shoes.. din haf.. so we went to kino to look at beading books.. wahlau damn ex! ok maybe thats the avg price but 40+ is a bit too much for beginner books.. decided to check out the prices at the bead stores first.. :) so as we went over to wisma.. we stopped by the face shop and as expected i bought stuff.. muahahahax..

why am i not surprised that i always end up buying stuff when im out shopping with my mum? previous time was the wallet. now the glasses and stuff. HAHA.

tmr's gonna be the test day! i mean for my hair that is. i feel like wearing a cap to school first. hehe. cos its gonna be a HEADTURNER at the busstop. which means i can only gel my hair in school. well we'll see how it goes tmr. :S

now i dont dare to go to school on monday. its freaking red! trust me. its supposed to be spikey too. hahaha! totally dont look like me liao. dad says i look like an ah lian. -.- hahaha!! rite now for spm. i wonder how the parents will react. ouch. but i like it. yes i do. :P

but then again nvm cos by the time spm comes its only 2 more days of work! so even if they wanna fire me its alrite cos im gone alr. hehe.

and im so sorry ruth! i knew there was sth on today but i couldnt rmb! was asking my mum yest wad are we doing tmr aka today. then she was like nth la. whoops! so i happily tot there was nth until i received ur call! okok i promise we'll go for OpNR!! :)

well well well.. its friday again!! :) i love the weekends though i think they come and go really quickly..

this week has been madness for me.. monday i managed to finished the syllabus and i think the entire topic was done at like RA speed or sth.. really rushed.. hopefully they can understand after the remedial.. :S

tues was spent rushing out assignments and FA and marking PTs.. bz bz..

wed and thurs had staff mtg and stayed back on thurs to mark PT though i actually fell asleep after school! gosh i think my seat makes me sleepy at times.. then out comes the handy dand ipod!

fri had invigilation and remedial.. plz remind me to pay me-ek l-in 3.95 for the turkey ham sub plz! :) gosh im bushed. but today went well i think. YAY YAY! =D

yay its a holiday! but its ending soon.. :(

happy bdae david!

ok shall continue with my PT markings.. zzz.. its hard to grade!!

trying to come up with ways to make revision fun tmr.. heeelpp.. ideas anyone?

yay!!

i got moe local sship. :) well at least im kinda a scholar for now until i see if im gonna take it up.. HAHAH!

and i got into ntu biomed/tcm! so at least i know ive a place in singapore.

looks like im gonna hafta reject imperial. :( noooo...

now just left with dent interview! jiayou!

mdt was fun actually but it was rather tiring.. fingers ache now.. scrape scrape scrape.. haha!

well well well.. its 2 days to submission day. cheong ar!

17 go vj to collect things/finish up essay
19 med portfolio due
22 med essay and psychometric test
23 med interview
25 dentistry dexterity test
27 dentistry interview

bleah! i dont like this! but ruth's got it worse!

yay tts my office table in its rather neat state. normally u cannot see the table but i decided to be a good girl and pack my table cos ruth will be doing RT and even though she might not use the table but at least i feel better giving her a neat table to sit/look at.. :) see im so considerate! HAHAH!

moe interview today. interesting i should say. shall just wait for the outcome now. haha.

nth much happened this wk apart from the interview i should say.

oh n i want the NUS letter! where is it!

my to-do list

1. get mr chua to write referal for me. but actually can just use the testimonial rite? since its jc too..
   
2. write my personal essay
3. send to nus if shortlisted
   
4. send the stuff to melbourne.
5. mark wadeva i brought home
6. brainstorm on objectives for the yee thing. :S
   

bleah. i dont like this rush. im such a procrastinator as u can see.

You Are a Ring Finger

You are romantic, expressive, and hopeful. You see the best in everything. You are very artistic, and you see the world as your canvas. You are also drawn to the written word. Inventive and unique, you are often away in your own inner world. You get along well with: The Pinky Stay away from: The Index Finger

What Finger Are You?

check out my personal profile. i sound quite depressed now. :S

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this 'complex' by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.

check out ur own here!

200th post! :)

its monday again. :(

i bought a new phone. :)

mum's angry cos i kinda koped her phone. :(

check out the smileys.

im feeling pissed. helpless. angry. anything that fits that kinda feeling.

this is going to be a mopey post.

dunno. sometimes i feel like im being stretched to fullest and anymore requests from them i think i will break. the expectations, the feedback, the everything about it. everytime i walk in i feel stressed facing everyone. most are nice. some are alrite. some give me the i-dont-care look. and it makes me feel like giving them the i-dont-care-either look. if they arent helping themselves, there's not much i can do for you too.

mfdisngwinglkrngks!

its different being on different sides of the table. i miss being on the other side now. no worries. just listen and absorb. i feel squeezed now. best part is when i ask if anyone does not understand, no one raises their hands. wow if you all want personal attn, at least raise your freaking heavy hand? im not telepathic u know? the people arnd u might be able to help you if they understand and get the correct answer but if those around you are like cmi oso, please dont ask them! u'll confuse them and it makes life worse.

dont care if my students will ever read this post. if they can find my blog in the first place. well if they do please tell ur wonderful classmates what im feeling. its not easy ok. u've gotta understand that im already trying my best so i expect the minimum from you all too. if you arent going to put in the effort, i dont see why i should help you too. rite? it has to work from both sides.

and i really appreciate those who are trying their best to help themselves! :) love you guys! at least this way i wont feel so tired cos i know that im not helping people who arent even helping themselves.

but then again its some of these people who rant on and on and dont do anything.

im so not gg for SPM. seriously. bet their oh-so-concerned mothers would be waiting to kill me. HAH. neh neh. complain only if u've raised the issue with me and i've not done anything bout it ok. dont just blabber on and on cos i've asked you for your opinions and no one said anything either.

alrite. tmr i think i'll just take up 5 min to get things clear. feeling ARGH now. i need to sleep and calm down.

i just bought a wallet.

braun buffel.

106 bucks.

from my own money.

ouch.

BUT I LOVE IT! :) hehe i'll treasure it more cos it came outta my own pocket.. :( so tts 1.5days work.!

tmr's a killer day. 3 teaching blocks in a row. argh help. then there's CLE later on too. hopefully its sth i woulnt need to say much cos i prob wouldn have a voice alr. :S

rite i think its class mtg. oh well. lets talk about the noise level.

Two 90 year old men, Mike and Joe, have been friends all of their lives. When it's clear that Joe is dying, Mike visits him every day.

One day Mike says, "Joe, we both loved football all our lives and we played minor league football together for so many years. Please do me one favour; when you get to Heaven, somehow, you must let me know if there's football there."

Joe looks up at Mike from his death bed," Mike, you've been my best friend for many years. If it's at all possible, I'll do this favour for you." Shortly after that, Joe passes on.

At midnight a couple of nights later, Mike is awakened from a sound sleep by a blinding flash of white light and a voice calling out to him:"Mike, Mike."

"Who is it, asks Mike sitting up suddenly. "Who is it?"

"Mike, it's me, Joe."

"You're not Joe. Joe just died."

"I'm telling you, it's me, Joe," insists the voice.

"Joe! Where are you?"

"In heaven", replies Joe. "I have some really good news and a little bad news."

"Tell me the good news first," says Mike.

"The good news," Joe says," is that there's football in heaven. Better yet, all of our old friends who died before us are here, too. Better than that, we're all young again. Better still, it's always springtime and it never rains or snows. And best of all, we can play football all we want and we never get tired."

"That's fantastic," says Mike. "It's beyond my wildest dreams! So what's the bad news?

"You're playing Tuesday."

was just sleeping bout 10 min ago when i got a call from MOE.

now i think i'll need to get someone to relief me on friday the 13th.

and its music fest tt day btw!

my hand aches after ironing my clothes!

now waiting for the water to heat up so i can go bathe. haha.

been bz with the YEE proposal.. hopefully it works! look out for it in aug if its successful.. :)

was really tired today! was kinda stoned during sec 2 prep today. argh. luckily it was only a short one. hah! so i stayed back in skool till 530 cos i was too lazy to go home by myself so i waited for my mum to come pick me up.

went to ri to wait for bro but he ended really late so we waited really long.. like 1 h.. wth.. was entertaining myself by watching the bballers play. their coach is quite cute. HAH. my mum thinks so too. :) ANW.. fell asleep after a while cos i was sooo tired. i need to bring a pillow to skool.

brian n. just told me that there's this article bout the poly student's chopping board. haven seen the article but they said the compartments seem similar to ours!! HMPH. oh well. shall go to skool and see it tmr! hahaha. anyone saw it too?

alrite so __ has sent me another shocker.

a message with a serious tone.

an apology message with a serious tone.

how to reply?

oh well.

who do you think you are to walk in and out as and when you like?

should i accept your apology? you sound sincere. but i know somehow you havent changed much.

Last friend you:
1)Saw: Jason P
2) Talked to on the phone: Jason P
3) Instant Messaged:TYG
4. Text messaged:Danial
5. Ate with: s13

Today:
1)I'm: feeling sian cos of the revised marking scheme!
2)Wearing:Shorts,victorian's day shirt
3)Ten Hours Ago: in skool trying to get the kids to do their forum
4)Dislike about tomorrow: gotta go for that ntu talk bleah
Favorite:
1)Number(s):5,17
2) Movie: a lot la

Currently:
1)Are you missing someone right now: not really
2) Mood: nothing? neutral?
3)Want:to go star gazing

Question&Answer:

Q: First thing you did this morning?
A: sat up on my bed

Q: Favorite quote?
A: "the middle class buys liabilities they think are assets"

Q: What's bothering you right now?
A: teaching come monday

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: makeshift chinatown food centre

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: Brother lor

Q: Do you smile often?
A: ok la

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: sometimes :)

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Yes,I should suppose so

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: Red white

Q: What were you doing at 12 last
night?
A: chatting with TYG

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: on sunday!

Q: Do you get angry easily?
A: not really. tend to be indifferent which i think is really bad!

Q: Take any vitamins?
A: only when i rmb to

Q: What are you about to do?
A: answer this qn?

Q: Did you ever check your phone waiting for someone to call?
A: ya cos that person said he'll call? ended up i call.. haha! i think tt was rather amusing

Q: Rate life as of right now... 0-10?
A: 7? hopefully will go up to 8 or 9 in the next few mths! :)

so its thursday.. this week has gone by really quickly.. LJW is almost over which means that its back to the same routine teaching schedule again.. :( i think im gonna die teaching log and quadratic after functions.. at least i think tts the schedule.. if they cannot do surds how to do log etc?! someone save me.. i really need a miracle here..

so we've started talking again after a lull of 4 mths? wow tts a long long time.. but then i think at the end of the day things wont turn out the way the way it could have been.. haha can be very tiring though i get spurred on to do things at times.. cos __'s better than me so i guess i feel motivated? muahahahax.. sometimes must really thank __ for knocking me outta my delusion and stop me from wallowing in despair.. can be so direct it hurts but guess i need it at times..

so work starts at 1 tmr.. which means i can sleep in! hopefully i didnt read the schedule wrongly or else very paiseh if kena called up in the morn to be told that im on duty! whoops.. :S haha but dun think so la.. cos sec 2 fo-rum is in the afternoon..

oh n i just spent 35 bucks on retractable earphones.. damn n i din even intend to buy it.. mum said "why dont u buy one.. if not u haf to keep winding.." haha but then its mum's money for now.. cos i told her tt she told me to buy.. i din want to buy.. :)

oh n i got like 700 bucks for getting my A level grades from my grandma + aunt.. thats like 2x my angbao money! best part was they gave me when we went down to celebrate bro's bdae.. so my angbao was bigger than his! muahahax!!

oh yes did i mention my business is growing? i've like 10+ ppl below me! yay!! and i think im gonna invest money too.. we'll see how things go.. :) its gonna be US$1000 for now..

reading rich dad poor dad now.. and i think i wanna be rich enough with passive income coming in so that i can retire b4 the age of 30! actually my aim was 25 but then i think i shall tell ppl 30 cos 25 would seem ridiculous to ppl..

jiayou! aim to retire in 6 more years!!!!!!

so its another update after a week..

i guess things are looking up a little.. :)

finally applied for nus so now just looking at wad to apply at ntu.. wait n see i guess..

reliefed at scgc pri yest.. quite different from rgs..

1) u can HEAR the national anthem being sung
2) they are very playful

went to NEWater today.. interesting.. felt quite proud to be singaporean really.. haha like all our technology and stuff.. hmm :)

gg to kusu island tmr! i heard its quite fun.. just hope i dont puke on the junk! muahahahx.. -crosses fingers-

been really bz this week.. still haven finished marking sec 2 SA cos im too lazy.. whoops.. i mean busy.. :P seem to be sleep deprived.. arghh..

well well so i guess now im like stoning away chatting with my student getting feedback and stuff.. haha do i really enjoy teaching? guess i'll only know after 1 more term.. hahaha..

got a really weird phone call just now from **.. hahha but it was rather amusing.. like hello u just called to remind me im on duty tmr? :) haha so funny! but yeah quite touched la.. haha summore my name is not on the same sheet as ** so i wonder how ** found out im on duty.. prob checked inet la.. haha!

i just realised how detached i am from the outside world.

just a floating soul without any attachment anywhere.

hah. guess it makes it easy for me to uproot and move elsewhere since i dont think i'll miss much here anyway.

today mum asked me "u're not close to your frenz one hor?"

glad you realised.

im alrite with everyone but i dont think im exceptionally close to anyone. like even if the entire world around me got wiped off i probably can still survive rather well.

so much for the cliche no man's an island.

thats true. just that the only other things on my island are probably just some passing seagulls that happen to land once in a while. migratory birds too. people who pop in and out of my life ever so periodically.

maybe its just cos i dont really have much in common with the others. i mean i dont fancy shopping a lot unless i suddenly have that impulse to. and then i will unleash hell upon the world. neither do i like talking on the phone. so that leaves me with sms and msn. the last person i spoke to on the phone apart from family is pialeong. then as far as i can rmb it would be enos. and that was quite a long time ago. oh wait i think ruth was in between but that was for marks.

so yeah that goes to show how colourful a social life i have.

no wonder i love the tv.

my only thing im really close too would be my bed and soft toys. really. i think they are my lovers. :)

lets see. do i talk to shps ppl? not really. rgs? rarely. vjc? sometimes. others? sometimes.

guess the only constant person who pops in regularly would be brian nguyen. HAH.

its only been 3 mths. what would it be like in 3 yrs? 30 yrs?

only gods knows.

feeling isolated now. really badly. just need someone but there's no one out there. except my bright yellow bolster. just gonna hug him to sleep i guess.

maybe someday i will change. somehow i will talk to people more.

what a loser.

dammit im really really sick..

been coughing for the past 2 weeks plus a sorethroat prob from the non-stop coughing and fever.. arghh..

thanx to all who helped me to relief my classes!!! got mc for today too so xi-anwen is helping me to take over the entire day.. thank god che-wml is back today so that xi-anwen can take my entire day..

and cos im sick it means i cannot go to st james with the others!! bleahhhh how cool izzit tt the maths teachers are gg clubbing..! hahaha oh well hopefully they will go again soon and by then i am well! :) muahahahax..

so now im stuck with the secthree pts plans to assess.. i dont like pt.. hmph its so confusing..

anw i better be better by monday if not i cannot go bring the art club ppl out..! and then shun bian bring home all the SAs to mark.. kabish..

my holidays are goneee.. btw did i mention tt i feel harrassed by the NE-A ppl? i mean i know i still haven submitted my form by calling me up everyday doesnt make me feel up faster in my state! horrid.

yay yay yay!

AAAA B3 Merit

whee~!!

so its wednesday!!

carn wait for friday.. a bit the impatient liao la.. :P though i think the minutes b4 getting my results would be heart stopping.. haha.. back to the o level results day again i guess.. :S

tmr's a slack day.. invigilating 3 SAs.. 2 maths 1 history for chri-stl.. then only teach twosix.. yeahh so i can finally try to preserve my voice.. so thurs will be over really really quickly..!

mrs b-an sat in today.. i think she finally realises how many questions they ask.. hahah! yeah its really beyond ur imagination.. the qns are like non-stop n from the start to the end.. even dragged until their form teacher came in for CLE!!! felt a bit bad to take up his time but the class was like "nvm nvm its cle!!" -.- haha how wonderful.

n i just confirmed with my students tt lpl has like a legion of girls with a crush on him! muahahahx!! tts quite amusing in my opinion.. :P but yalar he's quite nice i guess..

shall go watch my angels of mission now!

its sunday!! im feeling a little sick though.. ouch.. prob from the lack of sleep.. :S how ironic.. im supposed to sleep in on weekends but the thing is that i stay up lattteee.. so no difference..

frenz coming over later.. yay mahjong! :) wanna play DDR since i've not played in the longest time liao.. since A levels? probably.. hahaha..

was chatting with enos yest.. hey cheer up k? n get well soon!! life should start looking up for you so dont give up!

oh ya just wanna say tt amway's dishwashing n multipurpose cleaner rocks big time!! ok random.

anw i better go pack my room so that at least later when they come over wun be so messy!! muahahahax..

so its the weekend again!

i feel like im falling sick.. :S must be the staying up till 2.30 yest reading deception pt.. haha trying to finish it asap so tt my bro can return it to skool..

gg to eat yusheng later at my granny's place.. means its mahjong time! i think.. :)

its 2 weeks to the march hols.. too bad i've got the Y_EE workshop on 14-15.. means i carn go overseas! besides i'll have to mark the SAs.. bleah.. i wanna go overseas!! and tt reminds me.. i haven submitted the Y_EE applicaton form yet.. told them i'll do it by this week and its alr saturday!!! nvm.. i'll try to submit it asap..

i still haven typed the N-UH report yet too! and its due next fri.. cos its 2 weeks after the attachment.. nonono.. so much to do! heellppp...

argh work tmr again.. :( haven gone to work in a week! haha i think i prefer studying to teaching.. like really la.. dun need to feel too responsible.. after all it wld only affect me.. not the others.. bleah..

just came back from relatives place.. met up with cousins and cousins cousins.. so yeah dan_ial was there so chatted a little.. was super bored.. falling asleep while watching "spirit" with my cousins.. couldnt tahan liao so i went to play com.. haha was actually looking for dan-ial to chat with but it didnt occur to me that he's in the room where they were watching spirit..

so stoned arnd a little more b4 we left for home..

haven marked a single thing i brought home.. really tired now.. hopefully i recover from this mild hangover by tmr.. bit stoned liao.. hahahha! all thanx to mrs ch-oo's husband!

im feeling a little depressed over a very stupid thing. i shall try my best to keep this thing under control because its so stupid. arghh self discipline!

anw i might have gotten into UCL.. :) but i've no money to go! no scholarship, no UCL.. so thats the cruel reality.. makes me happy for like a few days until 1) As results cannot make the conditional grade 2) no scholarship 3) no one to lend me money

hosp attachment at N_UH starts tmr.. wish me luck! i hope i wun be bored to death this time around as compared to the one at mt E.. yeahh but NU_H is good! i hope dr ji_mmy so is a nice man!

vday tmr.. hahah rmb mr chu_a and his outbreak last yr! damn bad mood la..muahahax vj's cool.. and i think i'll be spending my evening at my neighbour's house with the team.. how interesting.. hmm hahaha yeah how nice..

reunion at my granny's on thursday.. wanna play with jonathan..!! my granny says that he always play halfway then "jie jie...?" then starts looking for me! he's one smart kid! my aunt only told him to call me jie jie ONCE and he's like 2 yrs old? or arnd there.. then he can rmb! like omg omg omg! sooo cute! was playing with the mahjong tiles with him.. :) cute jonathan!

ok i shall continue playing with connect 2. omg im addicited!

well its a saturday and i've just changed my bedsheet, washed my aircon filter and my toilet.. hmm thats quite productive? :S haha i shall vacuum and mop my floor tmr! yay i like my room clean.. ok who doesnt.. but then i dun really have the time to clean my room regularly so when i get really irritated with it i will clean it all up! :) so today's still not too bad.. can slowly do.. hehe and im gonna paint my room someday! prob light pink.. ok its alr light pink but the colours not bright anymore.. its not my fault that i cant change the colour of my wall because i've got built in furniture! so im stuck with purple/pink unless i get rid of the tables, cupboards and bed.. total overhaul!

loads of marking to do come monday.. when everyone will hand up their assignments and FA.. yeah i shant talk too much about school.. pam and ruth says i say things to explicitly.. so i shall be discreet about some stuff while explicit for the other unimportant stuff..

i really think i say too much on my blog.. its quite scary i think.. ouch ok pls tell me if you think that something is unsuitable so that i can take it off? hahah i tend to go on and on about stuff as you all can prob alr tell.. bleah..

and im gonna learn indonesian!! hehe with my mum i think.. muahahax cannot imagine!

tagged by eunice! :)

Layer ONE: On the Outside

Name: Michelle Nah
Birth date: 17/11/88
Current status: employed
Eye colour: black
Hair colour: brown [dyed]
Righty or lefty: righty lefty
Zodiac sign: Dragon

Layer TWO: On the Inside

Your heritage: Chinese
Your fears: losing the people i love
Your weaknesses: heck care dont care sometimes, even about things that i love
Your perfect pizza: the handmade one by the one

Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up: shit what to wear to work
Your bedtime: anytime between 11-12
Your most missed memory: my granddaddy and his hairy hands and him trying to steal my hp

Layer FOUR: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke: erm doesnt make a diff to me.. seldom drink it anw.. but if i do i want salt too! :)
Macdonalds or Burger King: BK
Single or group dates: errr grp then single? depends on how i feel towards that guy?
Adidas or Nike: eh whichever is cheaper
Lipton tea or Nestea: dunno
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla with choco chips!
Cappucino or coffee: can i choose frap?

Layer FIVE: Do you..

Smoke: NO.
Curse: yes when im angry or when it slips my mouth
Gone to the mall: -.- im not a mountain tortoise
Been on stage: yar. umpteen times but those were the days.. wonder where i mustered the courage from!
Eaten sushi: mhmm
Dyed your hair: totally

Layer SIX: Have You Ever

Played a stripping game: wtf? see i just cursed.
Changed who you were to fit in: erm i dont think so? maybe tts why i didnt really fit into rg? haha!

Layer SEVEN: Age

You're hoping to be married: erm before 30? hahaha what a dream.

Layer EIGHT: In a Girl/Guy

Best eye colour: green.. i think thats exotic! only if it fits your features.. please dont wear green contacts for my sake! that would be horribly disgusting.
Best hair colour: streaky blonde.. hahaha same as above.. dont highlight/bleach hor! thats fake!

Layer NINE: What Were You Doing?

1 minute ago: this lor
1hour ago: eating my dinner
1.5 hours ago: sleeping in the car
1 month ago: working at HR
1 year ago: wasting my time away feeling lost and lonely

Layer TEN: Finish the Sentence

I love: my friends!
I feel: energetically tired. minds buzzing but bodys oozing
I hate: fakes [people i mean. not bags and stuff] and people who try to act cool..
I hide: my imperfections [loads i tell you]
I miss: you you and you all

Layer ELEVEN:Tag 5 people anyone who's bored.
ruth pam jeremy koln peter

alrite so everyone is getting all attached and lovey dovey.. :P hehe you know im talking bout you! oh yes i have yet to congratulate you! :)

i shall just wait for the rite one to come along and in the meantime i shall just enjoy the high life of being happy, single and extremely financially independent.. hahaha! ok that last point is a little wrong considering i still get my parents to pay for my stuff whenever possible!

let's see.. its really weird when i hear my students talking about their senior's bf's being in acsi blah blah cos it seems really childish? hahaha but back then who would have bothered so much rite? :P i mean it was like "soo cool!" to have a bf or wadeva rubbish that meant. haha and it still sounds silly to have a bf now but i guess its something unavoidable? :S guys are scary sometimes.. i dunno.. but normally they're alrite i guess.. hahaha and to those of you who are thinking of my supposed one.. please la.. i haven really spoken to him since the start of As.. hahaha! ok a little while after As but then after that not really liao.. :P so yes im 'officially' unattached.. 0.o that sounds weird cos i was nv officially attached anw! its all you ppl who keep saying stuff.. kabish! hahaha we were just frenz.. ok maybe something more than friends but then along came As and we stopped contacting.. haha seriously if it wasnt for As/overseas studies/army we might have gotten tgt.. it was that close to it.. but yupz.. nth more now.. kinda weird huh?

alrite i better start my marking.. gotta start stats tmr.. oh gosh good luck to me.. like i didnt have a hard time with stats myself just a few months ago! :S

rite im feeling horrible now.

believe it or not i kinda hate buying clothes. damn cny is coming and i gotta buy clothes. but at least im done with clothes to last me for the first day.

it sucks to buy clothes when u're not in the mood to. its like being forced to do something you do not like and the point is that everything you see wouldnt seem nice to you cos you simply arent in the mood to shop. rite?

went to eat arnold's while shopping which i think caused my gastric cos im too full once again.. argh dont remind me of what i ate yesterday please. it was awful. haha not the food but the amount and i wonder why didnt i get gastric.. ok i think i was on the verge of it and if we continued walking down to kiliney i think i would have.. thank god we stopped at orange julius so at least that gave my stomach some time to digest the immense amount of food dumped into it.. i still carn believe i ate beef noodles when i was almost full alr! gosh i really regretted buying it since it was so-so only.. bleah..

so back to today.. obviously i didnt eat dinner cos i would have died on the spot if i did.. just laid in bed sleeping and wondering why in the world isnt the gastric pain going away.. so in the end even after the medicine it didnt improve so i had to take drastic measures.. dont ask me what i did but wadeva i did it kinda improved it..

so when i woke up again at like 9+ i watched the food show on ch 8 only to rmb that the PSS finals was on!! so was switching btwn the channels.. then i realised that its quite obvious that daren would win so i just watched my food show till it ended and continued with PSS after that.. hahah cao ge was guest singer then when i saw him i got reminded of the incident on "yu le bai fen bai" where they were trying to play matchmaker for him! hahaha!

so yeah here i am feeling slightly depressed over nothing. guess its the pre-monday blues.. hah what rubbish. argh i hate explaining the horrible qn 3 of modulus!!!! god help me.. barely got threefive to understand then now i gotta explain to threethree kabish good luck to me.. at least tmr my first lesson is with twosix so it'll make my day first! :) algebraic tiles here i come!

i still haven reviewed the sec 3 SA and neither have i gone for my chicken pox vacc cos NUH needs me to have it.. damn why did i test -ve got VZV IgG blah blah blah hahah then i wouldnt need the jab!

mopeing?

mopping?

moping!

extremely random now. sleep is crucial i guess.

dream cos it will make your wish come true.

so here i shall wish for ________!! :)

its friday!! omg i got through one week of teaching.. loads more to come.. hahaha teaching is soooo tiring! more tiring than HR but i guess im not complaining as yet.. just that its quite hard to get them to understand modulus i guess.. especially the part about why you solve for the intercepts based on the actual separate eqns of the graphs. yeahh argh dammit.

and i love twosix cos they are a really nice and funky! but i just hope they wont take advantage cos im being nice to them. tink i might need to put my foot down if they go too far so i hope they wont blame me for it. playing with algebraic tiles next week so i better understand how it works in the first place. haha basically its about area lor then the sides would be the factors liddat.

for sec 3s i can slow down a little n make sure they understand mod totally cos its gonna be quite difficult if they dont understand.. i've just been passed the SA to look through.. wait till i see and then i'll know if they'll make it.. still have one assignment and one FA for them to do.. slowly la.. these classes need some time i guess.. so remedial is on the way.. more work for me but i guess if they improve tts the greateset satisfaction i can get from being a teacher..

gotta vet through the SA, mark the assignments and look for extra questions for the weaker ones.. lots to do but so little time.. most of my time is like trying to catch up on lost sleep cos i wake up at like 5+.. arghhh haven woken up during that unearthly hour for like 2 yrs!!

going for MFA tea session tmr.. so sian until i dun even feel like gg but then ok la need to get a life too.. haha no driving tmr but will prob try to book one on sunday.. bleah see where got time to do other things.. argh..

and yay my business is growing!! :) hopefully can get my first paycheck by next month since i've got some orders from my relatives liao.. hehehe so cool!

chatting with monic now.. :) miss that girl and her nonsense! glad she's back so we can meet up again.. whee~! so's ami but ami's gonna be on attachment so not tt convenient i guess..

oh ya another thing.. i managed to get the NUH hospital attachment! so now i just need to pop down to vj to get my letter, the polyclinic to get my chicken pox vacc.. fill up the form n mail the entire thing to NUH! 14 feb to 16 feb.. means i'll miss 3 days of school as well as loads of lessons but i think xian wen would be taking over my lessons for these 3 days la.. so shouldnt be too bad.. haha i really hope she can do something about that.. wait wait when is the PT issued!?!? nvm i shall worry when i get the PT.. haha

someone please remind me to get the correct number of students for my classes next wk! zzz