26/29!! :)) so so so so so happy! second highest in class.. highest 27.. missed 90% by 0.3% but considering it was mcq.. i couldnt have done much too.. hahah!

lost the 3 marks in pathology.. must have been that stupid extended matching qns.. like what in the world was cutting cone? never saw that in my life/notes/tb la! had to google to find that term and it was in the test! so i'll give myself one more mark for that.. maybe the other two marks were also from the emq.. not sure.. oh well i'll never know too.. :(

jenny's party today! its gonna be fun! last party before the exams.. whee~!!

for now.. better get some work done first.. if not i'll probably regret it soon.. ><

test was alright i guess.. i think the qn i got wrong was kinda unfair because of the term used.. cutting cone.. never saw that term before.. oh well.. one wrong.. doesnt matter i guess.. still 29/30 for now.. *fingers crossed*

dissection today was qutie fun.. got to see the cubital fossa etc.. apparently one cadaver doesnt have palmaris longus on one arm.. im starting to like the forearm.. lets hope it stays this way.. if i can master the upper limb.. the lower limb should be a breeze.. seriously upper limb is insanely complex.. brachial plexus.. multitude of muscles in the thumb.. the nerves are a pain too.. but i'll get there.. i will.. i definitely will! JIAYOU!

another thing i need to get around would be ANS sia.. i really really dont like the lecturer.. because he is using another lecturers notes.. he goes off track sometimes.. and its not in the notes and we dont know if its gonna be tested.. and apparently it will be.. cos it came out in the test.. >< but i got that right so thats fine.. for now..

watching RPA right now.. basically its a show based on real life cases happening in RPA hospital.. its so exciting man.. makes me wanna do med even more.. just that im not sure i wanna be a surgeon.. i've got such a soft spot for babies..

ok RPA just ended.. now its amazing medical stories.. HAHA! how cool is that.. :P giants (>7ft) and face blindness.. :)

week 11! thats damn fast sia.. still rmb myself moaning about rural week during week 6..

elvin3's lunch today! had salmon with lemon herb butter for mains.. mm.. super yummy la.. soft pink meat + warm fragrant butter.. *drools* starters were awesome.. smoked salmon, mushroom, olives, blue cheese, beef slices + cheese, hummus + bread, mussels, quail legs, chicken.. shiok man! hahaha.. AUD35 per person.. >< plus we opened like 3 bottles of wine on top of the 3 glasses they ordered.. hahaha.. total bill was $900-8.. you do the math.. only people who are extravagantly rich will be able to afford that.. haha! actually i think it prob was the taxes, wine etc that made it so expensive.. if not it should only be like $700.. cos 35x20 = 700

went over to mures for ice cream.. haha! honeycomb, rum and raisin, macademia nut.. yummy! the ice cream here is so good man.. 3 scoops for $5.. thats like one big tauhuay container full of ice cream! must share sia..

the pics are all in elvine's and christin@'s camera so i'll have to kope from them first.. only took pics of the food.. :P forgot about the starters.. it was

exam schedule!

16 oct: OSCE
27 oct: t2-5 saq
30 oct: t1 mcq/emq/saq
4 nov: applied exam

yay! now time to start freaking out cos its really one month to exams!!!!

next few weeks are gonna be insane.. so filled with activities.. ><>jane dinner
27 sept: jane photo
28 sept: elvin3's birthday treat
1 oct: t1 mcq sa
3 oct: stats assignment due
4 oct: jenny's birthday party
8 oct: t1 mcq fa + t2-5 saq fa
10 oct: reflective piece + presentation + portfolio
13 oct: KFP report
16 oct: OSCE sa
18 oct: start of swotvac
25 oct: start of exams!

this is crap sia.. plus today was kama1's birthday dinner too but couldnt go because there's that test next week that i need to study for.. yupyup! didnt go for maybell3's birthday lunch thing too.. there's so much happening la.. must concentrate and study!! ><

i wish you would just tell me why you're not happy.

you're not doing anything and i don't know a thing.

how do you think that makes me feel?

i feel torn apart.

its week 10 of 13 school weeks.. wow time really flies man!

4 weeks to swot vac.. 5 weeks to exams.. 7 weeks till i get home..

being home makes me feel surreal. its makes me feel all dreamy and stuff. after being away from home for so long, you finally go back and feel like nothing has changed. that was how i felt when i went back in june. i questioned whether the past 4 months really happened. i felt that the 4 mths could have just been erased and it wouldnt have made much of a difference at all. maybe its because you dont really hang out or contact the people you have lived with for the past 4 mths.. its as if they never existed.

but these are the people who means a lot to me too. weird isnt it?

next yr's gonna be different. people are moving out, graduating etc. what sense of belonging? dian3's right. there is not sense of belonging. your bestest friend may move out/graduate before you. you make new friends and the cycle repeats itself. people who just come into your life and leave even before you know it. they're just the supporting actors in the play. easily forgotten and barely remembered.

its amazing what living together with other people can do. you see all sorts of weird things. stupid arguments. you see people in a different light after a while. *shrugs* you cant stop people from thinking what they think. but you can control what you do and how you perceive the issues at hand. i think thats the way to go. the people who care dont bother and the people who bother dont care. so the most important thing is to be happy. :) smile and the whole world would smile with you.

omg just realised its 6 weeks to exams!! *freaks out*

this semester has gone by really quickly. even i am amazed at the speed its gone by with. in a flash, singapore night, rural week, jane ball etc are all over! jane weekend's coming up soon with jane play this fri and sat.. there's so much to do yet there's so little time. i really need to concentrate and get down to studying hard. :) cannot fail man.. haha! though a lot of people would be like "HUH U FAIL?! YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!"

sometimes that stresses me. but i guess as long as i dont fail, having more of a life would prob make me much happier and not just spending every single day with my books and nothing else. its hard when people around you have 12-13h weeks (which can be shortened by ponning) while you have like 20+h weeks with barely any break with the same number of assignments as them. sometimes you really wonder if its all worth it, but i guess it will be in 4.5years time. not that i will have much of a life by then.. ><

life's so full of surprises and i'm glad certain things happen. i'm glad to have someone who keeps me sane most of the time. i'm grateful for the support and friends i have around me. when the going gets tough and you wonder if you'll make it out alive, these are the people who reassure me and tell me that its gonna be worth it at the end of the day. all the shit that we have to tahan etc just clouds the bigger picture.

the moons really bright today. kinda fell asleep just staring at the moon just now. luckily managed to wake up and drag myself to bathe and now im back at the com/notes. :) badminton tmr again! yay! at least there will be more people this time around.. more fun! hopefully dear mr tee will be able to wake up and come along too! though he's got soccer training at 1.30 later.. :(

watched sex and the city and harold and kumar escape from guantanamo bay over the weekend.. :) nice shows i guess.. haha! h&k was super retarded la.. like seriously.. >< but it was good to laugh all the stress of life away.. hehe!

prob going for KFP later on. was supposed to go earlier but the mum couldnt make it so now we're mtg her at 3.30.. zzz which means by the time i get back to hobart its gonna be like 5+.. omg i dont wanna walk back myself la.. prob ask 3lvine for a lift! haha! he's prob at jane so yay! hehe.. seriously its during these horrible attachments that i wish i had a car.. it was rather inconvenient to go to derwent park.. plus there's cancer council next wed but thats nearby so its alright.. new norfolk is just too blardy far away la.. kabish.. dont like it man.. oh well.. >< and its prob gonna get busier.. *shrugs*

presentation and dissection this week again.. not looking forward to tmr and fri.. longgg days ahead! we're gonna cut open the vertebrae! yay! see the meninges, spinal cord.. whee~! out comes the saw man! saw thru all the laminae and stuff.. wahahaha! dissections really cool.. until u have to clean up all the stupid things that body uses to hold things in place.. pfft. hahah!

gotta start researching for my presentation too.. and prepare for osce fa tmr.. thank god its only fa but i guess i still have to study.. surface anatomy and start learning to talk to myself! :S

ok lunch time! hopefully get some work done before leaving for school again cos we're prob mtg there and then going out to KFP. sometimes i really wonder why do we have to do this.. its quite waste time la.. oh well.

today's the last day of hols.. :( sad man.. this week has just gone by like that.. horrible la.. wish it was longer.. this means that there are 6 more weeks of school.. 1 week of swot vac.. 2 weeks of exam.. then its home! and the end of yr 1.. super fast.. its already september..

havent done much this week really.. apart from doing up the notes from last week and my assignment.. maybe i should start on another assignment.. then at least i wont feel so slack? hahaha.. but its the last day of hols and to spend it on work is like HUHHH.. sian.. :P

oh and gossip girl season 2 ep 1 is up on the network! YAY! shall go find it and watch.. hehe.. thats if i can get onto the network.. ><

i'm feeling quite crabby right now. I COULD HAVE GONE TO LAUNCESTON!! why they early early nv tell me got space! then i wouldnt have gone down to town and then to collect the tents.. :(

so much for being nice. :( doesnt pay does it? pfft. now im really angry. not really angry la. just disappointed and like in a whatever-la state.. its like if i were in my room i would be on my way to launceston now.. *sob* i'm trying to comfort myself with my books. the love of my life. yupyup. tmr will be a better day! yes it will be! launceston.. i can always go some other time.. :) right? yes.. i shall use this undisturbed day to finish up my notes and assignment! make full use of this.. then i can enjoy the rest of my holidays.. :) its already wednesday.. spring's such a wonderful season.. not too cold yet not too hot.. sun's shining right now! looking out of the window just makes me so happy.. :) should go do laundry too.. i'll make this MY day. yup! spend some time with myself.. just relaxing and maybe watching some dramas.. hehe.. see how..

but for now. i'm still feeling crabby. need some cheering up. :( maybe some mycoplasm and chlamydia would cheer me up. followed by a dose of back anatomy and innervation of lower limb. then maybe some duchenne muscular dystrophy would do me some good. yeah i think it will.. someone just make my day now please! :(

its spring! weather's great right now.. sunny.. not that cold.. love it man!

its the hols right now too.. :) more play, less work.. as compared to all work no play.. guess thats the difference when it comes to hols.. hahah! there're still notes to read, assignments to do.. things to worry about like OSCE FA and presentation.. i've got some GP Ass1st thing this sat so i've gotta go down somewhere else to sit there for 2h.. basically its an after-hrs service (cos docs dont work 24/7 here) where people will call and the nurse will assess and tell them wad to do.. if they dunno wad to do, they will pass it on to the docs who will help.. yeah.. cool rite! only because its so unlike singapore.. hahaha..

i want to watch wall.E! not sure when it opens here though.. but its so expensive to watch movies here.. its like 11.50! pfft.. see how la.. maybe i'll just wait for someone to upload onto the network.. HAHA! that will save me money.. :D

now back to my membrane potential/action potential notes.. :))

going to bruny island for retreat! :)) will be back on sunday.. yay its gonna be fun! can't wait to go.. will be leaving soon.. hehe.. so exciting! not sure if we're gonna pick oysters though.. unlimited supply from the beach! hahah! tabasco.. lemon.. mhmm.. :P

its good to study overseas i guess. there's so much more to do here! this entire yr has been amazing.. i've done more things than i would have ever done in singapore.. experienced more emotions than ever before.. its been simply awesome man!

going out to oatlands tmr for rural placement! its gonna be interesting.. just talking to patients and knowing more about the rural place. but considering i would rather use the time to study instead of talking to patients.. i can say its a waste of time.. ><

but i'll just treat it as a break. i think i've been stretched a bit too thin these few weeks with everything's that has been going on.. so yes, it'll be great to just take a break and let me rest my brain, soul, body for a while.. :))

things have been interesting i guess. a bit too interesting though. hahaha full of its drama.. no wonder its hard to stay together and for nothing to happen at all..

its sunday! tmr's the start of rural week! erm 'yay'... haha! im sure it will be fun but sometimes i feel like its a waste of time.

workload this sem is insane. everyone's just dying. hopefully we will catch up by midsem break aka study break. pfft. sad sia. its not like i will fail or wad but its just so much to study!

it snowed!!!

omgomgomg!!

we were having dinner when elvin3 shouted "its snowing!!" then the entire asian table practically disappeared and ran outside! :))

but it only lasted like 3min.. but omg it snowed!! now my hair is wet. hahahah was so cold la.. fun though! hehehe..

Singapore Night was such a wonderful night that i think it probably is the best one SS5 has ever had!! the atmosphere was at such a high that people were actually volunteering themselves and were proactive in participating in the games! :) it was sooo fun man! it was worth all the hard work that we have put in for the past few months.. it was simply AWESOME!

headed down to wr3st point at 10am for preparation. we had our dry runs and rehearsals till about 2+ and we went back to the room to rest. the room was quite nice actually. one queen sized and one single bed. only thing was probably the lighting because it was still quite dark despite us turning all the lights on.. started to get ready at about 5.. which was too late (whats normal) and we had to rush through everything. despite it all, i would say that we all looked fabulous! interestingly, most of my friends couldn't recognise me! grr. maybe because i don't normally dress up that when i do, people realise that i can ACTUALLY look good? HAHAHAH!!!

we were talking about me feeling very hot when we were sleeping (my skin was like 'burning') then va5aant was like "yeah man, you looked hot last night.." HAHA! thanks dude! but yeah it was funny to see all their reactions. the normally tomboy michelle dressing up must have made a few jaws drop. :P

anw the night went well and we stayed up watching spongebob for a while before i really couldnt take it anymore and kinda KO-ed on the bed. this was when jes5 and s1nhui came back from iso and chased the card playing people off the queen sized bed cos i fell asleep on the single bed with chri5 still watching spongebob but about to KO like anytime soon too.

eventually we went to sleep and checked out at 11.. :) went back to jane and slept for a while before lunch and you could tell that all of us were like damn 'seh' la.. haha! but it was good fun i guess.. :))

now that it's sunday night and there's school tmr, i really need to get down to work and finish up some stuff. thankfully i made myself stay awake in the afternoon and finished my integrated practical so that's one thing out of the way! thats the thing that takes the most amount of time to prepare! grr.

ok its 7.12pm. shall do work till about 9.30/10 then sleep and recuperate! tata!

i survived! now for one more day. SINGAPORE NITE! :))

its gonna be a loonnngg day tmr man... gotta be there by 10am to start the preparation. hope everything goes well..

presentation today was great. i think we were prob the most entertaining, if not the second most entertaining presentation. but its because of j3remy who was soo willing to help us even though he wasnt presenting. thanx mate!

so yes, thankfully my laptop is able to blast music since the mic/sound system was down so we could still have our wonderful intro. hehe.

gonna take a short break. want to study but my brain is just sooo drained..

from today onwards till sat, i'll be super bz that i prob will collapse from exhaustion.

tmr will be the longest day of my life man. school starts at 8 and ends at 5+ then i've got SS5 mtg at 8 till Xpm. plus i've gotta prepare my speech for my presentation. thankfully mine's the not so difficult parts of the presentation. like its actually things that i kind of already know. :)

but still i need to practice and familiarise myself with the content. oh man..

why must i have dissection this week.. grr.. life's already so busy.. pfft. i'll survive! jiayou!

my presentation idea is really good (imo) but not sure if the group will agree when we meet tmr. i really do hope they like it! better than the vague idea-less thing we have now. kabish. asians/international students really are different i suppose.

week 4 is about to begin!

ready, get set, CHIONG AR!

so yes. its finally friday again. haha!

just finished my KFP discussion board post, T1 MCQ FA and my integrated practical. feel rather relieved already. so that just leaves me with the revision of my lectures to go!

1. autoimmune and tolerance
2. gram -ve bacteria
3. histology of blood vessels
4. osteoarthritis
5. muscle contraction
6. anatomy of hip, popliteal fossa and leg

cool! already finished histo of cardiac and smooth plus coagulation so thats two down. i love being on the ball man. though sometimes it sucks so badly because things dont go the way they are supposed to go. like im not sure how im going to survive next week man. like all because of sgnit3 next sat that i have many mtgs this coming wk. there's one on sun, prob tues and maybe thurs and fri.. which is like :S but thank god after sgnit3 its probably nothing liao. :) but then... i have like dissection next wk plus presentation which is like insane! so i really have to make full use of my time this weekend and try to cover as much as i can.. cannot afford to be behind! since sat will be GONE and sunday i'll probably be too tired to actually study.. damn.. suddenly i feel like i really need to study because i just realised that i've got FAs the week after again! luckily they are FAs and are probably online so it doesnt really matter that much. if they are SAs i think i'll just kill myself man. of course not literally but just 'DIE' from all the stress first.

feel like sleeping but now i suddenly feel like i should study my tolerance and autoimmune.. spurt of inspiration from nowhere! maybe from the stress im creating for myself. ><

just realised i got highest for both the mcq/emq and the saq sections of the paper.. hahaha

went for cbl today then they were talking about the breakdown. then cas3y was like "there's like someone with like 127+/150!" and chlo3 was "thats like really good!" and i went like "yeah thats me."

jaws dropped.

HAHAHA. it was quite funny. they started congratulating me but i told them i must have done quite badly for the others to get an overall of 78 but they were like "78's still very good!!" hahah but you know, i'm suddenly rather satisfied with my 78 now that i know the 'truth'. :)

one more lecture to go today! then its SSS mtg and probably gym session.. hehe.. and then its back to the books.. anatomy is such a pain! thank goodness i dont have to know the EXACT origin and insertion of the muscles and stuff.. i think i will DIE if i have to. seriously ruth, how do you actually rmb all those stuff?!?!

OMG IM SO INSANELY HAPPY RIGHT NOW I'M PRACTICALLY PRANCING AROUND MY ROOM (OR RATHER WAS)!!!

I TOPPED MY COHORT FOR THEME 1 WRITTEN PAPER!!!!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

I HAVE NEVER TOPPED A COHORT BEFORE!

AND PLUS THIS IS MED SCHOOL!

MY 4 ROUNDS OF REVISION PAID OFF SIA!!

though i need to put more effort into my theme 2-5 and applied exam because my final mark dropped from 85.17 to 78%.

whoops!

my pencil case is like gone (forever) i think. i'll just treat it as charity. since the people here ARE actually quite poor, with most of them on bursaries, sships etc. like they are on youth allowance and stuff. >< and you thought they were rich. pens here are really expensive so i'll just take it that i donated my entire pencil case (oh man) of stationery, thumbdrive (thank god there's nothing inappropriate), post-its.

pfft.

anyway, madam3 butterfly was alright i guess. the thing was that it was an opera (duh) and they sung it in english! :S i was like "HUH WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU SINGING?!" like 40% of the time. and its not just us (because we're asians). even the austral1an couple next to me were like whispering and asking each other if they understood. hahaha! seriously if it were in italian and they had subs, i think that would be much easier to understand. but overall it wasn't that bad i guess. like you could still tell what was going on and stuff.

pasar malam 2 on friday was good i guess. but this time round i did more cleaning up than selling. which i really didnt mind. it was really messy outside and i was quite happy to be inside just staring at them (slacking) when i was done with the cleaning. hahaha.

these few weeks are going to be insane.. AGM, singapore night, presentation etc. so glad i've already done my (k1ds and fam1ly prog) on wed! my family (mother) was really nice! though we didnt really agree with her not wanting to br3astfeed but we werent there to give advice so we just nodded and like uhhuh.

argh i hate voice recorded operators so badly! they take down wrong msgs and cause me so much trouble!!!

i'm going to watch madame butterfly tonight! :) so i shall study till dinner and then hopefully complete more topics so i wont feel so guilty! argh if only tonight wasnt the only night left!

i think i lost my pencil case!!!!!! OMFG!

*HELP!!!*

ARGHHH THIS IS SOO EFFING TERRIBLE!!!

GOSH I HATE THIS!

end of week 1! ok i survived.. hahah! with like >25 hrs a week.. its almost like hell! but i guess once we get used to it, it wouldnt be as bad. this week's timetable has me travelling between clinical school and back to uni (sometimes within 40min!) so that just means that i will have to go figure out the bus system (hopefully there's a bus!) or like hitch a ride or something. grr. i dont mind walking provided there's time but since there isnt.. oh man.. rush rush rush!

weather's getting colder.. but i guess it IS winter after all. but having said that, it doesnt mean that it is THAT cold that i cannot take it anymore. i've got a heater that is still below half the max, an electric blanket and heaps of winter clothing + thermals etc. so i definitely can last through winter. some LTs are so warm that we have to remove our coats and just have the lecture in teeshirts.

was j3ss' birthday yest so we went to mure5 for dinner! i think its cheaper than fi5h fr3nzy.. was heaps crowded man! the ice cream was like yummilicious! old english toffee, macademia nut, honeycomb! we shared of course.. was like *faints* after i finished my dinner. went back soon after and did some studying.. some of them went to i5o which i really really dont like that much. wads so great about clubbing? going once or twice is alright but going there every now and then is crazy. argh not my cup of tea.

so yes i've just finished my mindmaps for week 1! yay so proud of myself man.. really hope i can survive this hectic semester with all its reports, assignments, reflective pieces, presentations etc. wait, i will be able to do it!! YES! :)) its always like this. you think you're going to die when you look at what's ahead but once its over, everything just doesnt seem that bad anymore.

right?

its thursday! just had lunch and now im in my room trying to study anatomy of thigh and gluteal for my dissection pract in like 2.5h time. saw the cadavers yesterday. wasnt quite what i had expected. i was actually afraid to touch them at first! i think the dissected head on my cadaver is actually less daunting than the ones that are untouched. makes it all too real. like their hair, nose, eyelashes, facial features etc. the large cadaver near my table scares me a little because i keep thinking that he will start moving all of a sudden. when i stand at the end with his head and look right down to his body, i can see his expression and somehow i just start imagining how he would have been if he were alive. its just this body. maybe because it is not as wrinkled or leather-like like the others. just freaks me out a little. the bodies are just too pale, too hard and too real. (of course they're real.)

guess when we're dissecting we wouldnt really be looking at the entire body but rather just the thigh (this time round) so the other parts would be covered up and out of sight. thank god my cadaver doesnt have nail polish. that would be freaky.

went to clinical school earlier and had lectures on surface anatomy and intro to history taking as well as how to conduct an examination for musculoskeletal problems.

1. inspect
2. palpate
3. move
4. others

so yes those are the things we have to do for our OSCE that will be coming right up.. >< i think this semester is going to be a really busy one. with pasar malam next friday again and singapore night coming up on national day. there will be AGM and committee retreat too! so i've gotta be on top of my game if i'm going to be able to complete my work AND handle all these extra things. was actually made emce3 for singapore night but with my workload, i really dont think i have the time to prepare and rehearse the speech etc with jer3my! told sal3h after the meeting and he said we'll discuss it next week. seriously its not that i simply dont want to do but there are a few reasons that contribute to my decision.

1. no nicenice appropriate clothes to wear (HAH excuses)
2. presentation the day before
3. test the next week
4. 9-5 pm timetable almost everyday

see so it is almost impossible for me to handle all of that at once! i dont want to fail man! my kids and family programme (KFP) grouping is out! thank god i think the people in my group are people who can work and people whom i already know! :)) AND they are nice wonderful peeps too! so yes, let's hope that we can work together happily throughout the entire course of the programme (1.5yrs)!

just claimed back money from med1bank too! yay! so at least i didnt have to pay a cent for the blood test, consultations etc. its weird how they reimburse you differently everytime? i think it depends on the category they key the information into.. hmm..

ok shall head back to my butt muscles (gluteal) and then prepare to go back to school for fractures lecture and dissection!!

today's the last day of hols! its back to school tmr! :( timetable's horrible. oh well and i guess it can only get worse.. ><

im back in tassie! the flight wasn't as bad the one back. it went by really quickly.. :) loitered in melbourne for a while. slept while waiting for the domestic flight. *yawns* was really tired cos didnt really sleep on the plane. watched billy elliot and 21.. 21 is nice! but it was a little draggy after a while (maybe because i was sleepy).

ate lemon fish, potato salad, bread, lemonade for dinner. had magnum ice cream for dessert too! then i had cadbury hot chocolate with marshmallow!

breakfast was pain au chocolate which i didnt eat cos i wasnt hungry. had some lemon biscuit which i dabaoed. had orange juice and fruits too.

didnt have anything on the jetstar flight because it was budget so you had to buy the stuff. zzz. cheapo. so i just slept until they told us we were descending liao.. :)) it was a good sleep because i had the entire row to myself! so i put my legs onto the other two seats and slept.

managed to unpack (phew!) after lugging my 28kg luggage up the stairs.. unpacked my hand luggage, slept, lunch, unpacked a little more, slept, unpacked all. so yes! i was done by 5+pm.. hehe!

okok i think i shall go sleep liao. tired man. played taboo just now in the HCR. quite funny.. the game started getting a bit racist for some words.. hahahah!!!

results are out today! guess im quite alright with it. 78%. 2 marks away from HD. :( but second highest that i know so far which is great! the other person got 79% but she's a repeat student (so thats another matter).

had mala hotpot at uncle's house just now. YUMMY! it wasnt too hot so it was manageable. didnt stuff myself like i normally would though i still think i ate quite a lot. had haagen daaz ice cream after dinner. heavenly! cookies and cream... mmhmm..

shall go sleep soon. tired man.

oh right! i went for threading today! it wasnt as painful as i thought it would be but it was shiok! damn high after it! went to rup1ni's.. $18 for the entire face.. nicenice! they shape your eyebrows too.. :))

so i have successfully completed my scuba open water diving cert! YAY! it was really fun! its something that you have to try before you die. the underwater world is a world of its own - a world reserved for the selected few.

day 1: reached jaime3's shop at 6.45pm. supposed to meet at 7 but she was caught in a jam so we only left at about 7.45pm. seriously the jam at woodlands was NOT funny. it was disgusting. only crossed woodlands at about 10pm! it wasnt the inefficiency but the traffic police directing the traffic at the crossroad! somehow our lane just didnt move AT ALL for like 30min? was getting a little pekchek at it not moving but then all was well in the end. after crossing the msian customs, we stopped at the petrol kiosk near the big jusco for a break and waited for the other van to come along. just slacked and had a short chitchat with the other divers too. after they arrived, we set off for m3rsing! only arrived at m3rsing at about 12-1am. sat around again waiting for the boat. because it was low tide, we had to take a smaller boat before transferring to the bigger boat. this took quite a while as there were many groups at the jetty. after X min, we finally got onto the bigger boat and i just slept all the way till we reached dayang at about 4.45am. the boat was quite cold cos i was sitting right in front of the aircon! but jaim3 passed me her jacket so all was good. :)) quickly went to the chalet and KO-ed immediately.

Day 2: woke up at 8.45am to breakfast and quickly started our first dive at 10+am. it was scary to jump into the open sea for the first time but we quickly got used to it. thankfully the water wasnt very cold. just 27deg. did a few skills underwater and then we surfaced. returned to shore for lunch and prepared for second dive! same thing, two more skills and we started to fin around. it was fun! only problem was that i couldnt really stay near the bottom of the sea and kept going upwards. hahaha. returned for tea and we played volleyball while jaim3 and d3s brought the other group out to snorkel. seriously i think we all sucked big time at volley except a1nah cos she was a volleyballer. went for our third and last dive for the day at 5+ and we just finned around looking at stuff. hahaha it was really cool man! came back for dinner which was yummy! lamb chop, satay, fruit cocktail etc. :) logged our dives and then we went to sleep at about 10+ cos we were really really tired...

Day 3: woke up at 7 for our first dive! went down to 18m! saw a hell lotta stuff man.. was really nice! saw clownfishes, sea cucumbers, starfishes, sea slugs, trigger fish etc. went back for breakfast and then went for our last dive! this was really like a play play dive cos we just finned around and started taking pics! a bit weird to not be able to smile cos once u have the regulator in your mouth.. hehe.. left shortly after lunch. was a loonnng boat ride back to mersing man. we were attempting to tan ourselves on the front of the boat but it got a little too hot to tahan so we went back to the top deck and just slept. i slept on the boat on the floor cos the chairs were being cooked by the sun. zzz. ate ramly burger (yummy!) at the roadside stall at mersing. basically the rest of the trip was uneventful until we reached singapore customs! w3ndy was behind me in the queue and i managed to cross the access passport thing without a glitch. unfortunately, she got stuck at the fingerprint station. and apparently after her, the entire system crashed. HAHAH! so we had to wait a loonng time for her to come out. didnt know the details cos we went downstairs already. this is called karma man! cos she was still saying that the msian customs officer is crosseyed and she was trying not to laugh! evil!! hehehe..

so yes. im a scuba diver now! :) funfunfun!

how can anyone stand someone like that? seriously. argh. i'll go mad man.

anyway! going out with ruth and pam later! YAY! so fun! don't really know what we're going to do though but we'll figure out when we get here. hahah!

shall go pack my scuba diving bag now. :)

im not sure what i have been doing for the past 1+ week. practically nothing i guess. apart from going shopping and out with am1 and j3ssie, i have been staying at home and watching movies, reading books and surfing the net. now i know why i got myself a job after As. boredom can KILL.

sometimes i wonder how anyone can be so spendthrift as to dine at restaurants whenever they go out. i mean yes restaurant food may be much nicer, with better presentation and ambiance and going there once in a while can be a real treat but to go there almost every time can be a real burden on the pocket man!

my limit so far is prob like $20+/person. things like sush1 tei or se0ul garden etc. its crazy to eat top grade things when our pockets dont really allow it. even if we are rich (or not). its not good to spend like that too man. its alright during the honeymoon period but if this is going to be lifelong, whoaa good luck!

went shopping at far 3ast the other day. saw all the poor boyfriends being bored to death by the girlfriends who seem oblivious to the fact that their boyfriends are bored to death. there was this guy who was carrying a sudoku book along and doing it outside the shop while waiting for her. i think that's really dumb man. in this instance, i think the guy is more like a slave/servant than the boyfriend. after all, he would probably have to carry all her shopping bags after that too. please, carry your own bags unless they are really too heavy/many for you then you SHARE. not dump everything onto him!

but yes, we reached a consensus that we probably wouldn't drag our future boyfriends shopping unless its just for fun and not like really wanting to buy something that takes forever to choose. grocery shopping or shopping with a list in mind is fine i guess. chop chop and be done with it. but then again, i'm not sure if these boyfriends mind it. maybe they don't. haha.

life's full of surprises. even unexpected ones. things that will throw you off your balance. life's too fragile. for all you know, you might die/be killed the next moment. life's dangerous. why am i emoing here?

answer: my uni prof just died unexpectedly. link

some of you might wonder "so what?" but it is a great deal when it is something unexpected. plus it sounded like murder. but even the police doesn't know how he died. i bet he must have said the darnest things with his famous 'sexy' voice. damn it means that i wouldnt be able to count the number of 'actually' that he says! apparently he used to pepper his sentences with it to the extent that people started counting! wanted to do it next sem but i guess there's no more.

he was extremely friendly and entertaining at times. the first time i met him was during commencement dinner and he was the chaplain. he ended dinner with grace and said "may god protect and watch over us as we prepare for rest..." which was ironic considering it was a saturday night and its obvious that most of them weren't going to rest so we all couldnt help but giggle. he was the sort of lecturer who would be really sarcastic and animated as he tried to make ethics really interesting.

despite all his physical disabilities and illnesses, he tried to come to class, even if he had to sit in a wheelchair and not use his walking stick. he picked on students and 'terrorised' them with negative examples. his jokes were filled with sexual innuendos which were hilarious. but i loved the one he did about disabilities and resource allocation. he was trying to pretend to be a disabled baby so he went "waaa.. waa.. waa.. DOWN SYNDROME! waa.. waa.." as compared to "waa.. waa.. National Swimmer! waa.. waa.. waaa..." cant really remember wad he said for the second part but it was hilarious!!

but now he's gone.

just one/two weeks before exams, he came by to jane to help someone with their work so he sat at our table for dinner. j3ss told him that i am one of his students and he started to ask me whether i had studied for t2-5. and obviously i hadnt. unfortunately. but he asked me how do patients express their autonomy and luckily i knew it was through informed consent. then he asked how do you achieve that. so its like telling them what they will be undergoing, covers the procedure, the surgeon etc. christin@'s answer was classic. "ask them?!" hahah and he was like "yes thats's essentially wad you have to do...." HAHAH he gave us tips on the exams and stuff like that but throughout dinner he was really engaging and fun!

but yes he's now gone.

who's going to teach us next semester now? i still remember writing on his SETL that he should revise his slides cos they seems a little outdated. >< like the cases didnt match wad we were doing that week. he was supposed to try and get people in the middle of the LT to participate cos he asked if i sat at the back and i was like no i sit in the middle. its weird isnt it. how life plays such horrid tricks on you.

he was still telling us about how his daughter played truant in school and they had to go down and look for her after the police found her somewhere. he also told us how he has experienced breakthrough pain due to his illnesses. he tells us about his wife and stuff like that. you see him as a person and not a lecturer. someone with real problems and a life. not someone you see once a week for a lecture.

was just sitting at the same table with him on international night too. he was still asking me all about food in singapore and stuff like that. the best part was during the quiz. it was funny how micha3l, his wife and my prof were trying to answer the qns so diligently. the interaction we had among us is probably something you'll never find in singapore. there were no barriers to communication and it really felt like home.

the funniest thing that i can rmb would be an1ta telling him that p@trick went to an adult shop! HAHA that was cos she didnt know that he was the chaplain! damn funny la! my prof was like "p@trick.. i didnt know..." with the smirk on his face. :P p@trick is a postgrad student who was the previous dean of l@w at a msian uni. but it was out of curiosity and not that he needed anything. :)) but yeah we joked about it and laughed it all off.

how would you want people to remember you when you pass away? do you regret not saying anything? he asked me how i found his lessons and i just laughed. its weird. how would you feel if you knew that those lessons were going to be the last that you ever had? how would you feel if you knew that that was going to be your last meal, words, call, email, blog post, car ride, person you see, thoughts?

its scary isnt it? the uncertainty of death. yet its as certain as the sun rising from the east. maybe its better for him to die. i hope he died peacefully. i hope he's up in heaven enjoying a painless eternal life. may you rest in peace sir.

food i've eaten!

1. kway chap
2. beef noodle
3. minced pork noodle dry and soup
   
4. chicken rice
5. rojak
6. popiah
7. tau suan
8. korean pork hotplate
9. kimchi soup
10. roti prata
11. nasi briyani
12. laksa
13. mee jiang kueh
14. carrot cake
15. tutu cake
16. avocado milkshake
17. shui jing bao
18. soon kueh
19. macs fries and ice cream
20. sambal kangkong
21. nasi lemak
22. fish soup + rice
23. kaya toast
24. char kway teow
25. hokkein mee
26. sugar cane juice
27. curry fish head
28. sambal stingray
29. mala hotpot
30. chendol
31. cheng ting
32. bubur titam
33. fried wanton
34. soy bean milk
35. chin chow
36. tau huay
37. nonya zhang

isnt a lot la. still got a lot a lot more that i want to eat!

1. pig organ soup
2. indian rojak
3. ban mian
4. nasi padang
5. sambal sotong
6. fish head steamboat
7. coffee porkribs
8. bak kut teh
9. sweet sour pork
10. hot plate tofu
11. ...
12. ...
13. ...
    

things to do when i get home

1. eat all the yummy hawker food!
2. go to sakura
3. go for threading with sinhui
4. scuba diving!
5. go out with pam and ruth
6. go out with s13 peeps
   
7. sushi buffet with yj and ness
8. cut my hair!
9. shopping!
10. visit rgs
11. mala huoguo!
12. visit relatives
13. go swimming
14. go out with random friends!
15. watch all my movies and shows!
16. idp pre-departure briefing
17. go cycling/roller blading
18. drive!
19. play ps2
20. update my computer
21. go popular!
22. go daiso!
23. play mahjong!
24. eat bbq!
25. relax and not think about school for the next 3 weeks!
    

went up to mt wellington! omg it was sooo cold! heard from emm@ that there was snow up there so we rushed up and YES there was snow! aka patches of ice on top. hehe even though it was quite zzz but it was still snow i suppose! cos its not going to snow in hobart unless something freaky happens. considering its supposed to be cold now but its not.

the road up was so long and windy. at some points if u turned around and looked behind the car, you would think that something will just pop out and scare the wits outta you! its like the evil forest in snow white!

reached the top and at first r7an was like "aiyah not cold at all. dont need jacket." next moment you know, he's clammouring into the car reaching for his jacket and because it wasnt warm enough, he kept sitting in the car.. hahah! the view on the way up was splendid! the shots we took didnt do them justice at all so we gave up after a while. the stars were magical man. u wouldnt see that in singapore. they were so bright and clear and it was AWESOME! but it was too cold to linger too long. christin@ and i were alright except for my nose which wasnt covered but the others were a little underdressed. HAHAHA. my cheeks were like damn cold and then when u touch, its like damn smooth cos very cold. :P

the picture of us holding up the 'snow/ice" was really funny. cos sinhu1 and i had gloves but chri5 didnt so he was using his bare hands. and christin@ took a while to take the photo. poor chri5' fingers were going to fall off! its bad enough without gloves. he still had to hold an ice block! HAHAH! after we took the shot he threw the block down and was like "wahlau ehh damn cold la! my fingers....." :))

but yes it was one hell of a great experience! we were saying we'll go up again in july (which is even colder!) and see if there's more snow or wadsoever up there!! yay~!

IT'S AWAKE!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!

thank goodness! that was a BAD scare!

i think my laptop just died on me! it refuses to turn itself on! which is terribly disgusting considering i need my laptop badly now since i need to access that pathology cd and virtual microscopy! :( i really hope it will wake up by the time i get back to it again.

so now im stuck in the library trying to copy the pathology cd onto a thumbdrive so that it wouldnt be so noisy. i hate how cd-roms are so noisy when they are reading something. and i dont like how it lags and whirls when you load something. argh. irritating. so yes i am being anal bout this but i cant stand laggy things! even worse since my com is now kaputt.

just realised how dependent i am on my laptop. i think w/o it (aka now) i will just shrivel up and die from lack of social activity. just realised how ironic that statement is but surfing facebook, browsing blogs, updating blogs, chatting on msn are actually a social activities themselves. look how times have changed. being overseas before meant long waits for letters and expensive phone calls but now its just msn/facebook/email etc

technology can be such a pain when my laptop dies! ok im just ranting. i am soooo pissed off! i cant believe it can die just like that! it was alright last nite before i packed them into the bag so that i can bring it to the reading room. but to my horror, it didnt turn on! HORRIBLE!!!! argh im at my wits ends man.. luckily i am going back soon. bring that laptop back and see wads wrong with it.. zzz.. kabish!

two papers down and one more to go! its great how this exams are going. i mean i'm not sure if i'll do like really really well but at least it feels good. :) even A levels didnt feel this good to me.. hahah! but i'll have to wait till july to see how i've fared.

went to ball and chain yesterday! it was good! did you know that there is something even rarer than rare? its called blue! omg its like "marked and warmed through" EWW its almost like eating it off a cow! like *munch munch* wanted to eat ice cream at mur3s but by the time we walked there, they were closed.. zz.. oh well.. it was only 9pm but its aussie so yup..















went to woolies after that.. bought mushroom soup in a cup! just add water! just had one this morning.. yummy! it has like croutons in them as well.. gonna start looking at the cd later after lunch. hungryyyy and i keep thinking that today's saturday when its friday!

came back and slacked in my room with sinhu1, christin@ and chri5. watched 40 yo virgin and painted our nails. damn funny la! hahah















really excited to go home! have to go down for pre-departure briefing on sat at orchard hotel. its gonna be interesting! seeing all the potential juniors and stuff.. wahahaha.. :) cant believe in less than a week's time i'll be in singapore enjoying all my yummy food!

can i eat roti prata once i land? ming fa mian also can! HAHA! then can fit one more meal in.. :P damn cool can!

180min

50 mcq

20 short answer qns

150 marks

it was a freaking marathon la!!!!! my hands were about to cramp but luckily i didnt need to go to the toilet halfway through. 3lvine got stuck in the toilet cos he didnt know how to come out. HAHAH! damn funny sia.

shall rest for a while before starting on the others. yupyup! its gonna be a mad race till thursday! since i only have tues and thurs to cover them all.. i really hope it wont be like today's cos i wont have enough things to write about. i think. soo yes i SHALL study them and actually hopefully do well for it!!! hahahah!

dinner time! :) yayness~!

alrightey! exams officially start tmr at 1pm aussie time. 11am singapore time. NOOO..

actually im really really sick of studying already. cant wait for it to be over then i dont have to touch that mindmap book again.. HAHAHA then can concentrate on ethics, communication and community health for the next two days. yippee!

i really do hope i do well man. after all the studying i have done. zzz. would be damn sad if i dont. but passing will be enough to satisfy me. though getting a distinction/high distinction would really make my day. just hope i dont make stupid careless slap-my-face mistakes can liao. that will be the worst thing that can happen. i rather not know something than get something really easy wrong. i suppose most people are like that?

i should just look through my notes once more before the exam tmr. i'm still not feeling the stress yet. probably will start feeling it once im outside the venue which is the unibar. >< weird place rite? guess utas doesnt really have many BIGBIGBIG places for us to take exams and the unibar is the next best after the activities centre which still isnt very big.

feels really weird to take an exam after i havent taken one in like 1.5yrs. apart from driving which i almost had a nervous breakdown before it. but thats another story. HAHHA. maybe im not stressed because i know i will definitely pass the paper. and after all, all i need to do to graduate with this degree is to pass the papers for the next 5 yrs! isnt that easy? :) yeah boy.. hahah! plus i did well for the two SA MCQs (HD avg) and OSCE so thats like 8% out of my 10%. hope i got full marks for OSCE So that makes it another 5%! or at least a 4-4.5% yay! thats good..

okok shall go study. tmr's the big day! shall sleep early today! YIPPEE~!!! i am actually rather happy. just get it over and done with man. damn sian liao. HAH.

its swot vac now! really sian liao. argh exams faster end then can go home!!!

grr. and i'm going to grow fat with all the supper that they're feeding us plus the other meals. zzz. just finished going through 07 paper with christin@ and 3lvine. so shall do 06 paper after dinner and then hopefully can go through tmr. its FRIDAY TMR! omg time flies man.. this sucks! hahahha!

shall do some t2-5 tmr morning. yup! need to read man. cannot fail that paper and do damn well for t1! HAHA that would be disastrous! jiayou jiayou! i need motivation!!!!

i'm going to study till 2.30 and then go to eastlands where kmart, woolies,bw etc are and see if i can get a shelf for my tv. hmm. if i cant i suppose i'll just rearrange my stuff to accomodate it. HAHA.

so shh! dnd! intensive mugging ahead. :)

im trying not to explode because of 'bonia' aka h@ndbag

its really irritating. like she was the one who wanted to cheong everything cos portfolio's due tmr and we have to put in our stuff..

then she's the one who sends her stuff late and summore can tell me that its hard to sit down and do work.. nvm then she sent me her references but she forgot to attach them.. so i sent out the previous copy w/o hers first in case i didnt get them in time..

she called me and then i told her that i didnt receive so she sent again.. then i put them in and sent out the final one.. then she HAD to send her references to everyone and say things like "you all can put them in or wadeva.."

then she decided to put them in HERSELF and email everyone like she did all the work when i ALREADY sent out the final presentation.. which will be the same as what she has!

basically she just made it sound as if i didnt want to put her refs in. >< wadeva. who cares. i put them in and if u insist on sending them out to everyone again... by all means do that.. after all YOU were the one who missed the deadline and said that its cos it was hard to actually do work.. YOU were the one who forgot to attach the stuff and make me actually still worry about blardy presentation when i should be able to study instead!

ok enough ranting. she just pisses the hell outta me.

was really tired today. took a short nap at 5.30 and almost missed dinner! woke up at 6.20 and wondered why christin@ didnt call me.. anw i woke up and was about to open my door when christin@ knocked on my door! she was like "you're here ar???? i was wondering where did you go? i called you like umpteen times and no one answered.. knocked on your door and you didnt reply.." im like "HUH REALLY AR!" oh well *hugs* she thought i was with ashl3y before davin@ was like "ashl3y's taking the 6.10 bus..." so my dear christina came up to my room again even after she took her food!!! :)) <3 she's so sweet la! thought i fainted or sth.. HAHA! but yeah..

had microbio pract today! omg my hands are so filthy la! we had that UVA lamp thing with the showntell cream.. >< *faints* im never eating with my hand again! (ya rite. i just ate biscuits.) we took throat and nasal swaps and plated them onto BA plates. btw christin@'s tonsils are like "HUH WHERE ARE THEY???" and her mouth cannot open big one.. :S a bit difficult to take sample but apparently mine are like big and easy to swap. hehe.. was wondering..what will you do if you had to take NPA but that poor bloke's nose is full of stuff???? EWW.. >< isnt it kinda gross? like "erm could you go to the toilet to empty/dig your nose first? i cant exactly see properly.." HAHAHAH!!

so then we did gram staining as well! stained S. aureus! so niceeee! though personally i think E. coli was much more fun and pretty cos it was gram -ve and bacilli so they were like pink rods! as compared to my purple spheres. hahaha.. but oil immersion is so cool! like during patho practs 100x is like SHIT and impossible to see anything but with oil.. WHOAAAAA so clear! nice man.. :) i like microbio practs.. and we were supposed to take a midstream urine sample to practice at home but i just koped the container and now its sitting on my shelf. hahaha so mafan la to take a proper one. clean this clean that etc. im sure people actually do that. just pee and collect! so easy.. hahah!

its sunday! feeling happy today. :) miss the familiarity of old friends. guess distance doesnt really matter though im quite touched that people actually dont mind spending like 15c/msg replying my msgs. thanks guys! haha just realised that its quite literal. but yeah really makes my day!

rugby finals are today! i might just go down for the guys match cos its at 2 and i kinda want lunch (girls are at 11) and i can get some studying done in between. :) its hilarious how people think im mad cos im making mindmaps and while my mind maps just give them a headache! HAHAHA! duh.. cos you wont understand what is it all about and its like a secret indecipherable code! :P cannot kope my notes too! aww.. haha but of cos im not as bad as maybelle as mentioned before since she really studies all day! last week at the semis she was apparently listening to electures on her mp3! 0.o seriously. did anything go in?? and she studies till like 4am and wakes up at 8? siao ar! no wonder she's starting to burn out. ><

watched lust caution on friday with christin@ and s1nhui in my room. some scenes were rather disturbing but it was drop dead funny when sh@mini knocked and asked if we were alright cos she heard people in pain, screaming and laughter all at the same time! :P HAHAH!!! but yeah overall nice movie. but haiya why not wang l33hom!! grr..

kk shall go back to my cell death notes. then im done with week 6 and can move on to week 7! yeah yeah yeah! more than halfway through the semester's notes within 5 days! :)

just realised i havent really blogged properly ever since i got here. life just seems too monotonous to be interesting enough to blog about.

hmm actually to be honest. there's too much going around. its like we're starting to hear things about people and stuff like that which isn't always very nice. i don't really want to bother about those things cos they aren't directly affecting me since i don't really have much contact with them so thats cool. people have their own opinions on things and we just have to listen but we dont have to agree with it.

school's slowing down. thank god for it. i need all the spare time possible to actually grasp skin tumours, neoplasia, skin infections, molecular basis of cancer, chronic/acute inflammation, healing etc. all the horrible things that they dont really go through properly. my wall is starting to be filled up with notes. i might make mindmaps after i'm done with these. even shorter summary. HAHA. reading immunology textbook now. i'm up to chapter nine and i need to read till chap 10! :) so i'm quite proud of myself. its more to clarify the doubts i have about CD4/CD8 activation and B cell receptors etc. yeah people have been telling me different things but so i dont know who to believe anymore. shall just read it for myself and see how things go. :)

decided that i actually like studying a lot. its all about your individual effort and how well you want to do for the exams but sometimes i feel that i have expectations that are too high for my own good. its like whenever i get dictinction, i feel sad? unless i really didnt even expect to get a distinction (aka t2-4 formative saq). its like people will kill to be me sometimes with all my high distinctions and stuff like that but i feel like i let myself down? i guess its good that i didn't get a high d this time round but only like 77% (1 mark away from high d!) so that i will be spurred on to study harder to make up for it! i know it sounds really mad but thats how things are right now. i wanna be the best amongs the 3-5 of us and i know that it is possible! i've done it before and i want to do it again. at least for first semester since it's the easiest.

i just hope i dont go mental because of this shit. i know i'll prob graduate with a medical degree without much difficulty but its the not getting a good grade that is stressing me out. although all i need to do to get this degree would be to pass everything. even if its just barely passing, i passed. so why am i stressing myself out like that? maybe im obsessed with grades and should just stop comparing marks with other people. the aussies are taking life really easily and they are enjoying themselves at rugby games etc. if there's netball next sem, i dont mind playing i guess.. maybe i need to balance out my time. get some exercise and do something for college AND still do well in my degree. do you think thats possible? i'll just have to wait and see. dont want to fail second semester. BADBADBAD. but there'll be anatomy and stuff which is a hell lotta shit so there might not be time as well.

international night was a blast. photos are on facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26151&l=1da12&id=559512143
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26117&l=04dbd&id=559512143
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26120&id=559512143

and argh im so putting on weight here! this is despite going to the gym. HAHAH. we were saying that 80% of the international students here have like unigym membership! :S cos we're all growing fat with the food we're eating! i think even if i eat char kway teow etc when i get back i think i might still lose weight just because i'm eating less. maybe cos its colder that you get a better appetite? HAHA. but seriously, its almost impossible to lose weight/maintain unless you are really looking at what you're eating. the staples are like chips/wedges/potatoes and the vege you get are like brocolli, carrots, cauliflower, french beans. meats are beef, chicken, lamb. and most of the stuff are either fried or stewed in yummy sauce (normally with a layer of pastry over it) so ya! howhowhow!

tonight's dinner was like beef steak, nut crusted chicken breast, potato croquette, beef stew, noodle salad. thats wad i ate.

lunch was sandwich with potato salad plus one banana and pear

breakfast was two egg whites, oats, one orange.

had like muesli bar as snack. ><

wow thats A LOT OF FOOD. and you wonder why i grow fat. breakfast is standard. either oast or cornflakes with the whites and orange. add a slice of bread on weekends and its half-boiled eggs instead. :) yummy!

haiya!!!!! shall stop moping about my horrible weight and go back to my lovely t cells. yay! ><

im SICK!

argh but somehow its like the not here not there type of sick. like my throat isnt hurting but my right nose is sniffy. argh. i dont like this feeling since exams are like a mth away and i need to study!

timetable's out!

• 9th jun: T1 paper
• 12th jun: T2-4 paper
• 17th jun: appled exam

so my flight is now booked for 18th via sydney! yay! :) shiok man.. one more week in singapore! hahahah.. all my sambal! oohh yum! i hope my spiciness tolerance hasnt deterioted too much that i cant handle normal food anymore.. ><

ok better go sleep. tmr's gonna be a long day since its international night! loads of pictures coming right up! :)

pasar malam tmr! :)

we're selling char kway teow, fishballs, satay, cup corn, muah chee, bandung, roti prata etc..

hopefully business will be good so that we can get money for singapore night in august! this yr's sponsorship is rather pathetic i think. we NEED money!!! :(

presentation's tmr! it BETTER be good man! haha after all the effort i've put into it.. grr.. sometimes i realise that being asian just means that we think differently and we've got different priorities. its something i've gotta come to terms with soon or else i'll just go off someday.

有些人为了购物，宁愿不去访问医疗人员而去买三件外套！

i'll be going to new town later. finally getting that blasted presentation done. sometimes the tasks are so easy while this one is really hard. we have to interview like the emergency services/police search and rescue, paramedic and ER doctor/registrar.. wahlau eh its like who the hell will be able to get these people to interview?!

well. me! :)

asked dr chr1stine cliff0rd to help us contact some people and she passed my contact down to t3rry br0wn, ER doc, who then passed my info down to this other doc who's a sen1or medical 3ducator! and we're in luck considering they are having a course on 3mergency medicine so they will all be there!!!! omg so exciting! so we'll be going down later. hope they will allow us to video them or else it is going to be a looonnng week for me since we'll have to role play it then.. DAMMIT.

apart from that.. life's good i guess.. got 27/30 for MCQ FA again.. hahaha hopefully i did well for SAQ but we still dont know the grades for that and also for T2-4 SAQ..

shall go back to my skin. sunday's the day to do everything yet i've that dumb interview thing. argh i hope we wont take too long cos i really really really want to study! another MCQ SA on 7th may!!! noo....

its anzac day tmr so that means its a holiday for us!! :)

most unfortunately we aren't going to port @rthur because there aren't enough people who can make it on saturday.. but em1ly is going to get us all tgt to arrange a time where most people can make it.. hopefully i wouldnt be too bogged down by work to actually go and see it!

just watched "not another teen movie" and its sooo DUMB! seriously. argh pretty wonderful waste of time but i guess i finally understand stuff that christin@ is talking about so yeah. international night's coming up on 10th may which is sooo exciting! everything sounds really fun and i can't wait for it to happen.. dont worry.. the camera will definitely be on standby!! :) and that includes those of others as well so i have to be picture perfect or at least ready.. hehe.. not that there aren't already MANY extremely unglam photos in sinhui's camera. omg they are BAD. i've basically run out of facial expressions for the no of time she points the camera at me..

next week is going to be exciting as well! we've got the pasar malam thing coming up on friday where SSS will be selling char kway teow, prata, fishballs, satay, muah chee, bandung, cupcorn, teh tarik etc.. hungry? ok u people really shouldnt be feeling hungry since the people who read this blog are mostly in singapore and i dont think the people in tassie have actually found this blog. so yup! i'm in charge of selling fishballs and satay and i think sinhui is going to help me! :) christina is selling prata i think.. wahahaha!

i've got a reflective piece due on friday and its about death and dying in the medical context. sounded rather interesting but now that i've started it, i think its really about serious stuff. not just any other laughing matter but it really made me think about my perspective on death and dying. our treatment of dying patients, the respect and dignity that we have to preserve even in death, the communication skills required to break such horrible news etc. its an art and im really grateful that we're gonna be taught these things as these are things that have become so uncommon that we're not able to express our grief effectively. as a result, many doctors end up sounding really cold and unfeeling though thats just their way of hiding their sorrow.

there's also case task presentation on friday.. see everything's on friday so friday is a really big thing for me!!! hope i'll survive! yes i will and i must! :) super michelle will rise up to the occasion!

this long weekend is going to be filled with the following programmes.

Friday:

1. chronic inflammation [done]
   
2. regeneration and healing
3. microbio (staph and strep) [done]
   
4. vaccination [done]
   
5. mechanisms of drug delivery [done]
   

Saturday:

1. reflective piece
2. view pathology slides [done]
   
3. gram bacteria
4. innate immune
5. specific immune
6. Skin layers [done]
   
7. Skin structures [done]
   

so yes its a saturday again and its the end of week 7.. was just looking at the schedule.. semester officially ends on like 30th may followed by one week of swot-vac and its the exams and then its home sweet home!!!!! :))

just another 7 more weeks to go.. yay! its not that school's boring (its fun!!) but i just miss all the singapore food, friends etc.. hehe.. to be able to eat cheap cheap food that cost only S$2-3 and not A$10-15 each.. >< was talking to ruth and she was like "marche buffet very ex.. $30.." then im like "everything is cheap to me when i go back considering food here is damn ex"

two FAs on monday.. theme 1 (aka all the science stuff) mcq and saq.. hopefully i can get high distinction again! have to pray harder.. there's so much to do.. there's reflective piece, FAs, OSCE, SAs etc.. >< i dont think i'll actually get a week of 'rest' so i'll just have to continue mugging till the end of sem and exams.. jiayou jiayou!!

i just hope my wonderful neighbour will keep quiet so i can study. yup.

btw i rearranged my table AGAIN. now its back to what it was because im bored of the other arrangement and i need space in my room!

omg im so happy!! i got 25/30 for my summative mcq!!!!! :)

highest so far among all the singaporeans.. hehe.. but i think im like 12th in the cohort.. yay! so that means i got high distinction since >80% is HD and i got 83.33333333%

yippee~!!!! damn happy la. only got 24/30 for my formative.. could have been 27 too but nvm.. forgot that stupid skeletal system protects the heart and lungs and that i should have put lesion instead of infection as to the ulceration on the leg. geh kiang.. tot ulcer = infection.. dammit.. hahahah! but nvm i still got my HD so i'm over the moon!!!

pray harder and may all my wishes come true!!

yay my most hated week so far is over!!! :) happy like shit man.. wahahah!

went to the gym after that.. cycled, did some weights, rowed etc.. then went for power bar.. omg i tot i was gonna die!!! i really regretted doing the leg presses and rowing during that 1 hr man.. hahaha i tot my hands/arms were gonna fall off! but it was actually quite good in the sense that my arms are actually sore and i think i did work those triceps and biceps that are hidden somewhere.. haha..

there's pilates tmr but that will depend on whether i can actually feel my arms tmr.. hehe.. dinner was quite interesting cos i couldnt move my left arm so i ate with one arm instead.. ><

so yeah now i just have to study more (not today!!) for the upcoming test in about a week's time.. more like 10 days.. argh this is sad.. :(

next week is my most hated week so far. 4 tests with 3 on the same day. oh well luckily outta 4 tests, 3 are formative so that meanst that they arent counted in the final grade at the end of semester.

elvin3 got his new car which is great because now we get to go out without having to walk. :) 32oI BMW.. shiok sia.. haha.. AU$25k i think.. >< second hand which is cheap if u compare to singapore but if u compare to the other 'lok' cars that the people here buy, its freaking expensive. tin9 bought hers for like AU$750.. which is the 'lokkest' that u can get. no power steering etc. HAHA. his gf will be coming in bout 2 weeks time. so cool la.. she's flying j3tstar all the way and return cost her like $900+.. thats damn cheap la!! but then again its J3tstar and that ride wouldnt be too comfortable from sg to melb..

life's been just rather monotonous apart from the usual gossiping during dinner. its just go to school, study, eat, talk, study, sleep. which in actual fact i quite like because its something that i am good at. which is kind of sad but yeah i do like studying. :) maybe thats why im doing med and not fine art or something like that. too abstract for me. just give me the facts and i'll digest and tell u all about it.. hahah!

im just really amazed at how music can change your mood, evoke emotions etc. the barage of memories that just floods back when u listen to some songs. it might just have been some song that you were discussing with your friend and all of a sudden you start missing them so so much. its not that the friends here are not nice etc but i just miss my old friends a little. the familiarity and the nonsense we used to do together. (im still doing nonsense now but thats another story) maybe its the culture that im in. i miss being in an asian country. i miss being the majority. i dont like sticking out like a thorn. im happiest in my room alone or at meals with all the other singaporeans/asians. just speaking singlish and being just singaporean. aussie's nice just if u ignore the fact that its not very safe to go out at night due to horrible drunkards who turn racist and throw weird stuff like eggs at you and call u stupid names. makes everyone rather exasperated at times though there isnt much u can do. the 'best' thing that happens would be when they just assume we're japanese and start shouting/saying "konnichiwaaaaa!" from their cars or even when they pass you on the streets when u're shopping. its really irritating at times.

pam's entry kinda got me thinking a little. how often will u actually have a double coincidence of want? plus what marcu5 said about girls should not fall for a guy before a guy actually starts wooing her. ><><

in the meantime i'll just stick to my books and pray harder. :))