i juz hope that i can finish up my revision etc by prelims.. at least read through everything once or hopefully twice n revise again!

body aching again.. arghh but at least it paid off! hahaha.. :)

our skool juz renovated the sci and tech labs and built this flower clock based on this pw project.. apparently NEA might use it for the garden thingie at marina.. MOE gave us money to build it too i think.. aint too sure bout tt.. quite cool.. considering all the japanese roses there.. tgt with this diamond looking tetrahedral strucutre which really looks like the ball and stick structure! not forgetting the IR lamps to cause the flowers to bloom at different times due to photoperiodism.. coolness!

our pw projects up on the boards! y didnt they put our names.. :( so sad! but the comments were like whoa.. haha.. no wonder we got an A.. haha! no but really.. didnt think it was tt good either.. but i guess mr chua did help quite a bit in helping us edit the report.. making it "coherent and easy to read" oohh.. :)

these two yrs haf passed really quickly that i feel like im gonna miss this big family a huge lot.. mr chow.. mr chua.. ms hoo.. mrs mah.. MS CHUA! mrs leow.. even mr tan though he only took us for one term of pe.. ppl like sherli.. zhongyi.. yong guan.. S13.. basically juz seeing familiar faces everywhere.. ppl who are nice n friendly.. people who u can harrass without being daoed [sorry sam!] sitting in the treehouses looking at ppl run.. gossipping in the lts.. trying to pass food in the lt without being caught [using notes to cover the packet] nodding off to dreamland in some lectures.. observing interesting characters during lectures [boy does vj haf a handful!] i dunno.. there's just too much i miss in vj n i dun wanna leave it.. seems like yest when i juz entered it in march.. all the rubbish that the guys haf sprouted that added to the memories..

will this blog be still around in the future for me to look back n reminisce at the events that have occurred when i was juz 17 and 18? will i still keep in contact with these frenz? considering that im practically not in contact with my lower sec classmates liao.. seems quite bleak.. class reunions? maybe they would mean more to us when we grow up cos class outings seem quite mundane rite now.. same lives.. same situation.. wads new?

even though i havent exactly left a really indelible mark in vj [unless u count vandalism on the tables with pen tips but i din write the 05S13 one i swear! must be outta my mind if i did] its made a huge impression on me.. was sitting at the canteen the other day waiting for my mum n looked across the foyer and carpark.. the tree-lined driveway.. the cosy feeling.. the informal assemblies and just walking across the road from the foyer to the canteen when we are hungry after mugging in the lib.. times when we all congregate at the lockers to take our tys.. occassions when minnie jason bullies mickey michelle.. haha! these are the things that would fade but when u meet up again.. it'll come flooding back all at once..

its quite sad that i dont really rmb my pri skool and lower sec life.. nothing worth noting i guess.. i dont want the memory of these 2 yrs to fade into some deep dank corner of my mind.. despite the tears, the frustrations that have come with it.. i must say that jc has been prob the best two yrs of my life.. really unless u compare with time in art club! :) teachers noe u on a first name basis.. they msg u to wish u good luck for ur CTs.. u chat with them on msn.. u can msg them anytime if u have problems with subject etc.. its really like a close knit family.. i guess this is wad being in vj is really like.. it isnt all about the cheers and spirit etc.. its this feeling of familyness that makes us so special.. about half the tchers were past victorians.. and you wonder why we are so bonded? its just in us.. teachers to students.. everyone is related in one way or another.. u really just gotta be here to experience it for yourself..

nil sine labore. now this really applies to prelims. nothing without labour. ouch.

oh man i just realised how close it is to prelims and A levels.. it seems rather far but its not!! gp is like in 4 wks time.. prelims proper in 6 weeks.. there after its about 2 months to A levels.. NOOO!! this is not good.. :S

went for the us fair today.. gosh i dont think i can go unless i get a scholarship but looking at my s papers and results i think i am headed for NUS or NTU which are quite good too! :)

1. no money
2. not many unis have biomedical sciences.. only as additional majors.. PS. they haf biomedical engineering though! but so different..
3. results?
4. my horrible transcripts
5. predicted grades of probably not 4As
6. no stellar results at competitions eg olympiads etc
7. no money again. :(

was considering wisconsin-madison cos it seems to be not too bad for bio/sciences yet can get in that kind.. plus the profs seem nice because i managed to get my PW materials from one of them!! cornell is also one of my choices.. carnegie-mellon is famous for business not sciences.. chicago is more for engineering i think.. MIT is definitely engineering.. northwestern too.. upenn's not too bad too but seems hard to get in! i really do not know what i want.. forensics? medicine? pharmacy? biomedical? tcm? languages [mum probably kill me!]?

crap maybe i should just go to germany n benefit from the almost free education there. haha. thats after i splurge 4000 bucks [omg!] on the intensive course in dresden or mannheim.. $_$ that is how i probably will look after i come back..

Girl Next Door

Girl Next Door


Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...

guess tts how i feel at times.. hmm but i like being that girl next door. :)

b3 for gp! screwed up compre though.. everyone did..

essay: 34+1 [moderation]
compre : 23+2 [ouch]

ouch my legs hurt! din noe 5 items can be so xiong la.. :S

my maths is gg at a crazy rate.. finished DE 15.3 when the lecture juz ended today.. doing normal approx tut when we've barely started the lecture on approx.. and i think we're gonna run outta things to do soon at the rate my tcher is gg.. oh well tts normal actually.. she finished one tut in one day when we take days to do one.. :(

chem only at TM.. still got biochem n NMR 2 to do.. die la..

physics still got analogue, fluids, data analysis (?), charged particles etc

bio lectures not finished yet.. only at control of human growth.. still haf sexual repro n control in plants.. haiz.. so tts like 3 more tuts to go..

then it will be revision full steam ahead!!!!!

omg i think the A levels are really scary. dont u think so? i mean like juz 2 yrs ago we were mugging away for Os.. hoping to get into RJ or sth.. and now it would be hoping to get into ivy league or sth.. scholarships etc.. :S still carn imagine next yr will be in uni le.. at most following year.. so fast la.. gosh! suddenly we're leaving the system that we have come to love and hate so much.. no more uniforms [though i will miss them cos im too lazy to decide wad to wear].. no more assembly.. haiz do u miss skool now?????

once u get to uni u wun haf close knit classes anymore.. no more fun. juz more discussions n trying to get yourself noticed.. guess when u go overseas u've gotta compete with others to be outstanding n (in)famous.. it can be so intimidating i guess.. when you've tried your best but somehow u still lag behind others.. ouch.. in a foreign country all alone etc..

oh well tts another worry for another day.. right now it would be to understand analogue n get thru prelims and the As..

btw chem paper one falls on my bdae. ouch. luckily only one paper. unlike Os where i had geog 1 and physics. whoops.

im gonna get gold for my napfa test! :) yippee! now for 2.4 next wk..

woohoo watch pirates liao! oh n please wait till the credits have rolled b4 leaving cos there's a nice surprise behind.. hahaha! though it was really short.. :( but yeah do wait for it!! even though most ppl would haf left by then n all the cleaners would be standing by waiting for u to leave.. hahah!

guess the show was quite alright though the first one made more sense than this.. because the ending was like "huh end liao ar.. wth.. now for part 3.." kind of ending yeah.. deads man chest is rather lame n drama but its funny!! depp is so good..! the effects were good too.. yeah so i guess overall its not bad la.. :) go watch! i missed the first part though.. was late n some ppl took our seats so had to wait for them to go back b4 we could sit down..

first time out since a long time ago.. prob nanny mcphee? haha! or my girl n i.. depending on which came out first.. went to mph and then hmv to look at books n cds.. i realised i dl a lot of songs la.. i was like looking at the range and i went "oh i dl liao.. i haf this too! and this! and that!" then all the movies and dramas im like "oh watched on youtube.. got pirated vcd etc" whoops.. im soo supportive of original cds siaz.. oh i do buy them hor! juz that sometimes i buy liao then kena scolded.. :( or like in one cd i only want one song so no point buying the whole cd i gues..

saw zhihui sherilyn n angeline! haha too bad i couldnt stop to talk to them.. :(

i am going to become a mugger.. even more mugger than wad im alr.. arghh though i dun think i would really keep to that.. i juz hope i can be more focused n jiayou for prelims!! dun wanna let the teachers down n even worse get like D for physics after my A.. :S tt would be horrible! so i muz muz muz keep up my physics.. work a little harder for maths.. cheong like siao for chem and study smarter for bio.. as for the s papers.. haiz.. do wad i can only lor.. :(

new day. new beginning. thanx so much to all those who sent those msgs etc.. :) love you all! <3

ABCE physics maths bio chem. 71 68 61 49.5.

ouch.

love the first one though. :)

Rants

my wonderful day has just been ruined.

guess i wasnt really upset by my E for chem since my class did the worst in the cohort when refering to failures etc.. 7 Os and 1 F.. outta a class of 23.. tts like 1/3.. only 2 As which were like 70 n 73 and 1 B.. the rest were Cs Ds Es.. yeahh so i guess i was still above average la.. missed D by like 0.5?! had 49.5.. bah.. oh well.. its ok.. was over standard for the mcq.. only had 8 outta 30.. ouch..


so wad made my day wonderful since its so horrible? well it was physics! like oh-so-hated-but-wanna-try-n-do-well subject.. spent a lot of time on it and i guess it paid off! got myself a wonderful A!!! 71%.. yeah i noe its like borderline but ehh to think i used to be last in class! i even won ami n yf..!! :) tts like impossible la... n i did it.. was soooo happy that i couldnt believe my eyes! can u imagine getting 34/40 for mcq cos u only had 3 mistakes?! when the norm would be like 16/30? even my essay.. 15/20 and 18/20.. omg.. structured wasnt as good cos of some mistakes but it still gave me an A!! from an E student to an A student in 1 yr.. woots! :)

so yeah was so happy tt i told my mum bout it.. was telling her got bad n good news.. so she heard the bad news aka chem n then after she chided me i din feel like telling her bout physics but anw i did half-heartedly.. spoilt 1/3 of my day.. so later on my bro kept teasing me bout my E though i tried to ignore it.. its not like i didnt study.. i DID! n i tried really hard to understand the stupid topics.. ive alr done more than wad i normally do.. i did papers.. made notes.. revised summaries over n over again.. even revising during lunch b4 the paper.. but no.. they gotta harp on the fact that i got an ELEPHANT. finee so wads so bad bout an E when i noe i tried my best?

so later on while on our way to take lunch my bro was like "im gonna tell daddy u got an EEE!!!" tell lor... tts wad i told him.. i tot they would understand.. but no... out came this whole long lecture bout how i spend so much time on the computer.. how i sleep so late at nite.. how i nv seem to care bout things.. they think they noe me.. but they dont.

was doing maths prelim paper yest n kinda fell asleep cos i was tired.. mum came in to paint the toilet door and the only thing she said was "sleep sleep sleep sleep.. all u noe is sleep.." wadeva.. cmon u shud be glad i fell asleep doing prelim paper n not while reading fashion magazines or sth.. at least im trying to do my part to reach my goal! its all these baby steps that are the key to attaining those 4 As.. its so unfair.. my frenz play all day.. their parents dun complain.. i study all day yet they still complain.. wad do u want me to do!!!!!!!!!

ARRGHHHHHHHH......... im exasperated.. i dunno wad to do.. its a wonderful feeling if ppl can share ur happiness but no.. they gotta put u down n of all people.. ur parents n family.. it juz makes me feel ignored.. worthless.. etc.. its like they seem to only care about my brother that i feel like im juz the phantom of the house at times.. the one tt no one bothers about.. the one who coops herself up in her room all day.. the one who gets scolded everytime she talks.. the one who rathers tok on msn than to talk to her parents.. the one who doesnt like to stay at home.. the one who gives so much trouble.. the one who throws ur face juz cos she aspires to go to med skool.. am i such a horrible person?!?!? can someone tell me???

how would u feel if when u want to tell someone something that is of a certain value to you n that person listens halfheartedly? its like ive gotta tolerate their discussion on badminton tt can last throughout dinner till they reach home n it doesnt even concern me.. so i juz stare outta the window hoping that i can juz get into my room n be my true self.. so yeah back to telling them stuff.. once in a while there would be a break in tt discussion so i would be like "oh ya.. today ar..etc" after like 30s my mum would juz say "eh di ar.. wad did hamid [the coach] ask u to do today?" i'll be like in the middle of something then i juz give up n retreat into my little world.. trying to ignore them..

finee. be that way. and i'll be on my way. dont u worry.

theres juz so much more deep down inside that i juz dunno wad to write.. its all these triggers that throw me into an emo state.. n that i juz wanna be rebellious n prove them wrong.. they say i talk back to them but tts cos they do not noe what i have done.. things that they assume etc.. they said i dont study n that if i wanna fail n get E tts my prob.. lets get the fact straight alrite? if i didnt study can someone please explain wtf in the world i got my A for physics? please use ur own brain n think about it alrite?

why haf i been up these few nites? ok finee soccer but at least i was using the time constructively.. doing my hw.. revising etc.. not dotaing like other or playing games [ok sometimes] but ive been trying to change! i wanna change my sleeping habits but the WC screwed it up for me.. now tt its over i can try n change it.. assholes..

n today grandmother goh gotta irritate me once more... eh dey.. i went up there 3-4 times to look for the fucking sheet of napfa paper ok.. n u said its in tt pile.. so fine i searched.. couldnt find.. u were toking to i told it to peter wee n then u turned around n shoot me say y i nv tell u earlier? cos my mum always said im a scatterbrain so i searched 4 times before asking u.. wad if it was there n i missed it? u would haf said "why u so coo-koo one?" fuck u la.. ur grandmother dua bai ar? so it was ur fault for putting it tgt with the j1 pile.. n u think ppl wanna not do well for napfa test? if u all din frigging change the criteria most ppl would haf passed! so stop ur nonsense bout if u exercise regularly u shud pass.. if u only cycle but not train ur arms do u think u can do pull ups eh?

ok ive vented my frustrations.. my tears [including those during lunch] etc and i think im ready to get down to work liao..

please dont sue me etc if u're offended or sth.. cos its mainly one of those emo rants.. i would juz treat everyone else as they are if u dun step on my toes.. i even tried to forget wad grandmother goh suaned me last term.. yeah cos he didnt seem so mean but today it was too much cos it was in front of everyone.. lucklily peter wee helped me a lil by saying that i told him.. thanxx so much cos it meant so much to me.. at least ppl arent that bad afterall.. yeah..

oh yeah n pardon the expletives.. :)

im so proud of myself! i finished normal dist assignment, DE 15.1 assignment, DE 15.1 tut, radioactivity tut, biochem protein tut, lipid tut.. :) did AJ maths prelims too! but one look at the stats n i thought to myself "gosh still got so much to learn!! all the approximations.. :S" ok i noe brian nguyen, jingyuan, pq etc will start calling me mugger liao.. can almost hear them calling me tt on msn etc..

btw i haf a new nickname given by my physics tcher cos of my hair.. its not funny lor.. its MI SHARAPOVA.. yeah like mi-sha sounds like michelle.. thanx ar.. my hair is not blonde! its only orange..................

some random pics from my phone..

deren in the lib attempting to STUDY electrochem.. not revise...


















photo of the sky in negative mode while waiting for my brother to end his trg at YCK sports hall..



















some hair caterpillar we saw at lower peirce b4 dinner.. :S it was wriggling tts y so blur..



















chickens in some house along the road when walking down LP.. when u exit from the other path instead of the usual one.. yeah.. taken by my bro..

so much to do.. dunno wad to do.. too sian to do.. eyes juz closing on me.. think i shall sleep early today.. been sleeping at about 2.. betta change it asap.. yeah.. now its like sleeping b4 12 is so weird.. normally its after 1.. yeah.. i wonder when i started to do it.. usually would be after 12 before 1.. now its after 1 before 2.. gosh.. kinda fell asleep during bio s.. luckily he wasnt toking about anything impt.. its all juz in the notes tt peishan is gonna help us zap.. yeah.. :) animal biodiversity.. i seriously wonder whether i would do tt qn cos u would hafta noe like the different kingdoms like protoctista etc.. chordata..

got 68 for maths.. same as b4.. juz tt it was upon 80 n not 100.. n yong guan tyco got 86!!! man stupid idiot! haha.. reverse of my marks la.. still say wad hopefully i wun win him cos he wanna haolian.. -_-" S11 ppl smart liao lor.. win liao lor.. win S13 one.. hmph.. tt is like higher than ami too!! so it muz muz muz haf been a fluke! jkjk.. it boils down to effort cos he was busy mugging for maths.. soo if i din study n got 68.. wad if i did? ;) 87? muahahahx! tt would make him hopping mad!!

if only i had juz written down something for that stupid DRV question! i wanted to write wad the eventual answer is but it seemed wrong to me back then so i din.. HAIZ! oh well.. this time our class marks are damn varied.. from 40+ to 80+.. n to think we topped the cohort for the previous CT.. tt includes the F maths students too.. whoops.. guess many of us din study as hard for maths i guess.. haha..

prob got 26 or 27 for bio mcq upon 30.. lets juz hope it wun be too bad..!! everything will be returned next wk lor.. bah.. not too enthu but juz wanna get them back i guess.. haha guess maths didnt turn out too badly afterall cos it was my most unprepared sub.. cheonged nearly everything the day b4..

ok.. shall go do my proteins tut.. sick of DE liao.. still got so many questions n i hate to integ this and that!! gotta find my carbo biochem notes.. dunno where they are.. :S normal dist assignment.. DE 15.3.. lipids.. plus loads to read up on.. :( sleep early n wake up early to study! yeah tts wad im gonna try n do tonight!! :)

JY's 18th

Jingyuan's birthday! PQ's the cameraman.. :)































pics were taken after skool so that explains the erm low turnout.. haha! howan came after we took the one above so tts how he appeared in the 1st pic.. :P

Love?

been watching kim sam soon on youtube.. all these korean dramas really get ppl thinking bout this whole love game..

kim sam soon kinda reminds me of full house.. contract dating etc.. calling the wrong name in front of the girl and the likes of it.. but its so nice!! haha..

was up till 2+ last nite thinking about all these things.. its an unearthly timing but tts when i start getting emo n stuff la.. so yeah im the most vulnerable at nite.. haha! dun provoke me in the evenings or else u'll get it thru out the nite until we part.. think my family suffers the most.. temperamental me.. tantrums etc.. though i juz keep quiet.. refuse to eat anything normal except dessert.. get frustrated at the slightest stuff.. haiz..

maybe stress is getting to me.

back to the love thing.. so was thinking about it and i suddenly came up with this analogy of what ppl look for in love.

imagine u're drowning or at least floating in the deep vast blue ocean and there's nothing around you.. let's juz say floating cos you would be desperate when u're drowning.. so wad do you look for?

1) life float
2) an island

so whats your choice? life float or the island?

If you chose 1: you like to be adventurous, but you arent seeking to settle down.. u float around with it until a better one comes along.. or maybe even a lousier one to up the stakes.. you hang on to different guys and change them relatively frequently.. you're looking for fling material more than a life long partner..

If you chose 2: you wanna settle down with the one of your dreams and set up your own family aka colonise the island.. it has to be one that gives you a sense of security and the resources are there to support you.. if things go well, the island would prosper n develop.. if it doesnt.. well at most juz swim back into the ocean again.. looking for another island or juz a temporary life float..

man i think these are rather good analogies to me la.. :) okok if you've like seen or heard this b4 somewhere else i swear i havent! so yeah its original at least in my opinion!! so if you wanna quote this.. cite sources k?? IP rights..!!

CTs and Bio S

im so tired. juz had bio s test.

IT WAS GOOD!! or at least i tot it was :S

haha since mr foo gave a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE hint.. ;) too bad for those who din hear it.. so yeah i kinda mugged the handouts he gave as well as evolution which i din do in the end cos of a really weird qn.. muahahax..

so i wrote 4 pgs worth of worthless rubbish.. dont that think is worth much do ya? lets juz see how much that will get me.. my previous reorganisation of university notes for assignment only got me 16.. so yeah lets juz hope this rearrangement of Time article + own rubbish would gimme more than 16 since i wrote 4 pages.. hahha!

Discuss the consequences of raised levels of atmospheric carbon dioxide on organisms other than humans

for those who want to know which article it is.. its the April 3 2006 one.. yupz..! read my original copy instead of the zapped one cos got colour n i like coloured stuff.. -am i colourful?- *recalls colouring my cells in an array of colours thanx to sigg!*

guess CTs werent too bad but it wasnt too good either.. i dunno la.. my feeling always wrong one.. apart from chem back in sec 3 when the paper was uber easy n confidently announced that i would get above 80 and i did!! :) other than that my acumen hasnt been very accurate.. haha maybe im hoping that by lowering my expectations i wouldn be so disappointed?? hehe!

tml's sat and following day in sun and mon is youth day! omg so cool.. :) but i really really really need to continue studying.. if not will be super unprepared.. especially for maths s.. i really wonder y am i still taking it when i nv even do anything to prepare for it!! see la peter.. u get 2Ds then my mum says "if peter can do it.. so can you!!!" -_- so its jiayou for me lor.. though she also said it prob is "ding4 ju2" le.. the state of my maths s.. maybe shud concentrate on my bio s instead.. at least got SOME hope.. merit oso can!!!

my room is in a huge mess.. with notes notes notes notes notes notes more notes everywhere! *did u notice the more there?* u prob wouldnt have if u skimmed thru that whole line of it.. i think cos i didnt when i tried it again.. hehe! anw back to the subject.. which happen to be subjects.. oh no lame again!

GP: passage was horrible because it was about the danish cartoons that made headlines.. eww eww eww i hate such stuff.. i juz hope my AQ n summary can save me though i dun see how it can cos i dunno wad i crapped about too.. my summary had only 60 words outta 120 at first.. before adding more stuff.. was bout 110+ i think.. yeahh.. AQ was bout freedom of speech. whether we shud haf RESPONSIBLE 'FOS' or juz FOS as it is.. i chose the responsible one lor..

MATHS: erm i din do a whole qn.. which is bad! cos i din really understand the qn.. dist table for the problem.. all i understood was that WIN = +$7.. LOSE = -$5 DRAW = 0. think the prob was given too.. dunno la rubbish qn.. hope at worst get b?? pweeasseee..

BIO: wasnt too bad but the last few structured like meiosis n eco was rather screwed up.. i couldnt even decide if the chromosomes were in mitosis or meiosis la.. let alone the phase! heck la.. essay was on homeo and nervous.. i hope i can get high marks! :) dunno if what i wrote was relevant though.. yeah.. asked bout propagation of nerve impulse in a neuron.. wrote like a whole page on the propagation alone la.. i mean muz explain how it is propagated in the first place rite??? please tell me yes!! it was a 12M qn so i assumed so.. 12 mark for propagation along neurone is not worth 12M...... at least i dun think so!

CHEM: what were they thinking?!??! siao.. dun fail can liao.. or at least still get d.. dun gimme an e!! cheonged 3 essays in 15 min.. haha of which i finished 2 entire essays.. din finish one cos had to elucidate the structures of PQRST etc.. so outta the 4 essays.. i did 3.25? haha.. as for mcq.. with 15 min left.. i was only halfway thru the paper so that means the last 10 qns etc were juz like ACBDCBACDBC din even haf time to throw dice! haha juz shaded whatever my pencil led me to..

PHYSICS: mcq was rather though.. harder than the papers i did.. including the rj one which dear ruth passed to me.. din even see one qn la! only last min then saw it.. so i oso anyhow write the answer in the box.. structured wasnt too bad i guess.. except for some forces qn which i have similar qns but carn rmb..

Great Wall of China

went to LP today.. was b4 dinner at the wanton mee stall.. so bo liao walked all the way with family till the hypoleuca then turn back liao cos mum said god was dimming the lights.. went there last wed to eat prata after badminton with uncle etc.. it was PITCH BLACK! omg carn see a thing.. stood outside where the rocks were.. looked in and was like "omg carn see even rite in front of you.." nv seen anything so dark b4.. even ubin at nite was bright cos of the moon.. anw they din haf chee cheong fun so had to eat wanton mee.. wasnt feeling veh hungry mahz.. ordered the sour plum drink.. not nice one.. think its the same brand as the lime juice.. saw some poster on the wall.. looked like mardi gras or something.. the costume the fellar wore.. had limes n sour plums at the bottom of the poster respectively..

saw this cat whining at the bro to give it food.. at first tot it was a pure white cat which would look so cool.. felt a lil pitiful cos i TOT it was a white cat.. then later it walked away for a while n it wasnt.. disappointing.. after tt i din feel tt awful anymore.. maybe white made me think its more vulnerable? hmm..

oh was facing the other prata shop.. looks damn sad la.. felt even more awful when i saw the lone indian guy behind the counter eating his own muruku.. :( watching tv or sth.. carn rmb.. then this car parked next to our table n two indian guys came out..

A: "this one? *pointed to pitiful one*"
B: *pointed back* "no la.. cannot make it.." or sth along tt line.. then he pointed towards casuarina prata n said "tt one la.."

n i think the lone indian guy saw.. i dunno.. i felt terrible.. really terrible.. maybe cos felt bit off today anw so im feeling for every little thing i see..? his shop is like so 'lok' compared to the other one.. saw the drinks in the fridge and was like "arghh.. " maybe shud buy drinks from him.. at least got something.. i dunno.. haha! really sad.. loooked like its gonna close anytime tt kind lor.. maybe daytime not as bad but it was heart-wrenching if u can say tt..

on the way home i was thinking.. wad if i werent who i am? wad if i were someone else?

let's see..

1. nat ngoi [dunno her name came to me quite quickly]
2. paris hilton
3. ami
4. some hawker's daughter
5. some doctor's daughter
6. some lawyer's daughter
7. some rich kid's daughter
8. rachel wee
9. david [another rich kid, would being a guy be fun?]
10. audrey lee

my fates..

1. living it up smart, pretty, rich, popular, and cambridge med anybody?
   
2. living it up up up pretty, rich, brainless
3. smart, humble, adorable
4. prob serving some food n pia-ing my hearts out to do well in skool
5. aim to go med skool
6. aim to go to law skool
7. paragon's my haunt. scgs's my school. acsi's my dig.
   
8. free hair treatments, slimming treatments even when theres no need to.. erm HUGE house.. popular amongst guys.. are they trying to get free IPL treatments at jean yip? HAHA
9. stoning around skool with diff girls.. looking all tan n stuff.. faces of the year [guy n girl].. luckily no one sabo-ed or it would become faeces of the year.. hanging out at dad's fish pond(?), chilling out at sailing centre..
   
10. presidents scholar.. outgoing.. still rmb u for booking me! hmph! when i din even realise tt i forgot my name tag n skool badge.. grr.. nonetheless she's a great girl..
11. no 11 rite? heck let's juz be me again. how would life be? not much money.. struggling with studies though still somehow can get by.. dreams of being a doctor/sinseh/dentist (?!) though i dun think i can get past the dex test with my shaky hands even during spa.. if cannot i dun mind opening my own business.. erm pilot? can travel! :) *deja vu of typing this in my dream b4.. always happens! even for exam papers.. O levels etc..too bad carn rmb when i wake up!!* not disciplined enough to mug my hearts n guts out to get to where i wanna be.. though i really really really really wanna become a full fledged mugger.. im not gonna bother bout wad others say..
    

ok strategies for me to get my ass down to studying!

1. get my com away n lock it up in some ulu place in the house
2. lock my hp away too
3. lock my door n push food thru some doggie hole or sth
4. leave me alone
   
5. dun talk to me
6. lock the xbox away too
7. tv as well
8. no bed
9. no mirrors or storybooks or glossies
10. timetable
11. more notebooks
    
12. enough drinks n munchies to keep me gg
13. more space
14. alarm clock/stopwatch
15. well-deserved breaks to motivate me

now it seems that wad i need most is isolation. -_-

suggestions anyone?

i juz happened to open this bulletin tt told me to write 21 names down so i did.. n then i realised its the one pam asked me to do a loonngg time ago.. so i guess the names are random enough since i din realise at all? :)

1. ruth
2. pam
3. jessie
4. grace
5. pei quan
6. ami
7. wene
8. brian nguyen
9. brian shawn
10. jingyuan
11. ben
12. yong feng
13. howan
14. liru
15. dawn
16. brenna
17. shuyi
18. shiqi vj
19. qiao yun
20. shiqi aj
21. yunlong

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 14?
* back in rg.. aww.. sec 1 or 2 la.. think its 1 cos of the SL thing..

2. What would you do if you never met 6?
* hmm i wun be so stressed out by this smart jap girl? :)


3. What would you do if 20 and 9 date?
* interesting.. watch?


4. Did you ever like 5?
* hmm

5.Would 3 and 12 make a good couple?
* HAHA! even the quiz creates rumours! ok too bad yf attached liao.. tts y we stopped teasing u two huh..

6. Describe 8:
* wonderful fren to have! so sry for being mean to u last yr!

7.Do you think 13 is attractive?
* pretty boy tts wad my jnrs say.. but i juz think he's ok? maybe cos he's short la.. if he's a bit taller.....

8.Tell me something about 17:
* erm hiao? whoops! to me at least.

9. Do you know any of 4's family
members?
* brother i think.

10. What's 21's favorite color?
* eh dunno?

11. What would you do if 18 just
confessed he/she
liked you?
* freaky cos i might juz turn les! jkjk.. dun really tok to her la.. carn even recognise her properly in skool.. :S


12. What language does 20 speak?
* 华语 and english

13. Who is 9 going out with?:
* oohh i wanna noe too!

14. What grade is 16 in?
* same as me

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?
* b4 skool closed?

16. What perfume does number 2 uses?
* do u even use one pam?

17. Would you ever date 7?
* if im a guy..

18. Would you ever date 1?
* ruth! :)

19. Is 15 single?
* nope. at least tt was last updated some months ago. hah!

20. What is 19's last name?
* erm erm erm damn wad izzit!

21. Would you ever want to be in a
serious relationship with 11?
* oohhh i am alr in one! :) closer than anything else man..!

22. What school does 3 go to?
* veejaycee

23. Where does 10 live?
* AMK

24. What's your favorite thing about 10?
* favourite ar............................... gimme some time to think yahz? he's ok when he's not in one of those MOODS.. terrible..

25.Have you seen number 1 naked?
* 0.o are u sick?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

so much to study but so little time..

how how how??

9 more days to go.

someone help me.. seriously..

maths is a gone case.

bio still got hope if i really cheong like siao.

chem juz pray organic comes out. a lot tt is.

physics juz pray hard. dun like magnetism/electromagnetic induction etc.. eww.

Beijing 1

i still miss beijing.. oh well especially the shopping cos there juz wasnt enough time!!! shud do a really detailed post after CTs cos really got no time now.. arghh.. bought a billabong cap for SGD 5.. miss sixty shirts for SGD 6.. nike shox for like SGD 20.. some bag for SGD 6 which has the same print as my miss sixty shirt.. bought a butterfly bracelet and some necklace but carn rmb how much they cost.. bought one hu lu si which is some recorder like instrument with a hu lu.. quite cool but i din noe it was so hard to play! :S ohoh and i bought a TCM tb for SGD 9.. haha its edited by beijing uni of tcm.. which is the uni for the 4th and 5th yr if im gonna take the NTU biomed one.. =D overall still bought silk blankets which cost like SGD 300+ for 4 blankets, pearl cream and powder.. chinese medicine from tong ren tang.. some multi purpose skin cream for dad and some medicinal packet of herbs for soaking ur feet.. dad again.. got free pearl rings as in jie zhi from the pearl shop cos it was their children's day! was happy until i realised my grandaunt koped 4! -_- pissifying.. still dare to ask me if i got.. then she showed off the 4 rings on my third finger.. like *waves it all around*.. idiot.

well great wall was damn hard to climb cos it was almost vertical.. my legs were wobbling on the way down.. was perspiring when i reached the top of that flight of steps.. n the temperature was like 26.. so yeah was cool but tiring.. bu dao chang cheng fei hao han.. guess im a hao han now.. hahha!

the food was quite sian la.. other than a few exceptions.. like fried corn kernels with salted egg [yum!] it was like stir fried pork with cucumber, stir fried chicken with cucumber, stir fried pork with onions, really juz onions and cucumbers and not forgetting out 'dessert' of watermelons every meal! except one which din even haf dessert.. not tt i was complaining..


okok shall go study now.. arghh mug people!

hey people! at the airport now.. using the free internet access.. juz went to MAC n bought myself green eyeshadow! first time im using tt colour but everyone says its nice so tts good enough.. so excited la! first plane flight in like 7 year?! hehe XD for once im gg to the airport but not juz to eat etc.. felt really different.. juz hope i can sleep on the plane.. eat eat eat.. i wanna drink tomato juice! btw was walking pass the alcohol shop n i wanna buy Absolut Vodka! its like 2 for 38 bucks.. wad a buy! wonder if my parents will let me.. though i haf Absolut-ly no idea how it tastes like.. highly recommended though.. haha!

man the keyboard is like small! my bro juz commented on it too.. pressing all the wrong buttons too.. especially the .. becomes ,, haha! boarding at 1.20am at Gate D40.. GA 890.. oohh the buttons are tgt! haha ok random.. my bro's taking a pic of me using the free internet.. bah says im cheapskate but hey! he used it too.. muahahax shall upload the zi lian pics we took when i get back..

brian hope u will feel better yahz! like i said.. no shit when i come back! :D

ami monic wara grace etc are in switzerland now.. so shiok! juz heard the last call for frankfurt.. :( wanna go to germany.. oso got the last call for seoul/in cheon.. korea!! D34..but now oso got no snow so nvm la.. see end of the year how lor.. haha! damn 3 more min left.. only can use for 15 min per session.. see if cab log in again.. haha! they still got reminder siaz..

"Please remember that your session will be terminated within 3 min. Thank you for using our Free Internet Access Service."

i really hope this trip will be fun! i guess i can stand yi puo n ah ma for a short period of time but not ALL THE TIME cos they are like so suaku n extra at times.. dun make me start on it.. haha! really throw face lor.. no comments.. can make lame jokes such as "why are u xiao zhang n not da zhang?" tts wad my grand aunt told the tour guide! OMG *faints*

ok.. see u all in 8 days time! ciao~! times up le.. :(

Recently, my white MP,
Knok on my door, and very kek ki..
Say 'I've worked so hard, so vote for me',
'Or rubbish won't be cleared, in your vicinity'.
I said 'Dear MP of my GRC',
'Dun remember u, so please pardon me'.
'I only saw you on TV',
'Dozing off and jiak liao bee'.
Last GE I voted for thee,
2% up in GST.
Cut CPF and up utility,
Are still very clear in my memory.
5 years later, then you come to me,
Fresh from your slumber of ivory.
Say that only, you can help me,
Escape from a life of poverty.
Just take a drive on CTE,
Count the number, of all the gantries.
Or squeeze a ride on the MRT,
That has not been cleared for ye.
My life since the last GE,
Has been downhill though I voted PAP.
If I vote the same for your sleeping spree,
I can expect the same misery.
So this time round, I vote for somebody,
Who will kachiao you, to productivity.
Forms fill wrong, no big deal to me,
If there's someone to speak up for ah bee.
So dear MP of GRC,
If life no improve, vote u cho simi?

VJC SOCCER FINALS 2006 - CHAMPIONS

not clear cos too far away.. ice kachang boy aka david aka daniel's twin brother.. monic asked me to take him.. 0.o oh well he's quite ok looking i guess..
















monic's pretty boy! toking to pretty girl!





























us as usual! narcissistic!





























vigorous clapping with yellow and red clappers!














thing about being too short.. carn see the prize presentation..














THANK YOU SO MUCH!














camera phones shud come with anti-shake for ppl like me.



















one of our many banners

we are the champions~!

ownage! 4-2 against MJC!

was so afraid we were gonna lose again.. was on the brink of crying lehz.. :S im so glad their fighting spirit was so strong so as the win MJ.. pull everything back and seal the fate.. MJ has like 3 national players according to some parent whose son is in the national team who spoke to my dad while they were watching while waiting for me.. the emotions etc.. beyond words.. really.. the confetti.. the clappers.. the cheers.. face paint etc..

hurts when i speak now.. throat is like gone case.. hopefully tml still got sth left for me.. haha! full day? tts wad everyone is saying.. how true? *shrugs* taking a risk by not researching for 'gp debate' mrs leow is a good teacher! :)

shopping with mum tml so i guess cannot go out with u all.. unless by some miracle she lets me go.. dun understamd y cannot go lehz.. been so long since i've been out with u guys for LONG periods.. outings at PP are not counted!

well well well.. dismissal time on fri is at most 10.25!! hopefully soccer guys will win so tt it'll be 9.50!! mrs chan promised to dismiss us 1 period earlier for every final that we won.. starting from 11.35 because she wants half day.. soo.. since hockey girls n soccer girls won.. tt means its already reduced by 2 periods.. now for the last one.. hiak hiak hiak..

got tour briefing on fri.. so gotta go down to SA with mum.. dunno if whole family gg or wad la.. yeah so cannot stay out too late if im gg out.. 2 more days till skool closes.. 6 more days to china.. bout 1 more month to CTs and bout 5 mths to A levels.. actually u noe wad.. u think bout it.. 5 mths.. 5 subjects.. tt gives us avg 1 mth per subject.. isnt tt a scary thought?! summore plus S paper which sad to say i haven been doing hw for maths.. so im like soooo dead.. better bank on bio now.. since bio is the one there's stuff i do.. then everytime i see jason n jianfeng discussing maths s.. wahlau.. i wanna cry.. ami and monic too..

theres so much to study but so little time.. got back PW cert today.. im so glad everything paid off.. was skeptical whether a simple chopping board would be able to give us a one.. if not i would feel rather bad cos it was MY idea.. :S almost all the ideas we tried out were from me..

1. Clothing range that allowed for self expression thru designing n putting various parts tgt
2. Washing detergent that showed a difference in colour when dry and wet so that people would be able to avoid the wet parts so as to reduce slips, esp for the elderly
3. Chopping board with a sweep to ensure that all ingredients cut would be swept into various compartments for easy organisation n retrieval later on.

woots those were the days.. GPP was due a few days ago.. wish all the j1s luck siaz..

ok so who wants wad from china? haha!

Monic : Fridge Magnet
Ami : Drama serials [actually is ask me buy then lend her]
Jessie : Something that she can keep

shall buy food for the others.. like wad pq does all the time.. starburst! :) i like the babies one.. hehe! dun really like the jelly beans.. only the bean itself.. not that weird coating.. tell me wad u all want and i'll try to find.. hehe!

dentistry attachment on 9th june.. hopefully it will be fun! like finally a reply after ages la.. too bad due to overwhelming response from jc students they gotta cut a 2 day programme to 1 day.. better than nth i guess.. :)

NEWSFLASH!: my mum just got herself a blog. 0.o

im bored.

lets juz hope that dentistry person replies my email. and quick that is.

carn wait to go to china! yippee~!

Midyr Reflections

hmm its 1130 rite now and im not YET feeling sleepy so i shall try n do some sort of mid-yr-but-not-yet-mid reflection..

well i guess this yr has had its deal of ups and downs.. though i think the ups are more than the downs cos rite now i carn think of any major downs while typing this sentence..

SCHOOL

well i guess school hasnt been too bad.. results have been improving apart from chem.. trying to bu jiu my physics now with remedial with mr chow.. i think he's such a wonderful tcher.. :) i still rmb i swore to do well in my physics or at least not haf trouble with it.. so i paid my fullest attention during lectures in AJ and only dozing off occasionally.. needless to say that paid off considering i topped my class for that mini test.. maybe it was juz a simple test or wad i dunno but yeah it gave me HOPE.. thereafter i changed to vj and it started to go downhill because of the difference in topics taught etc.. had difficulty catching up and so it explained my Es and Ds.. it was only after that that i tried to pay more attention during lectures though as everyone noes its almost impossible to understand anything during lectures let alone assimilate and take away info from it.. so it went back to square one of not understanding anything.. somehow after i did quantum physics and loved it, it made me realise that i CAN actually be good at physics though its only A topic or TWO, if u include line spectra..

bio hasnt really improved much i guess compared to physics' E-C.. bio's been B-B-B though from low B to high B i think.. yeahh bit disappointing but i hope i can do well for the coming CTs.. gotta prove that i can answer to the point and not think too far which would cause me my marks..!! cos i would answer totally outta point.. bio s test next week.. human physio, evolution, ecology i think.. prob do ecology since mr foo gave hints.. hehe! i guess mr chua is a not-bad teacher la.. juz that he kinda rushes thru like a bullet train for some tuts and after that leaving us in confusion.. haha! though i can always answer his questions in class but i nv do well during tests.. cos like i said i nv give them wad they want but rather go one big round but still miss the target..

now for maths.. aint that bad i think.. still gotta MASTER integration and trigo as well as the inverse trigo differentiation.. maybe complex nos to a small extent? and not juz what i can do now.. like wad i told joey.. right now trigo is like this topic which u HAVE TO study for which is not the right thing.. everything should be at the tip of our fingertips hopefully by the A levels because it is impt and time is precious.. right now my prob is integration because of CRV..

chem.. im starting to love organic because its quite easy.. everything is juz the same for the various alkanes, arenes, alcohols, carboxylic acids, carbonyl,RX etc.. the only prob right now would be NMR!! im making neither heads nor tails bout that.. fell asleep for the first lecture because i was really tired and my frenz told me i didnt miss much anw cos no one really understood.. was awake for the second lect and tried to play an active role by doing the exercises.. got some correct i guess but practice makes perfect and since mr i-lecture-with-my-eyes-shut chok alr said that NMR is definitely the either/or qn for our prelims.. so like die die gotta do it.. as for inorganic.. IT SUCKS! all the eqns etc.. how in the world can anyone rmb all those things? esp periodic table, Grp 2 n 7 etc.. its like impossible!

now for the most forgotten subject of all.. GP.. i like mrs leow a lot!! although her lessons arent as interesting as the other classes who watch movies but at the end of the day we noe whose lessons are the more useful ones.. teaching our class aint easy because we're rather passive.. and when some of us discuss topics we go in OOO.. or @ for that matter.. if he's lucky he hits the pt if not it juz goes way off and -whoops- HUH?! mrs leow is a really nice tcher.. at least i kinda look forward to her lessons that are not assignment-doing days.. i noe sometimes i look like i wanna fall asleep but in actual fact i dun want to.. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.. my eyes in this case.. my levator palpabrae superioris is like zzz.. did i get the muscle rite? heck. doesnt matter even if i get it wrong.. haha! cos it might not even be this muscle in the first place.. muahahax.. i noe got one more sth ocularis one.. carn rmb.. haha!

time check: 1150pm

juz realised im quite sian of this now.. part 2 some other day when i feel like it..

Your Extroversion Profile:

Friendliness: Very High

Activity Level: Medium

Cheerfulness: Medium

Sociability: Medium

Assertiveness: Low

Excitement Seeking: Very Low

How Extroverted Are You?

im going to china!! =D leaving on the 31st means 30th nite gotta be at the airport le.. then coming back on the 7th.. beijing, chengde, tianjin! 1st flight in 7 years.. so excited! nv been able to go cos parents too bz.. no money etc so like whoa! finally can! then mum said if this few months' business is good might go to europe in dec! omg omg omg omg!!

so ruth that means i wun be able to make it for June's LP but i can go for the dentistry one!! man i think we shud try calling them again? haha n send in the form.. :S muahahax!

got this whole pile of hw to do now.. like CRV, EMI, Ecology mcq, electrochem etc.. haiz sometimes the teachers take forever to go thru then now like bullet train.. faster than we can do lor.. especially maths which is horrible.. its not that i dun understand her need to cheong but then going there to juz copy answers is quite pointless? sure correct one wad.. then now my 6.1 is in a HUGE mess cos i dunno which is correct or wrong now.. :(

tml's fri's timetable and there's bio s.. mediquiz.. remedial etc.. class lunch? :) i dun think i will be able to make it for the mediquiz which starts at 3.. remedial's at 2.15, bio s at 3.40.. unless like join later on.. which is damn sian la.. summore only j2 there.. really stone lor.. kabish i miss last yr's mediquiz!! :( i miss you.. come back soon k? please get into NUS!

i haf suddenly come to this weird idea of being attached to myself.. haha! makes life easier cos you only have to account to yourself and you alone.. can pamper yourself as and when u need and feel like it.. and you always know wad to say, how to comfort yourself etc.. isnt that the perfect scenario? =D sounds like some split personality la! whoops but yeah..

maybe the only guy rite now would be rain! haha.. ok im going mad really.. saw his entia advertisement in some shop and he looked cute! hehex! oh ya monic found this photo of a baby that looks like him.. hmm..

finished full house!! =D

cried like so many times la... arghh..

"Young-Jae shi.."

"Ji-Euna.."

if only life can be so unpredictable.. its becomes so wonderful.. through all its ups and downs.. in the end things turn out the way it was meant to be.. how fate can be so cruel.. initial contract marriage to a real marriage in the end but all that they had to go through and YET come out of it alive..

though i felt a lil sad for Min-Hyuk.. cos he was like uber nice to Ji-Eun! Hye-Won was a bit extra though.. haha.. although Hee-Jin and Dong-Wook were irritating but they were funny at times.. created all the situations for them.. :S

why am i blogging bout this? cos i better before i forget all their names! haha!

now i noe why people say that full house is a nice show!

tml's a half day and im so sian.. dunno if my mum will let me out.. she like quite buay song lehz.. then summore still wanna go out with ruth on fri cos of OpNR then following week wanna go kbox! how how how.. pangseh them tml? :S jessie if u see this im so sorry!!

ms hoo 'invited' me to take the Home Affairs Uniformed Services Associates Programme application form.. seems quite cool.. 3 days of OBS then 3 day vist to the various MHA uniformed services like SPF, SCDF and Prisons..

sometimes i oso dunno if this kinda things are like no one to send then like send u go.. i mean it would be a good experience [i hope] and then summore like quite fun? at least it would look good on my cca record.. haha..

had some talk on the 30h famine under no roof.. want to go but then like in june.. not that the MHA one is not but at least that one is like "whoa.." then the famine one though highly publicised but then not as "whoa.." i think.. arghh i need to study summore since if i go away for holiday.. then still got dentistry attachment which i've yet to submit the form.. then if i get in for this MHA thing i'll need another 6 days.. so like 7+2+6.. 2 weeks gone lehz!! :( pia like siao now? not much use oso rite..

watching full house on youtube.. omg i suddenly think that rain is so cute la.. he din look as appealing on teenage but then in the movie he's like -gushes-! especially when he smiles to himself.. -awww- cute cute cute cute! AHH!! =D so happy.. my frenz all say im living in the movie.. haha.. i wish la! living vicariously? muahahax! -grins to myself-

SIAO!

but yeah.. had chem test today.. was not as bad as i thought though.. but angry that i changed my answer to the wrong answer!!! :( Sn/conc HCl became HCL (aq) kabish!! nvm la.. think mrs mah doesnt really expect much of me (which is quite bad i think) and i really wanna get my 4 As so i think i muz muz muz muz muz start studying and NOT pretend to study.. cos others do NOT pretend to study.. y carn i be like susanto who's so smart!! omg.. i juz need like PART of his brain and it'll be enough! :(

was reading xiaxue's blog and it was veh frank? maybe to the extent of exaggeration? i dunno but i dun think i would ever post like that? somehow it seems a bit commercialised as it seems to tok bout controversial stuff which makes ppl wanna read on.. guess its really possible to become a celebrity over the internet.. juz need readership and word of mouth.. aint no one to comment bout others blog cos my blog is even worse but at least i noe its juz the few of us reading so it wun be so bad.. :D unless by some miracle suddenly readership shoots up which is almost as unlikely as me getting distinction for my s papers..

back to readership.. juz like the recent gay blog which is interesting.. its true like what they said.. it aint the first gay blog around.. so wads the big deal? btw found some vj ppl who are gay.. according to monic.. :S not prejudiced but then its like so near to home.. dun think i shud mention names here but one is a rather prominent SC from our senior batch? make a guess.. quite obvious actually..

ok la shall go watch my full house now..

physics

1. physical quantities
2. Measurement
3. Kinematics
4. Forces
5. Dynamics
6. WEP
7. Circular Motion
8. Gravitation
9. Temperature Scales
10. Thermal Properities
11. Ideal Gas
12. Thermodynamics
13. SHM
14. Waves
15. Superposition
16. Electric Field
17. Capacitance
18. DC Circuits
19. Electromagnetism
20. Quantum Physics
21. Line Spectrum

mathematics

1. Techniques of integration and differentiation
2. Application of differentiation (excluding maclaurins series)
3. Vectors
4. Inequalities
5. Trigo (excluding 3d)
6. Curve sketching
7. Area + Volume
8. Probability
9. Descriptive Stats
10. DRV
11. Binomial Distribution
12. Poisson Distribution
13. Normal Distribution
14. CRV

and that only for the two subjects.. someone save me..

i juz realised that this whole june hols are burnt for me with the topics the teachers have set out for us.. dammit..

ehh juz as i tot CNR was nice enough to give us green shirts.. check out wad the ubin ppl get! but hey im happy with what i haf.. juz tt the ubin shirt is erm.. more colourful? reminds me of the hawaiian kinda shirts though.. but coolio!

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today was a wonderfully sinful happy day!

zardson u'll prob not read this but really wonder wad went on btwn u and kenn.. :S how shiqi and u went from best pals to enemies.. how this stupid egg saga came about.. all these unanswered questions..

but really y would u want to throw a rotten egg at shiqi's mum?! tts like.. 0.o i dunno if u really did it or not but tts not the pt.. might haf juz been some prankster.. but to turn this whole issue into sth so big is really making a mountain outta a molehill.. tts wad i think la.. police reports are ok since its a nuisance/attack/vandalism/trespassing etc but lawsuits?!?!?!?

tml's a long day.. my throat feel sore.. :( maths s summore.. bleah.. boring!

Lamborghini

OMG SAW THIS AT ORCHARD OUTSIDE MERITUS MANDARIN !!
LAMBORGHINI!! =D SDQ 288A i think.. tts if i rmb correctly.. :P

everyone was taking pics of it la.. wanted to hop in n pose since it wasnt covered or wadeva but decided not to lest the owner runs out from some god knows where.. haha.. dad thinks its the esprit boss'.. hmm since it was parked right in front of esprit.. :P

man this car cost between $740 000 and $788 000 without COE.. got it off here..

well well well.. dream car siaz...

had sports day on thurs.. we were bored so we decided to take some pics.. haha! and u'll prob realise all the girls in the photos that i take are ALWAYS the same few.. +- 1 or two.. yeah.. cos the other ppl are always not with us.. bleah..














us again.. haha..














erm threesome brokebackers?














some random pic taken after exco mtg.. at bout 7+ at nite..

yippee! so happy today!! love you guys so much! thanx ruth and pam! :) u made my day and thanx for shopping with me.. hehe.. at least now u noe tt there's kiehl's at scotts.. haha

went to rj and we took some lame pics in the toilet and our artistic arrangement of the broken sunflower [tortured by pam too] and the random pebbles found in a corner..















went to mos later for lunch at taka.. pam ordered natsumi chicken *below*
















but turned out to be















world of difference? hmm.. hahaaha!

all in all i bought..

1) Lunch - kakakakakaiage meal
2) MAC Lip gloss
3) Kiehl's Facial Wash
4) 2 Rafflese PE Shirt
5) 1 pair of Raffles PE shorts
6) Calamari

repaired my ipod so tts free and not counted in wad i bought.. hehe!

basically random pic during break.. oh not forgetting brian nguyen's EXTRA hand. -_-

i love you all! u make my days so interesting! thanx so much!

oh and actually tt includes brian for making my nights [chatting la dey!] so cool with all ur nonsense! :P


went out with cy and peter today.. really nice to see peter again since i see cy practically everywhere though those days are shortlived once he goes back.. went to gelare.. peter's treat.. felt a bit bad.. cy and i both ate large waffle with ice cream and i still added caramel sauce! whoops.. extra 80c on top of the 2.50 for the ice cream.. :S so sorry! sat there for a long time toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking toking and toking.. *love copy and paste*

went to popular after tt.. cy saw gundamn models and peter said he'll see him in a few months time.. haha cos we tot cy will be STUCK there.. :) went looking for redspot physics o level tys but din haf.. only had dyna.. n n n the reason is tt tt tt.. DYNA HAS THE PUBLISHING RIGHTS! so poor redspot is outta business apart from guide books.. whoops.. sadd..

peter bought more chocobaby for me.. was kinda shocked when he passed it to me.. its like he gave me tt the other time too.. dunno la.. but somehow whenever i look at the chocs i feel a warm fuzzy feeling.. a bit like the innocence of everything.. like how my old msn nick translated into the real chocolate and how he rmbs that i think that it is quite nice to eat.. scully the next time i see him got one more bottle.. haha.. that would be really sweet.. too bad i carn do anything with signius.. unless u want the red strawberries that are currently part of his nick.. hahaha!

i was complaining bout not liking to walk home cos of the steep slope and peter was like agreeing.. then cy asked how peter knew.. then peter said he went to my house b4.. then cy was like "ohh" haha.. yupz.. tink peter is the 1st guy to come to my house alone.. haha the others were like pw.. or joshua but we were all there too.. then old class 09/05.. yeah.. summore stay the longest siaz.. haha.. come twice too..

started toking bout the msn messenger 3 plus and the boss mode available.. was saying how i use it when i can hear my mum come up.. was telling peter that i changed the table tt used to be the sitoca computer table and so my com is there now and can hear the footsteps cos my com is right next to the stairs.. then he was like "oh ya.. not bad eh. ;)"

dunno la.. all these lil stuff are like damn cool but guess it'll be part of my memories.. haha.. till we meet again in july.. take care~! :)

trying to do bio s.. almost done so i shud perservere n not slack so much chatting.. jiayou! had UK study talk today.. man it seems almost impossible to get into oxbridge la.. man now i noe tt my cousin is pro.. got into cambridge.. whoa.. hahah! dunno which college though.. gotta start filling up all the forms if i wanna go UK.. before mr cook comes after all of us for not meeting the deadlines.. hahaha.. vjc's success rate for oxford : 9 in 28.. cambridge : 3 in 21.. HMM! how to get in?!

pissed off

Jetzt fühle ich sehr böse an jemandem.. weil ich fühle, dass ich wie ein Idiot bin. wirklich! ich denke dass ich besser dran selbst bin.. ich bin traurig.. warum bin ich so dumm! blöde Affe!

i do not know what i feel right now.. mixed feelings.. feeling angry right now yet too tired to do anything else.. someone wake up me asap please.. because i do not want to sink deeper into this shit..

its like he doesnt wanna help himself then wad can i do? sometimes i wonder y am i so nice to him.. maybe i shud listen to jessie and juz ignore him.. no more tolerating of his nonsense.. maybe whatever i say right now would be in a fit of anger or mere pissed off with him.. sometimes he's pure silliness and idiotism (?) makes him so childlike that u juz wanna mess up his hair.. sometimes u juz wanna box him for being overboard..

we'll see if he gets his ticket tml.. its not tt he HAS to go but i juz asked if he wanted to go.. so even if he doesnt go i'll go with monic and ami.. :) so fun! man i dunno what im doing too.. *knocks some sense into myself*

juz found leshon's blog.. typical 9 yr old blog under the eyes of his mum.. ok what can one expect from a nine yr old kiddo apart from "oral-examination" description.. not a bad attempt really considering he's only 9 and has his own blogS.. note the plurality of tt word..

this week has been quite boring apart from the bbq and the buffet i went to on sat and sun respectively.. today had theory for softball again.. my teacher asked if i played softball b4.. guess i did [recalls the screams n shouts] but said i learnt it b4.. haha! this way it sounds like i only noe the theory but not the pract.. but wad rubbish la.. where got ppl know theory not pract one.. hahaha!

rmb we used to run around in that funny looking field of ours after the stupid renovations.. jessica and constance pitching and us ATTEMPTING to bat.. prob of us hitting is like 0.1 which is already rather good by our standards.. hehe.. using the stand to place the ball and whack.. then sometimes too lazy we support ourselves on it while listening to instructions.. how we lost terribly to the sec 3 class but we had fun nonetheless though it was a bit embarrassing.. haha! balls that barely flew.. foul balls.. fielders that couldnt catch nor throw.. base ppl who couldnt catch.. and only jessica tagged ppl out.. rmb being tagged by her.. scary la.. ran almost everywhere but i guess it was the fun part of it.. note: apparently cannot do tt lehz!

musicfest this fri! i want the tix! felicia chin! though i prefer eunice olsen but i guess tt was last yr and felicia chin is good too! :)

*chants* i want tix! (X infinity)

ADRIANO IS OUT!! :( why why why. haiz/.

sobz

realised it has been almost 1 week since i updated.. hmm.. so lets see wad ive accomplished.. finally read "roll of thunder, hear my cry" and "the bell jar" trying to read another book but its due tml.. so i might juz forget about it.. borrow others or sth.. my teacher has "stupid white men" and i juz started this reading craze in my class.. ami's reading "in her shoes" and grace is reading too.. carn rmb the title but apparently its nice.. haha sounds nice too.. the way she described it.. yeah..

well got ABCD for my CTs.. maths bio physics chem respectively.. n i need to hurry up decide which s papers to take.. cos i dun wanna take 3.. :S maybe i cannot take chem considering its D but the whole cohort did quite badly so see how lor.. later drop sth else then chem kicked out.. die! left one.. so see how la..

next week bio spa.. transport in plants skill B.. microscopy etc.. hope it wun be too bad! yupyupz.. following week physics skill CD mechanics i think.. then SPA would be o-v-e-r! :) cheers! haha.. to think i managed to survive 6 physics skills.. not 6 spas.. thank god..

guess rite now it will be to try n revise my physics quantum and chem! since im gg to chow for remedial.. hope it helps since everyone says he's good.. haha i think he's not bad too.. :) mr chow wo men kao ni le!

Sabo-ed again

no thanks to pam tt i've to do this.. since im 'tagged'.. hahah!

RULES: tagged person must come up with 8 (EIGHT?!??!) points abt their perfect lover. Please indicate the sex of the perfect lover.

Gender: Hopefully Male

1) Humourous
2) Smarter than me?
3) Preferably rich?
4) Preferably good -looking?
5) Honest
6) Humble
7) Thrifty (not stingy)
8) Anything that i hope he is

:)

erm.. who should i tag.. jeremy! :P haf fun!

Used

how would u feel if someone only msgs u when he's bored?

pissed off?

especially since he doesnt exactly reply ur msgs.

angry?

since he seems to only see you as someone to entertain him?

i dunno. ive had enough.

sometimes i wonder why am i so nice. do stuff for him etc. hai.

been watching kai lang shao nu cheng gong ji.. its amazing how two totally different people can just get along with each other though its more like bickering n stuff.. sweet la.. cos u see how the guy tries to make life difficult for the girl though he loves her.. he's childish n all but the way he tries to help her through various means makes me wonder maybe love finds u most when u arent looking for it.. sometimes when u try too hard it just does not come.

would u say its all fate? my uncle has been with my aunt since when they were in njc.. now what would u call tt? they've been tgt for 20 over years.. though they did break up once but got together again..

many would say tt pri/sec/jc romances dont last n we always say we'll meet better people out there.. but what if there's no turning back?

im not looking.. not searching.. but im hoping.. wishing.. dreaming.. that someday i'll find my one true love.. meanwhile i'll juz be my naive dreamy-eyed self.. being made used of most of the time..

Treetop

im too tired to update.. hah.. but tree top walk was ok i guess.. yeah..

pam i hope ur shoe din break again! :)

i love the NUS lion!

Suicide

im at a loss for words.

does anything justify suicide? anything at all?

i don't know.

its been 4 years since justina died. the pain still lingers and i miss her and everything about her. her laughter, her smile, her jolliness and simply being bubbly justina. hanging sure is a painful way to die. even criminals have got a shot in the neck when the noose tightens to shorten the agony. she didnt. struggle. struggle. struggle. motionless. breathless. its sad when these things happen. you start to wonder what went wrong and if things could have been better or even rectified. but would it help? everything's too late. she's gone. forever.

last friday, another schoolmate commited suicide. it was an off day for us and while most of us were enjoying ourselves sleeping in, hanging out with friends, or simply wasting time somewhere, our beloved family member had thoughts running through his mind. suicidal thoughts. finally, rationality vapourised and he took a step off the ledge. 1/2mv² = mgh. he did not die on the spot. only 2 hours later. imagine the anguish he had to endure. its painful enough to fall from a double decker bed let alone from x storeys. why did he take the final leap? did he regret it? we would never know. susanto said that those who jump down regret once they start to accelerate. but im sure he has already considered that. 4 A student. physics, maths, econs, chem. surely he knew how painful it would be? unless that immense pain was nothing compared to what he was going through. but did he consider the pain that we would all go through? its not momentarily like his but lingers on. and on. and on. would things be normal again? i suppose so. would things be the same again. i dont think so. but we do know that he had things to tell his parents which they did not manage to decipher..

and guess what? another committed suicide last sunday night at around midnight. our batch one. from VS NPCC. TPJC. why do people choose to die? man im sobbing away as i type this whole entry. life is precious. why do they have to choose that route? things may end for you but it does not for the people around you. irresponsible i hear you say but maybe they were at their wits end? guess it still is running away from it all. it hurts to see all these. teenagers with bright futures ahead ending it all ahead of time.

i was suicidal once upon a time. but obviously i did not take my own life. thank goodness. maybe if i were suicidal once more can someone please knock some sense into me? thanks. i dont want my family to go thru the agony n anguish of losing me. tell me before its too late.

the song thats playing on my itunes right now is runaway by the corrs. thought it isnt about suicide but it happened to repeat the runaway part n i wonder why do many ppl runaway n leave unfinished business behind? they leave friends, girl/boyfriends, family, teachers, neighbours, relatives and people who care for them.

life is precious. dont throw it all away.

business

juz bought a 42" plasma tv.. :) from harrrvey norrmann.. yippee! which means i would finally get my plasma tv n actually more importantly a remote controlled tv.. cos we accidentally threw the control for the present tv away.. so its getting a bit irritating to get up n press the blasted buttons on the set itself.. so i guess daddy got himself an expensive bdae present for his half a century anniversary? now mum's worried the tv would spoil in no time.. looking at the way my granddaddy watches tv.. 60000 hr would be over in a blink of an eye.. mum's like "i kinda regret it lehz.."

lets do some maths here..
60000/24 = 2500 days
2500/365 = 6.85 yrs

ok la not tt bad i guess? though mum hopes it can last 10 yrs?? :S

skool starts again tml.. sian had bio s selection test today.. wrote 3+ pages.. hopefully its ok la.. din really study considering been out all weekend.. bdaes n exhibitions etc.. next weekend oso.. granny earned some money [or was it won?] then she wants to treat us to sth.. then she said she'll come out with 200 bucks then the others my uncle would absorb.. haha! so it prob is bbq.. then sun would be asik's bdae party n he asked me to go down earlier to help out.. thanx ppl for saying tt like asking his wife to help himm.. *faints*

haiz mediquiz is on to my dismay! at first i tot i would be able to slack n study hard for my As.. cmon im not like peter la.. so smart.. 4As, GP 1, 2 dists.. i need to study.. n hard summore! argh.. so horrible.. then now it means tt my june hols is burnt n gone! gotta study in between the trg sessions i guess.. bleah.. its worse than sports cos its totally mental! in both sense.. mentally draining n the info overload is mental! yeahh..

i just want the hols to come n i wanna enjoy myself.. but somehow i dun quite feel myself yet.. still not in tune? feels bit weird.. need to find myself soon.. i need a compass n map.. ok tt was quoting brian nguyen.. no seriously i dun need a compass n map.. i juz need a guide..

will you be my guide?

went to the careers fair today with yong guan.. supposed to meet him at 11 at city hall but somehow my parents dropped me off at suntec n since he was gonna be late i told him to meet me at suntec.. anw i was earlier than him by bout 5 min then we adjourned to the hall liao.. haha.. we din noe where to start la.. so many things to see n goodies to take.. i wun really call them goodies but ya.. prospectus/bottles of water/stickers etc.. basically i concluded tt i would nv apply direct to a china uni cos i'll prob not even pass the HSK or wadever exam tt there is to take.. not forgetting the entrance exam itself.. :S

as for switzerland, all bachelor courses are conducted in either german, french or italian, depending on where u go.. *recalls the cantons* for germany, testDAF is only requried if u are taking a course tt is conducted in german.. cool.. checked out monash@ malaysia too.. might take med there if i carn make it to NUS.. since its like half the price in aussie for the same degree.. or dun take med n get some nice wonderful scholarship n go to US/UK etc to study.. or take biomed in NTU.. haha.. seriously im open to options la.. but think i'll still stick with med.. yupz..

anw so after we went to suntec we went to conrad for the UK fair.. went to uni of edinburgh n they wonderfully told me tt there are 16 places for intl students, of which priority is given to students who do not haf a med skool in their own countries.. which puts me at a terrible DISadvantage.. not tt i would be able to afford to go there but yarr.. then the prof suggested taking their BSc instead.. if i cannot make it.. yupz.. said i've gotta haf like hospital attachment [checked.] n basically show tt i noe wad im gonna put myself thru la.. yong guan wants to be a vet then the guy was quite funny he said sth like this..

prof: oh u wanna be a vet? u've gotta haf interpersonal skills too! juz tt its with animals..
yg : *nods*
prof continues..: like u've gotta make the animals do wad u want them to do like trying to get the baboon [brian nguyen! >.<] down from the tree to come tok to you..

HAHAHAH! quite true i guess.. being a vet is more than juz cats n dogs.. u've gotta handle big animals like elephants etc too.. as well as cats dogs la.. had to fill up survey forms again before we left.. it was super thick la! tgt with lifestyle qns etc.. *faints* like wads ur fav brand, wad radio stations do u listen to, wad items do u desire to haf.. toking bout this desire one.. the choices were mp3, handphones, PDA, camera.. then i looked at it n only tickede PDA cos i haf the rest la.. haha! means i dun realy desire them anymore? i was like "huh how to fill when i've got like most of it liao!"

anw went to delifrance to eat after tt.. wah we really couldnt decide where to go lor.. went from crystal jade bakery to food court to McCafe to Carl's Jr to Subway to Delifrance.. yupz.. n the calamari cost like 6 bucks for 6 pc.. 0.o wah lau.. one person 3.. :S then we ordered some diabolo strawberry drink.. think it was quite nice la.. total cost : $17.50 for 2 drinks n calamari.. daylight robbery la! shud haf gone to carls n unlimited refills lor.. hahah!

anw after tt he wanted to go to sean's hse but he din noe how to go from suntec so i suggested tt he go back to vj tgt with me since im gg for victorians day then take bus from there since he noes how to go from there mahz.. so yalor toked crap on the bus.. not tt we werent already toking nonsense la.. so we reached vj then he zao n i went to vj to buy my nice vj bear for 15 bucks! :)

was wondering if i shud register when i got there.. looked at the name list n all were really long ago seniors la.. then i saw some j2s sitting behind the counter.. but i like heck n wrote my name etc down.. 05S13.. most recent la.. haven even graduated.. haha.. luckily the ppl manning the booth were j1s.. :D so yeah i got a free victorians day shirt! looks quite ok la but how was i to noe tt M was too big for me!! :S then mum said "oh give me then.." shot her the wth look.. then dad said "wah everything tt is too big for her goes to u la huh!" hahaha! i love my daddy! btw its his bdae tml! i mean today since its like 1.55am now.. half a century old! gonna make fun of him.. hehe! i've been telling him tt for quite some time now actually.. ;)

gg for the US one tml with yong guan again.. n u noe wad? i shall start spending less money so tt i would haf money to study!! if not my poor daddy would hafta work so hard juz to put me thru uni.. :( if i take med overseas means i wun haf my car.. so now its save money n study hard if i want the best of both worlds!! :)

this are the clips! nice? haha..

trying to find a pic of the bag.. shall try looking for it online.. haha.. its at heeren 77th street!! supposedly only 1 pc.. argh! haha..

CTs are finally over!

omg my CTs are finally over!!

my girl and i is a very nice show! though a lil cliche.. usual leukemia etc girl dies blah blah.. haha.. but i cried so many times! was using my jacket to hide it but obviously jessie could tell i was trying to ying3 man2.. haha!

majority of the seats were JC ppl.. haha not forgetting JC couples too.. :P quite interesting to see wad they do when the lights suddenly turn on then u look around.. hiak hiak.. but hey it was on purpose.. :) anw after the show we were saying tt its so cliche etc n i suddenly said it wouldnt be romantic if the girl should haf lung cancer instead.. sounds so crude.. n usually lung cancer is ur own doing.. like ooohh too many sticks of ciggs etc.. so yeah we decided that leukemia is the most romantic way to die if one has to die.. haha! cos it seems to be not ur fault tt u're stricken with it and the guys would always do all sorts of sweet things for you and you would always leave with wonderful memories and the guy would always remember you cos you're usually the first love.. hahah!

on the way there we were toking bout who each of us is linked with.. realised i like got the most la.. -_- irritating.. haha..

1) Asik
2) Brian Nguyen
3) Jason
4) Alvin
5) Yong Guan
6) Peter
7) Chern Yih

win liao lor.. wad is this! haha.. thanx ppl...

i want the billabong handbag!!! 49.90 bucks.. *faints* but its soooo nice.. aww haiz oh well.. see how la.. but i like the material and the design!! AHH!! bought two hair clips.. 1 for 1.50.. bought two different designs.. one girl one guy.. nice nice!! its nicer than the other colours.. cos the black background makes the figures stand out.. :)